Part 5 ~ The best thing about the future is it only comes one day at a time...

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    lol. :sign0007:
     
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    excellent words of wisdom from mike!
     
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    Feeling slightly less annoyed this morning, but still completely and utterly insecure about myself... at least it made me hit the treadmill. :ten-on-ten:

    I can't stay angry at pet for more than a few hours, so I guess in a roundabout way that has to be good and we must love each other! :love0038:

    The memorandums of sale turned up this morning, so I need to make a couple of phone calls. I was getting worried about the house (I think I said...) and that it wasn't all I wanted it to be, but looking at the brochure again this morning, it is pretty cool... but there is so much to be done to it and so little money!

    We are contemplating a trip to Ikea, just to get out for a while and to look for some inspiration for the new house.

    Have a good day everyone!
     
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    MW,

    Two more quick thoughts, if i may. First, regarding surfing port. Umm, let's face it, if we're here, we're perverts. :sex_porn: You have had a lot of satisfaction, lately, from looking at lingerie and sexy outfits. He gets his a different way. It doesn't mean you're not sexy. It's more like being at the ice cream shop, and admiring everyone else's sundae, while you're waiting patiently for yours! :sign0004:

    Now, the fact that he was doing that when you were expecting him to be doing something else.... what a great opportunity! "Pet, if we were playing right now, I'd have to punish you for not working on the site. What would I do? Hmmm??":happy0011:

    Have a great day!
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    Well, we've just bought a birdlocked... should be here in a week or two... that'll teach him! :evilgrin0042:
     
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    Yay for you! He's getting sloppy if he was discovered that easily. Some good humiliation is in order I say! Once he's all settled in to the cage, what if you accidentally "lost" the key - what with all the moving, packing and such it must be around here somewhere. Oh dear too bad for pet...
     
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    I feel like this is one of my lowest points on the site to date.

    Relationships I had appear to have been crushed for no apparent reason, and people seem to enjoy crapping on me more than any other person on the site.

    I do ask myself why on earth I'm here any more... there is little chastity, D/s or even sex going on in my life at the moment, and while I'm grateful for everyone's support and faith that one day I will emerge as this amazing Domme, I still don't think it's going to happen.

    Today I see chastity as being extremely detrimental to our relationship. It has made us incredibly stressed and miserable. It has led to me getting a peek at a life I would love to have, and realising that the person who introduced me has changed their mind and does not want the same things anymore.

    I try to push it all to the back of my mind, because I feel I can't go back to being vanilla, but I can't go forward to being a Domme because I have no-one to share it with.

    Just another crappy day I guess. :confused0082:
     
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    Mistress Watchful sorry you are feeling so down. i really wish i could help you in return for all that You have given to us. Cheer up and stick around as CM wouldn't be the same without You.:love0038::love0028::love0063::love0059:
     
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    A D/s lifestyle will only be detrimental to a relationship if you let it be. If you feel the lifestyle is having a negative impact on your vanilla relationship then you need to take a step back on stop all references to a D/s lifestyle. If your vanilla lifestyle is struggling then it is important that you put all your energy into sorting out your relationship first.

    Master and I have felt sometimes that our D/s lifestyle was affecting our relationship so we both agreed to put a stop to any play until we had time to talk and even get to know each other again.

    Only when you feel completely happy within you relationship can you commit to any sort of a D/s lifestyle. If you do stop the D/s stuff you could try and introduce small amounts of play. The lifestyle is supposed to be fun and extremely fulfilling, if it’s not you need to take a step back.
     
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    MW,

    I for one will always be here to support you. CM has become a vibrant and exciting site for people interested in this particular kink, and it's because of you and pet. Unfortunately, as many great institutions, as they get bigger, running them gets more demanding. I know from personal experience as an officer in numerous social clubs over the years that it's a thankless job. Please know we really appreciate it!

    *hugs*
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    Thanks guys.

    I'd just like to say that if ever things do go quiet from me around here... you know where to find me in the real world! (If anyone could ever call FB the "real world"!)
     
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    Who's crappin on you?!!

    Sorry I've not been around for a while.

    I Hope your gonna be ok?

    Keep your chin up hun x
     
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    I was just being my usual hypersensitive self!

    Feeling a bit more of the shiny, sparkly me today. It's being helped by a TV series called "Get your house in order" GEE! You should see how bad some other people's lives are! :sign0094: Lol.

    I guess I just need a bit more time management and life management... I think I'm going to start with some major decluttering today. :ciao:
     
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    Your posts are the main reason I come to read this site so I do hope you don't get discouraged. As the Vanilla, Dom, Chastity boggle all I can say is that Vanilla sex alone can become complicated for us when we spend too much time thinking about it and less time doing it. :love0038:

    And I'm NOT saying I have the answer other then this. For us there is no "bad" sex. :jumping0046: How you dress it up can make it better of course.
     
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    Time for an update!

    We ordered a birdlocked a couple of days ago, and this morning pet recieved an email saying it had been shipped! Hopefully it will arrive tomorrow or Friday.

    I haven't got a clue why we ordered it, but there is definitely a feeling between us that "this one might work". What "work" means, I don't think we quite know.

    pet had to get up in the roof to get a clothes box down for me so I can have a sort out, and had to move some boxes out of the way first. One of them contains some sexy bits... some vanilla, some a little bit kinky, and a few books.

    I mumbled something about the books, and pet told me to take them out if I wanted. I mumbled something about reading them and getting upset, so he asked why they would upset me.

    I explained that I felt I had no-one to play with. pet's reply was "why would I have spent money on a new device... that was 3 Xbox games worth" which made me chuckle.

    We had a conversation about expectations and I said I already felt he was hoping that chastity would lead to more sex (ahhh... that common theory!) and he replied he thought no such thing and wouldn't blame me if I locked him up and forgot about him.

    So... still no sex since 11th March... am I waiting to unleash my desperate inner sex Goddess on him when the device arrives, or am I just going to lock him up and throw away the key.

    Of course, the other (more likely) option is that the birdlocked will be no good and we will be fed up and miserable again! :spider:
     
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    MW: Hope this one works for you (both). But, whatever, don't lose heart or touch. Your posts are always so warm, witty, wise and . . . well . . . human: they're what keep me coming back so regularly. For what it's worth I've got both CB6K & CB3K and wish my KH / Wife would just keep me locked up a lot longer and allow me to worship her a lot more regularly. I guess human beings, especially couples, are just NOT conditioned to want the same things !
     
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    Here's hoping pet can wear it 24/7! Even if he can pull out or cheat in it, I think you should make the attempt. The fact that pet said something like "wouldn't blame me if I locked him up and forgot about him" sounds to me like he's in a very submissive head space. That took courage to say. He knows that your libido runs hot and cold, yet he's willing to try to live through the cold spells. That's love and trust, if you ask me! :happy0030:

    *rubs shoudlers* *gives pep talk* So if he can wear it, make him wear it! Don't worry about your libido. With luck, it'll take care of itself. He's willing to do it because he's trusting in your relationship to work through the tough parts. That's a wonderful thing! He's told you that locking him up is NOT about non-stop sex. Let yourself believe him! Let him be your submissive. :rules:

    mikecb
     
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    And just because he is locked up doesn't mean you can't get the strapon out and have him wear it. :happy0120:
     
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    No post.... :sad0020:
     
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    Dollyanne knows the anguish of having a chastity device sitting in a box waiting to be used! Too bad it's the new birdlocked--dollyanne was waiting to see how that worked out--but maybe there is a potential for alternating months of chastity?! That would be quite interesting and exciting!

    Curtsey,
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    Wasn't sure where to post this as I'm very confused! sub or Domme, or just nothing at all!?!?!?

    Have had a few conversations with pet recently which have shown he has no interest in "anything" whatsoever lately.

    He said that because I was feeling down and fed up that he couldn't be excited about anything, but I feed off of him and his excitement for all things kinky so we are getting nowhere.

    Off out on a shopping trip now, and have to go to a school reunion later which I am DREADING!

    Hope everyone is ok, and I hope to start reposting again soon as I miss you all terribly... and I miss kinkiness too! :CMrocks:
     
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    Hang in there Mistress/Bambie (sorry private joke) At any rate go back to the two of you for a bit then let the other part come. I too have the same Dom/sub struggles. Goddess has been taking the Domme role and truth be told I don't see her relenting anytime soon. Of course right now I want to throw her down, tie her to the bed, and well you get the rest of the idea! Take care we miss you too!
     
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    So here I am... haven't blogged in ages because it's usually the kiss of death!

    What's going on chez Watchful then?

    A lot of porn surfing, device hunting and emailing with BG. Actually emailing with BG is a bit slow and frustrating, but we are both VERY busy with real life, so it's going as fast as it can!

    After the trip to Ess and Emm pet says it's like a clog was cleared... not a very attractive thought, but he does seem a lot hornier lately, and me... god I get so horny about kinky thoughts racing through my mind.

    BG has us confused. I thought he wanted more M-M action, but it turns out he really wanted both of them fucking me at the same time. He seems quite conservative on the kink side and just wants a vanilla fuck.

    We are ambivalent on this... I still think the experience, with someone safe will be a good thing, pet is disappointed there will be no cock-sucking!

    Someone else has been brought up in conversation as an Alpha Male, but I'm not so sure on pet's choice!!! Failing that, pet has been surfing cuckolding sites for me!

    Dinner is just arriving, courtesy of chef-pet!... it looks super scrummy, so I'll have to come back later!
     
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    Having two cocks at once is too vanilla? whew! As to the M/M action I think the best advice is to put your pet into Charlotte mode and maybe tell BG how much that type of thing would turn you on. He might be more willing to comply if he thought you enjoyed it. Maybe have pet "tuck" and go more fem? Aid in insuring BGs cock gets into Pets willing mouth and or?

    As to the other mystery Alpha I think he is a very lucky chap and maybe your pet can just be in observation / humiliation / cleanup mode while your being serviced for a while. I'm curious what sorts of cuckold sites your being directed to? Ones that offer this, story sites or ? Anyway, your posts are getting more and more interesting!
     
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