Shibmo's story

I certainly tried to make that clear. That I want all my orgasms to be hers.

She did reveal to me this evening that she wasn’t in her best mood lately, mainly of the change in jobs.
I asked if I could do anything to lift her mood, and she said no.

Even if it doesn’t help me directly, it does give me a lot of understanding.

These small things can be so very important… We truly need to learn to communicate better as a couple…

 

Yeah, I know she is sensitive for that.

But I do want her to communicate that with me. I can’t feel those stressors for her. But if I know, I won’t be as annoyed/frustrated by her lack of interest in me.

 

Well, last night was…. Interesting.
My wife wasn’t home, because she was working a night shift. I was horny, and needed a distraction. I didn’t want to play with my toys, as that would surely lead to me giving in and making myself orgasm.

I did find something else to do; a hypno audio file. I have done a few of those before, and I know I can be influenced by them. I have had hands free orgasms from hypnosis before.

Last night I found one focussed on staying chaste and focussing of your wife.
This one: https://shibbydex.com/file/90876cca-1484-4145-958b-64c6398c1ebb

I listened to the audio, got teased, but didn’t get to cum, and went asleep as instructed at the end of the session.

Around 3am I got woken by an involuntary ejaculation. No horny fantasy dream, just a release of fluid.

Around 6am, it happened again. This time with a sexy dream, and I woke to another piece of underwear filled.

I have had my fair share of wet dreams, but never 2 in the same night!

Of course I notified my wife about the releases, but she didn’t respond.

Anyway, now I’m at work. Horny as hell, longing to be able to listen to the hypno again tonight, driving my urges even deeper.

 

I've gotten to the point where I do count a foot/back rub as an intimate act. To fully count it as an sexual act just hasn't landed in my system.. yet..
I do feel submissive and in service in those moments. A few times I tried to wrap things up (like after half an hour or so), and she just said "No, just a bit longer". Even when it is about something as simple as a foot rub, those comments do really land into my sub-brain. I do ask for permission before I stop now.

I do understand what you are saying, but I have never been a poet. As a dutchie, I'm very direct and to the point. I do certainly try to keep it as open and honest as possible. But being subtle in words isn't my greatest talent.

Yeah, I've been slacking on this part. In the first few weeks of chastity, I was way more productive in the household than the last week or so.
I already clocked that one myself. The hypno file has helped me with that. Besides leaving me horny and frustrated, It did help me focus more on being devoted to my wife. I've been picking up that slack, trying to get ahead of that again.

Thanks for the support!


I do have a bit of a split personality tough. I do have another point, where I know there wil be another ask of my wife. Wearing the cage, I've noticed that the underwear I usually wear, doesn't give enough support. I have mentioned to her that I wanted to get some slips, instead of the boxer briefs I usually wear. She didn't like that idea.
As a compromise, I ordered some boxer briefs, that supposed to give more support, but those didn't work as intended. I returned those and got some slips. She doesn't know I have those.. yet...

I have worn/slept with it the last few days, and it really is a lot more comfortable with the cage. I no longer feel the fabric/seams rubbing my glans during the day, I no longer wake up with a painfull erection during the night. Having the package a bit tighter to my body helps. I have been looking to get some mens thongs, but I'll hold off of those for a while. I don't think she is ready for that.
Now I only need to find a way to inform her about it...

 

64 days locked, 39 days since last O.

This is where this adventure ends. At least for now.
Yesterday I finally got her to talk for a bit. I was getting frustrated, feeling ignored and horny. I had been browsing the web to examine what further steps I could take. If it would be worth a divorce over sexual negligence.

I kind of confronted her about it. I told her that I needed intimacy in our relationship, and that I would no longer be content with ignoring my sexuality. That I do need her to, at least try, to do her part.
That Chasity is a way for me to express my devotion to her, and give her space to set the rythm.
I’ve told her as much as I do need us to work on this together, or we will be bound to separate on some point.

She stated that the device was actually withholding her from anything sexual. That she just want to have boring vanilla sex. (Her words, not mine )
That she doesn’t want all the weird stuff I want to involve. That it does never feel as ‘enough’.

- I do think she might have a point in that, but I haven’t said as much-

I’ve asked her if she wanted me to take it off, and she eventually said yes. We watched a series after that, and went to bed. I removed the cage. She didn’t want to be intimate, as she was too tired. My uncaged cock was throbbing, eager to cum.
This morning I imitated again, asking for a handjob, but she refused, scared the kids might walk in.

Today I did send her a message, that I was having a serious case blue balls. I even took a painkiller to be able to focus on my work.
I said we really need to find a way to find a way that works for the both of us, and she agreed.

Tonight when we sat in the couch, I initiated again, I asked her if I could persuade to go upstairs for me, for a massage, and more. She declined again, because she was to tired. (She truly was, but still…).
I told her I needed a release, and if she wanted me to do it myself, and she nodded.

So, here we are now. I grabbed a few of my toys, and I’m taking a nice hot bath, while typing this post.
I’m bound to masturbate for the first time in 70! days!

See you on the other side…