My lock up diary

By the way, sorry that my spelling sucks. Using an iPhone makes for a lot of typos.

 

A cruel smile

Last night for the first time in ages my darling and mistress decided to leave me locked up as punishment for misbehaving over the weekend. It was so frustrating.. she teased me through the bars of the cage until I was squirming, whimpering and totally broken. In the dim bedroom light I could see she had that special wicked smile on her face that she only gets when I am broken and knew there was little point in begging for release. She asked me to remind her what my longest time in chastity was... three weeks I reminded her, knowing she was only asking me because she will probably make me break it this time.

As I have been on permanent lock up for about 5 weeks now it is much harder than just the odd isolated chastity stint. I have cum a couple of times when I was not supposed to when teased which has only made her more determined to go over three weeks. She just loves it so much when I am frustrated and submissive to her and so do I. I just think I need to get used to this new level of permanent denial by her if thats possible.

Surprisingly, I actually managed to sleep fairly ok in my cage last night. The KSD security insert is pretty tight and seems to stop me getting too hard and I was able to sleep most of the way through the night even with an erection. I'm just wondering when I going to be let out again now..

 

Yes Miss D, it seems my Mistress has decided to keep me locked up much more now as I cannot be trusted past a certain stage of chastity. I would say that the last couple of days all locked up are really starting to break me and I am becoming more submissive which of course pleases her greatly.

I managed to touch her property because I was cuffed with some leather cuffs behind my back with clip joining them. When she left me I struggled in my predicament after a while I realized there was just slack to allow me to reach one hand around a bit and touch when I wasn't supposed to.

I am new to full time chastity and have not learned to be completely obedient and trusted yet but it seems she has decided to keep me locked up for the foreseeable future and reach new levels of frustration and obedience.
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Chastity pain barriers

Yes Mistress, as you are more than aware from my whimpers I am pretty broken now. I think there are many walls to break through with chastity of frustration and surrender. Yesterday I think I went through a big one and felt ok today, then suddenly it can kick in again even stronger than before. Many levels of surrender.

I both fear and look forward to being more and more owned by you xxx
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I guess as they say, every man has his price. I wonder at what point of desperation I will weigh up the consequences and decide misbehave.. I think quite a while yet. :snail:

Thank you all for your sweet words and comments.

 

New Levels

I have been locked for 15 days now and as I can no longer be trusted I have been locked away permanently now until such time as she see fit to release me.

I have been experiencing denial for about 6 weeks now and it seems that just as I think I am getting used things I get a huge wave of frustration and have been begging my darling to let me go on occasion, especially when I wake up with her and she gives my bum a little spank or torments me through the cage. I really think I cant take any more at these times but I don't really have much choice.

This morning she cruelly put the key inside her bra today in front of me and told me she is keeping it with her from now on as she no longer trusts me not to look for it. I know I can't escape without damaging my curve because I tried to get out last night in the bath as she gave me the key to wash and its totally secure.... Sigh... I do love it though, just wondering when she will decide to let me go now
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A nice surprise

It seems that just as I thought I was going to get a month in chastity and was really starting to climb the walls, my Mistress decided she wanted sex with me and I was allowed to cum after 15 days. Oh my god! That was the hardest orgasm I have ever had and was shaking afterwards. It was the first time I have had permission to cum for about 6 weeks and it was amazing. The only trouble is that it gives me naughty ideas like being able to cum again or wanking although I am sure she will have me locked away again soon enough as I don't think there will be any let up in my denial which is as delightful as it is frustrating.

I also just got a new steel locking pin for the curve so I know escape will be impossible next time I get locked up without some heavy and potentially dangerous sawing.
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2 Days..

Just 2 days without cumming so far and already the urge is pretty strong. Seems like one orgasm leads to wanting another, she hasn't given firm instructions yet but I get the feeling I'm going into my new inescapable cage very soon. Its been nice to have a couple of days of freedom and easy sleep though but I have pretty much given up on the idea of wanking on my own for the foreseeable future.
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Hi Madeleine,
Yes I am sure it is what she wants and it is both a turn on and daunting at the same time to give up something I have done in abundance all my adult life.
My secure device is just a curve with a metal locking pin. I because of the shape of her property one I squeeze (and I mean really squeeze), the KSD all the way down there is no way I can pull out. Trust me I tried when I was in the bath and I'm stuck. The curve is pretty comfy, just a little clunky and it shows a bit sometimes.

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Ruining it..

Well after four days the pressure is building again and I'm getting to the point where I can't be trusted again soon. I read in a post about a ruined orgasm where as soon as you cum all touching stops and you have a kind of half cum. I have never done this but apparently it can really drive a man in chastity crazy with desire if he gets locked up again straight after.Has anyone had experience of this?

 

I actually don't think I have ever had one myself but last time I came after two weeks in chastity I imagined what it would be like if she had stopped touching me just as I came. For a moment I was very turned on by the idea but then desire took hold and I seriously did not want her to stop. I think that a ruined orgasm is probably the cruelest way to tease a man in chastity. The idea of getting locked up again straight away is pretty scary and exciting at the same time and I think it would really be hard to handle. I'm sure it would please her though to see the look on my face if she did it to me.

 

Taking it easy

We're taking a little break from chastity at the moment as we are busy with other things but I am of course still under her control. I am allowed to cum a little more often but only with her permission and although I miss the enforced chastity a little sometimes it's nice to have a change.

I think the longer I am unlocked for the more I get used to it and want to cum more, I mean I used to cum about once every two to three weeks and now it's once or twice a week. The body soon adjusts to a new pattern and now two weeks seems like a long time when it was once pretty normal.

All is good though, I love my baby more every day and I'm looking forward to her playing her cruel games with me again when the time is right. I still have so many great chastity experiences to remember and it turns me on so much to think of her breaking me so well xxx

 

In trouble already..

Well after a little break I am back securely locked for my darling. I actually requested it this time, I have been pretty horny lately and am finding self control difficult, often touching myself although not actually cumming.

Chastity is so powerfully erotic and my most common fantasy when I am free centers around my darling locking me up and tormenting me in devious ways. I had not cum for five days or so and was climbing the walls a bit and in my excited state asked her if she would like to lock me up which she was happy to do. Be careful what you wish for is very apt. I don't think I have ever started a lock up this wound up before and as usual we did not discuss duration before hand,it's much more fun to find out later on.. Two weeks has been mentioned but I wouldn't put it past her to go longer of course :anim_43:

 

The pressure is really building now and I am both excited and scared of how long I will be her prisoner for. In our recent play I was often unlocked and teased and left free for sleeping but this time I am simpley under lock and key 24/7 which I have not experienced for some time. It's so delightfully frustrating to be totally enclosed by her, often straining at the cage in desperation and the way she did not even release me on my birthday makes me think she means business this time.

After a few days in lock up she told me in a very firm way that my sentance will be reviewed after two weeks so not exacy a promise of release. If she goes to three weeks (our current record), then I wouldn't put it past het to go to four which is pretty daunting in my already broken state. Not that I am moaning of course, I love her cruelty and unpredictability x

A few days after bei

 

Caught misbehaving..

Six days ago my darling and mistress walked in just after I had been touching where I shouldn't. She knew right away that I was up to no good and I had to confess as there is no way of lying when I look into her eyes. I had been in chastity although not actually locked up and a moment of weakness got to me. :rules:

Right away she told me it was not on and to put my CB on before bed. Before I went to sleep she teased me for a long time till I was begging for release but there was no way she was going to let that happen. "What's the longestyou have been in chastity?", she asking whilst she tormented me. "Three weeks", I reply as I will never forget that time. "I think it's time to break a few records then", she said in very firm way which left me begging for mercy.

It's been twelve days since I have cum now and am all securely locked away for her. Its always around this time I start to lose it a little and she really starts to have fun with me. Today she told me something with really scared and excited me. That after a month of chastity and I finally get to cum I am getting locked up again and she will be upping the game until I submit to her. This is a real turn on but I also know that I will go well beyond the levels of brokeness I have experienced so far.

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Well and truly out of my comfort zone now after 16 days of my 28. What frustrates me most is the fact she has decided to lock me up again straight after my release. I think she would happliy keep me in a state of permenant frustration if she could as she loves seeing the look on my face.

I often wake up in the early hours totally desperate for release and it is building more and more. I guess the whole point of real chastity is to be kept in denial longer than you think you can cope with, it really leaves mein a delightful broken state where I am prepared to do a lot for release. Well and truly ready to drop to me knees in front of my darling and beg now but I know it won't do any good. I just hope she won't decide to change the game and go over 4 weeks.

Help.. Mercy.. I think..

 

Entering the unknown..

Today marks 21 days in chastity and my personal best to date. I feel like i should celebrate! Not to get too carried away though as I am to remain her prisoner for at least 28 days as there are a few conditions to fulfill before I earn my final release.

Last night I was let out of my cage for the first time in a week and treated to a stunning vision of my fiance and mistress clad in elegant rubber towering over me in six inch heels which i eagerly worshipped. It has been a while since she has worn rubber as she has not been into fetish for a while but naturaly decided to dress for me of her own accord which I loved. Standing at 6'5 in her tall heels she looked so stunning and after 3 weeks in chastity it is enough to make a man cry for release. I knew there was no chance and I would be straight back in the cage if it wasn't for a tiny cut caused by the KSD. I wonder if anyone else has this problem?

Anyway back to desperation and record breaking today, I'm so happy she is feeling like dressing up as it is something I missed but did not want to pressurise her by mentioning it.

Loving my darling and mistress more every day x

 

Wow, she really means to keep you in line. Better make sure you do a good job as 5 hours is a long time to wait on your own. The only thing she ever did to me along those lines was cuff my hands behind my back and leave me unlocked in bed whilst she went for a long walk, unfortunately I realized I could reach round and misbehaved much to her disappointment..

Right now she seems really into keeping me up for a long time usually the sentence increases just because she feels like it which is a thrill and a little scary that I will start to lose it too much..