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Aug 26, 1964 (Age: 59)
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Long term member, Male, 59, from United Kingdom

Who you are depends on who you were. And vice versa. Jun 10, 2019

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    1. madams-sissysub
      Congratulations on hitting 10k posts!
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    2. sensitive_skye
      Hello LesterBallard, may I follow you, please?
    3. jemima
      please what dose Mitcham mean
    4. jemima
      when I sayed Bono in the Word thingy I mean him in U2.
      PPowner likes this.
    5. Mash2214
      I Have to commend you on your activity. You make so many new people feel welcomed. Good for You
    6. LesterBallard
      Who you are depends on who you were. And vice versa.
      Breathe and Love2blocked like this.
    7. LesterBallard
      Embarked on my second extended period of chastity
      1. Gemma
        How long will you go for now?
        Jun 7, 2019
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    8. LesterBallard
      A new year brings change
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    9. Sissy_Denise
      I've read a lot of your posts and considered them mostly thoughtful and subdued.
      I have now read your bio and understand the depth of your thoughtfulness. Your journey to understand yourself is commendable. I think we are a lot alike, except for our choice of clothes. I to have a Type A personality at work. People would be shocked to see my passive side, but like you it makes me complete.
      1. LesterBallard
        Hello, just spotted this. Glad you've found something interesting in my posts. Have a good New Year.
        Dec 31, 2018
    10. Slutina
      Congratulations on your perseverance. All I need now is a Mistress to be chaste for.
    11. LesterBallard
    12. LesterBallard
      And so the third month of chastity begins. Each new month feels better.
      1. martinb
        Well done! Keep up (Humm, is that the right term?) the good work!
        May 26, 2018
      2. Happydays986
        Well done ! That’s amazing. what device do you use ??
        Jan 31, 2022
    13. LesterBallard
      Day 50 of chastity
    14. Joan.t
      Never give up, and when the will to give up is overwhelming just give up from giving up.
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    15. LesterBallard
      Privileged to be allowed to begin my second month of chastity
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      1. Joan.t
        I always knew you could do it, many more will come for your enjoyment.
        May 3, 2018
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    16. LesterBallard
      And I've reached the target of one month....
    17. LesterBallard
      30 days of chastity and devotion
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    18. LesterBallard
      Chaste for four weeks today. Delighted.
      Joan.t, Breathe and LadyMoon like this.
      1. Qveik
        Apr 22, 2018
      2. Joan.t
        Bravo! You are entering a new level in life, you will want to ask yourself: "why have I not done this before?"
        Apr 23, 2018
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    19. LesterBallard
      Very happily chaste
      LadyMoon and Breathe like this.
    20. LesterBallard
      I won't give up
      1. L-u-c-y
        Don't give up lester!
        Apr 19, 2018
    21. LesterBallard
      happily writing
      Slave to a Goddess and Breathe like this.
    22. LesterBallard
      determined and persevering
    23. LesterBallard
      after difficult days it is wonderful to be able to reflect on how important your Mistress and guide is to you. Thank you, Mistress...
    24. LesterBallard
      Learning more every day
    25. LesterBallard
      Begun a new blog to relate changes in my life and allow me to explore my thoughts.
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  • About

    Aug 26, 1964 (Age: 59)
    Location: (Country, Region - and perhaps even City?):
    United Kingdom
    Your chastity role:
    • Submissive
    Chastity devices:
    I have two, but I don't know what they are called
    Chastity resume:
    I have only ever experienced self-chastity. I am now working hard at an honour system. Started 25 March 2018
    I have no agenda here. I'm not looking for anyone or anything. I am happy in my own life. I have a vanilla partner for whom all this would be inexplicable. I only want to talk and explore and examine. That's it. Total.

    I've been interested in d/s relationships for many years. I've lived it when I can, but mostly I have lived it vicariously through writing fiction. I used to have a very successful story site on asstr which featured a lot of D/s and Femdom material. I learned a lot about myself through writing that.

    Over the years, I have moved from being a switch to mostly identifying as submissive. This is something of a reaction to real life, I guess, where I have a responsible job and make decisions that can fuck up people's lives.

    I see this sexual identity which I have adopted and accepted as being a response to real life, and I like it. It is a complement to real life, a different part of me, concealed day-to-day but no less genuine.

    Me? I don't know what I want, not really. I want to explore and understand, and that takes time. I'm not looking for a grand relationship. I don't want a domme to serve. I just want to delve into this peculiar state of mind which has overtaken me and see where that takes me. More and more, chastity is becoming a holy grail for me.

    I am at the start of what I think may be a long period of exploration to understand what I truly seek.

    For sure, my starting point was selfish self-gratification. I wanted to manipulate a situation which accorded with my fantasy of domination. Even if that happened, it would not be true domination, because it was something I had basically engineered.

    Now, I am seeking something different, but I am not yet entirely sure what it is. Certainly, any idea of domination doesn't come with the erotica baggage attached to it, or the notions of humiliation or subservience that originally informed my thinking. It's something else.

    Bu that idea of chastity? Willingly? Oh, that hits something deep inside me. That is powerful. That is magnificent. To be able to make that connection, to be able to give that commitment, and know it is unshakeable. Wow, that is the ultimate turn-on. I want that.

    I am a writer of erotica. I am mostly submissive but I can write from any point of view.

    If you would like me to write a story for you, let me know. Tell me your fantasy and I will turn it into words for you.

    Thanks for reading this. Drop me a line if anything I've said piques your interest.


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