My March (and hopefully April) Journal

Week 1 - A new experience

One week ago on March 2nd, I got my release as orginally planned, but it wasn't all sweetness like I had hoped it would be. Being locked up 24/7 for 6 weeks broke me and made me miserable. My coworkers noticed a slight change in me that wasn't very pleasant and they could tell something was different about me. They asked me what was going on and I just dismissed it as feeling literally under the weather and drinking too much coffee for it, since it had been very rainy at the time. I feel I dodged a bullet that time. Next time, I may not be so lucky.

I didn't think of it at the time, because I was attempting to live out a fantasy of having to endure months of persistent teasing without any reprieve and no hope of release. But I now know that being locked up overnight was depriving me of much needed sleep and that was the main contributor to me getting desperate to get out of the cage. My main purpose of going into chastity in the first place was just to stop myself from jerking off so damn much (many times every day, literally) and driving myself literally insane to the point of where I can't think of anything but how badly I want unlocked seems more self-destructive than productive to me. So, I'm gonna unlock myself every night just before I go to bed, since I don't jerk off at night. I'm only sexually active in the day time, so there's no risk there.

I went to work without my cage on for a few days and it felt... Risky! The first couple days I was only a tad concerned that I might get an erection upon seeing a hot lady in the store who's my type, resulting in an embarrassing bulge in my pants... But on my 4th day in this new session, the horniness returned and I got hit with an urge while eating lunch in the breakroom. Since I left my cage at home, there was a definite temptation for me to stop eating and rush to the restroom for a quick wank, but I fought it off and made it through the rest of the day. This prompted me to keep the cage on for the next couple work days.

On day 5, I barely slept the night before, because I was feeling mighty horny, so I put on my Keyholder's Prize cage with my elastic strap and it felt really amazing... The strap holds the cage in place, so I don't have to lift it up to sit down and it doesn't turtle on me, so there's no need to adjust the ring. With the strap keeping my ring closer to my body, there is no unused room in the cage and it stops 100% of any erection. I can't get hard at all, but there's no pain or pressure. Just extreme frustration & horniness, the way I like it. It was my day off, so I spent a portion of the morning watching porn to give this new combo a thorough tryout. It makes me wanna jerk off so badly and since I can't, my balls ache ever so blissfully. I'm so loving this right now.

The next 2 days, I went to work with the cage and strap combo on. My original plan was to unlock myself for work and not have to worry about the cage and I could (hopefully) focus on my job a little better... But on day 4, I had a sudden urge and I decided not to take any chances afterward, so I went to work in the cage on days 6 & 7. It's a good thing I did because on day 6 I had a series a minor urges and on day 7, I had a severe urge that would've tempted me to take a "bathroom break" if I hadn't left my keys at home. So from now on, I'm only unlocking myself when I need to sleep at night and I'm relocking myself first thing every morning.

With a bit of counseling from some friends here in CM, I realized that my problem sleeping at night after a few days post-orgasm was from "withdrawal". I spent more than 30 years of my life jerking off to porn and using that as stress relief for pretty much everything that bothered me, so my body is insisting on regular orgasms and and I'm not giving it what it wants, so it's protesting by making me too horny to sleep on certain nights. However, sleeping without my cage on this past week is making a difference. Night time erections are still very common but they don't wake me up when I'm not in my cage, so I can get my rest and start every day fresh... Save for ever-filling blue balls.

 

Week 2 - Things are getting more and more intense every day.

On day 8, it was my day off and I got a good night's rest, but literally felt under the weather, as it had been raining overnight and then it quickly changed to snow after I got up. After putting my cage on the moment I got up, I felt maybe watching some porn would perk me up while I have my coffee. As the day went on, I felt some minor surges in horniness but nothing really substantial... That is, until I thought of the concept of going consecutive months without cumming, resulting in my balls getting huge. that was a SERIOUS turn-on for me. I spent much of the day thinking about what it may feel like going a couple months without cumming, only this time without the burden of missing out on sleep. It feels alot more doable than staying locked up literally 24/7. Perhaps my last session was too much all at once and I need to slow things down a bit.

On day 9, I woke up with a serious erection and was even leaking a bit into my underwear. I put my cage on as soon as the erection went down and was horny AF the rest of the morning. I had a series of urges while at work and was very horny when I got home, so I read some chastity captions and it really made my balls ache in frustration. Had one final urge in the evening about an hour before getting ready for bed. I didn't want to take a chance, so I kept the cage on when I went to bed... I woke up 3 hours later because I really had to pee, but I was calm enough afterward that I could take the cage off and sleep uninterrupted for a few more hours.

On day 10, I woke up feeling very horny again and my pelvis was a little sore... But I liked it. I put on my cage upon getting out of bed, but I was in a bit of a haze from the changing weather in my town, so I watched some porn while having my coffee to help me fully wake up. The ache and frustration was very enjoyable. Went to work with blue balls and smiling. Had a couple urges while at work, but nothing really severe.

Day 11, My balls are starting to plump up! Last night while at work, I had to walk the sales floor about an hour before closing time because our overhead wasn't working and I had to inform customers we were gonna close in an hour. While walking the floor, my balls swung like a pendulum and it was very distracting. At home it would feel wonderful, but at work I really try to focus on my job, so before we closed I bought 2 packs of Jockey stretch briefs to (hopefully) hold my balls in place while at work. I tried them on the next day and they worked exactly as I hoped they would.

The Peaks & troughs have returned! I noticed I'm getting suddenly super horny for a couple hours then I feel nothing for a few hours and then it comes back again. This has repeated itself for the past couple days and it still persists.

Day 12, I actually kept the cage on all night, because I felt I was too horny to avoid blowing my load if I took it off... I actually slept alright with it on all night. Maybe I was lucky, maybe it was just one of those nights when my body was more tired than horny. Who knows? Feeling a bit horny this morning but not as much as the previous few days. I have a short work shift so I'm gonna try to take it easy today and enjoy it while I can. I'm off work tomorrow, so I decided to wear the cage all night once again and see how it goes. I figured there's no risk since I'm gonna be home anyway, so I can just take a lengthy nap if I lose sleep.

Day 13, Today is FRIDAY THE 13TH!!! As I approach 2 weeks, I'm starting to feel pent up... I'm getting antsy and even a bit shaky, particularly when watching porn for fun. I'm starting to get that familiar feeling of not needing as much sleep because I have some unspent energy waiting to be "released"... Pun intended. Had a truly fun day at work yesterday. I was already feeling mighty horny when I got to work and my task for the day was setting up the Ladies' Lingerie department, including dressing the Mannequins. Oh boy, what a day it was! ROFL! I'm off work today, but I feel like I'm already riding the edge and on the brink of orgasm, so I best be careful today if I wanna keep my load. I wouldn't be surprised if my body tries to induce a spontaneous orgasm on me... Again.

Day 14, I was so tired after getting out of the shower last night that I just put my cage on my nightstand and crashed out on the bed right after. Slept the whole night without waking up once and got up feeling like a million bucks! It's a good thing I was feeling much better, because at work I was bombarded with "visual stimulation" by having to help literally dozens of athletic ladies who were totally my type! One of them was my own cousin who was dressed like a Super Sexy Biker MILF! I know it's generally not a great thing to think sexually of a relative, but being locked up for 2 weeks and seeing her that way, I couldn't help checking her out. It really made me swell in my cage. I spent the rest of the entire day with my balls aching and wanting to jerk off. I decided I wasn't going to unlock myself until at least the following night, lest the temptation overwhelm me and ruin my current session.

TO BE CONTINUED...

 

Believe it or not, you're not the first one to imply that. LOL!

 

ROFL! That's funny!

 

She's married to my 2nd cousin, so asking her is a serious NO NO. And yes, the timer controlled KeyPod does the job... You just have to know how to use it.

I created a user guide for it if anyone here is interested:
Key Fob User Guide - By request!

 

Someone who I was chatting with privately wasn't joking... He said "a taboo affair would probably be the hottest thing I ever did in my life" and I replied saying "I don't know about you pal... But I'm 43 y/o and I wanna live to be 44!" He laughed and after a few minutes of total silence he closed the convo.

 

Ok, I need to remind myself from now on to NOT swap out cages in the middle of the day, because I just accidentally shot my load again...

I wanted to try using my chastity strap with my Vice and I started throbbing after I applied the anti-pullout and snapping the lock closed pushed me over the edge. Aye Aye EESH!

This was an accident, not a release, so my session continues. I'm not resetting the ticker in my signature.

 

Yup! Big Oopsie!

 

I'm gonna call it a Ruined Orgasm, because I'm sure most of my load stayed in my balls... They don't look or feel any less full this morning and I'm still horny AF, so I didn't get any sense of release at all from it.

 

Well, lets not get into a debate... The topic has been argued by both sides literally endlessly across every fetish community on the planet. I'm going by my own experience and a full release will make my balls go down even while still in the cage. Everyone is different, so your experience probably won't mimic mine.

 

Week 3 - I'm getting SERIOUSLY horny!

Recently, I was behind the sales counter at work, talking to a co-worker and suddenly a very attractive young lady walked up and asked "Where are the boys'?" and I thought she was asking for date. LOL! Fortunately, my co-worker immediately answered her by pointing her to the Kids' department and I thought "Oh yea... Like DUH!" It was very embarrassing. I told my co-worker I needed to use the restroom, but truth is I just needed to get away from the counter for a few minutes.
It really is amazing what a little Chastity-induced horniness will do to you.

As if that weren't making me horny enough, I very recently had torturous back-to-back work days... First day I was tasked with dressing female mannequins in Lingerie at the store, and then the next work day I was helping a bunch of lovely ladies who were my type. On the same day, my own cousin walked into the store dressed like a Super Sexy Biker MILF and that just drove me crazy! I told myself not to be looking at my cousin, but I'm so horny I really couldn't help it. I'm still feeling the effects of seeing her like that.

Day 15 - Although I slept alright, I woke up horny AF from what happened yesterday. I still can't take my mind off seeing my hot MILF cousin dressed in a sexy biker outfit yesterday. It's still making me wanna jerk off. Hopefully I'll be back in my element at work today and not have to endure another day of being surrounded by hot ladies who make cock swell and my balls ache. I love how it feels but I have my limits like everyone else and the past few days was bit much for me.

Day 16 - I'm still locked up and haven't taken the cage off, because I still wanna jerk off from that awkward but HOT AF encounter the other day. It's my day off today, so I think I'm gonna find something physical to do and hopefully it'll help me calm down enough so I don't wanna blow my load anymore... I'm surprised I slept alright while still in the cage and as horny as I am.

Coming to terms with my body, if it really wants an orgasm while I'm still locked up (spontaneous) then I'll let it happen and not try to fight it. Fighting off a spontaneous orgasm has proven to be miserable for me every time. Yes, I can hold my load but it keeps me on the edge literally for hours and totally drains me of both energy and concentration. So it's not worth fighting with my body. I'll let it take what it wants, but I won't actually try to cum.

Day 17 - My balls are starting to feel really heavy! I'm swapping out my Keyholder's Prize cage and Chastity Strap combo, because it's unrounded ring is starting to get a little difficult to routinely slip in & out of, because my balls are getting bigger and fuller. I'm using my slightly shorter Cage of shame, which has a perfectly round circle ring, so it's much easier to deal with. I slept without the cage on last night and got a full night's rest again. I'm horny as fucking hell, but I'm not suffering. I'm actually enjoying myself now and I'm going to work with a smile once again.

I may be smiling but the horniness and sudden urges are getting more and more intense... If this keeps up, I may end up getting a spontaneous orgasm before the month is done. Hopefully that doesn't happen but there isn't much I can do about it, other than hope it doesn't happen while at work.

Day 18 - Went to bed with my cage still on because I didn't feel I needed a whole night's rest, plus I needed to get up early anyway for an early work shift. All was well in the morning and made it through the work day without any trouble. However, after I got home I wanted to try my Vice on with my chastity strap as a new combo... I put the strap on the ring, then put the ring on. Upon putting the cage shaft on, I got instantly aroused and immediately started swelling. It was a warning I ignored. Putting on the anti-pullout made me throb and then finally snapping the lock closed pushed me over the edge. It was a ruined orgasm and not a release. Very frustrating and totally unsatisfying.

Day 19 - I think the ruined orgasm from yesterday made me even more horny... I went to work with a sore pelvis and had a series of urges throughout the day. I felt like I got close to bursting in my pants more than once. Arriving home, I'm still horny as fuck and I'm surprised I'm not riding the edge while eating dinner... I think I'm gonna leave the cage on again tonight to avoid taking any chances. I'm liable to end up jerking off for relief, should I remove the cage tonight. I've showered with my cage on many times already, so I'm alright with doing it again if necessary.

Day 20 - I slept alright with the cage on, thankfully. Woke up feeling mighty horny and getting aroused and excited by little things I would normally see as insignificant. Just seeing an attractive lady, young or mature, I can't help wondering what they'd look like in their underwear... I feel like my body is angry over the ruined orgasm the other day, but I gotta see to it that my mind is in charge and not my cock.

Day 21 - I left my cage on again last night to avoid taking any chances... That's 3 nights straight and it went better than I expected it would. I'm so fucking horny, I'm surprised I even slept at all! Maybe the rainy weather helped me get through the night. I can't help putting my hand down my pants and wanting to jerk off, only to end up grabbing the bars of my cage. My balls are so full that they take up my entire hand when I hold them. They ache but they don't hurt. They're a lovely shade of purple, but not dark. They're warm to the touch and not cold, so I know they're alright... They're just really full! My body really wants me to empty them, but I don't want to. I wanna keep them full and plump. How long I can stand to be this horny and full is anyone's guess.

TO BE CONTINUED...

 

You forgot the "fullness" part.

 

I just showered with the cage still on and I'm gonna sleep with it on again, because I'm still too damn horny to risk taking it off. I was off work today and wanted to jerk off the whole day. I still do. Better safe than sorry, as I like to say.