After a brief hiatus I have decided to keep documenting and discussing our ever changing dynamic. That being said, if you do not want to read graphic descriptions, venting (whining), and the occasional cuss...feel free to move on to a thread more inoffensive. My thread "uh oh she likes it...grinning ear to ear" I think has reached its conclusion. So this thread is the next chapter, and although the direction our lives are taking is filled with less questions or doubt, it is always evolving. I will recap our current arrangement and her expectations: 1. I stay caged unless there is a physical problem or she wants it off of me. It is my natural state from now on. I don't bug her to take it off, but begging during play is allowed(doesn't mean it will be removed, she just likes to see me desperate enough to beg). 2. I will go down and or rim her every night or the next morning. Additional toys may be used, and I will take all direction on use of them as well as my mouth. 3. I am not allowed to touch "her" penis without permission ever again. Must keep it groomed and notify her of any issues. 4. I have a responsibility to notify her of my feelings and moods that might affect my submissiveness. 5. I give up all "rights" of sexual obligations and orgasms. Her only sexual obligation to me is to keep me in the state of being she wishes me to be in. 6. I have agreed to accept physical punishment, even to the point of tears if given. Paddling, spankings, ball slaps and squeezes, or anything she wishes to make me a better sub. We both draw the line at blood/cuts, or serious ball punching etc. 7. I clean up all of my orgasms (still need to be told after full orgasms) she believes this puts me back in subbie mode faster. I tend to agree but still something that she needs to tell me to do and has agreed to help me. 8. When time allows, usually once a week, I perform maid service. I don't have a set list of chores, just things that make life easier and or pampered. She may require me to wear any feminine attire she wishes. She is not sexually attracted by it, just enjoys my softer, subbie, beta side on occasion. 9. She hasn't made it yet but was told a calander will be made for maintenance punishment. This is to reinforce her feelings of dominance, and is more for her than me. Pegging can also be used but I get the feeling she really doesn't like it. I really only desire it after it has been a long time without orgasm so not really high on my fun list, but she has every right to take me whenever she likes. She feels empowered giving me punishment, and long periods without seem to sap some of her feelings of authority away. 10. Unless around others, I refer to her as mistress or mistress Amante. We have a somewhat untypical FLR. She is most definitely in charge of sex and sexual activity, although knows of my wants, needs, and fantasies. Outside of the bedroom we are equals, but will pretty much do what I am asked. I am not fond of being expected to do things, I believe it leads to being taken for granted. I am very accommodating and do love to make her happy though. I have never snuck an orgasm but as a sign of my commitment have gotten pierced in order to fully secure "her" cock from tampering. The device that utilizes the piercing is still on its way, and she has both keys. This is how far we have evolved. When we first started she was apprehensive and agreed only because she liked me and was willing to give it a try. Now she can't imagine not having the key to "her" cock. And me....punishment, maid service, and ball slapping were hard limits for me, and now are part of my life. She used to unlock me almost every night, and rarely went more than a few days without thinking I needed to orgasm. Now she has no problem with me getting her off or me watching her get herself off, while I remain locked. She's not keeping me locked because I want it locked, it stays locked because she wants it locked and doesn't need or desire it. She is a force of her own and has fully absorbed into what is no longer a role she is playing, but who she now is. Just this morning, she touched me near my cage and said "your not taking very good care of my things "(I have been away from her this week and haven't been grooming down there). I couldn't be happier that we have both found not only what we wanted, but also what we both needed. Chapter 2 of our life together is beginning.