"I like that you can't cum"

Sometimes I feel like I've bitten off more than I can chew. I'm working away in a hotel and have to unlock for work. She's been running the qiui app like clockwork, I was being instructed to send her lock up porn just before I got in from work. I dare not put a foot wrong as we're going to a remote cabin for a couple of days soon and I think it will be difficult enough for me without any rule breaking. I didn't factor in how much she would like having a chastity slave, I really can't stop it now it's out of my hands.

 

Metal detectors etc. It's fine, the lock up videos have become our routine and she's got a pretty good system of making sure I get minimal free time. I have to participate in my own lock up and cannot unlock until half an hour before leaving for work. It's not ideal but means we have to interact in my chastity every day even though I'm miles away.

 

The hotel doesn't have metal detectors, my place of work does. I'm home now. The routine of having to uncage daily has been a blessing. She's been so on top of timings of when I get back to hotel and the qiui app that I've felt controlled by her even long distance. The lock up videos are her porn. It makes us feel closer. I have a week off now of continuous lock up and she put the new nub on me. "It will fit, I've been training you a long time for this".

 

She put me in a new plastic nub last night (see gallery). Still with the metal cylinder lock though. I've looked at those plastic permalocks but quite expensive. I've not been well behaved in the past unfortunately but hoping to change my ways. Any cheating of the system would burst her bubble and ruin her fetish and I really don't want that. Her spontaneous orgasm by lying beside me was a huge ego boost for me and she wouldn't have felt like that if I was not being her 100% well behaved slave. I'm in for the long haul now.

 

I'm glad my mistress isn't on here. I'll be good promise. Thanks for advice and encouragement on getting permanently locked.

 

For doing all of 2024 so far I was allowed out of the cage for the night under supervision. I was allowed to go down on my mistress whilst having an erection. I think she came 4 times. That's a lot for her and think it was a lot about keeping in my place. I thanked her for the privilege and for putting me in the small ht for a stretch afterwards, which is smaller that my flacid size. She gripped my erection but would not rub it or allow me to touch it. She says we're a long way off of that.

 

Well we've had or wee cabin holiday in the woods. I would say it's more like my fantasy and reality becoming one. My mistress/ girlfriend is first and foremost my friend and is a geek like me so lots of card games and boardgames. But my knees are red raw. I was on collar and leash and naked all the time and had to crawl behind her. We played yahtzee on the veranda but if i got a yatzee I would get an unbearable electrical shock to my balls. It felt natural to be naked out in the rain kneeling at her feet in my dog collar and leash just waiting on her finishing her cigarette. I couldn't chop onions whilst she was whipping me with the horse crop but I never moved from holding onto the worktop and when she had finished i would continue cooking paella. Gone are safe words. If I try to tap out of getting my bum whipped (I do like everyone have a limit like everyone) I get my balls whipped with a horse crop. She gave some time out of the cage in the hot tub but crushed my balls with her soles. I was made to give her oral throughout when she pushed my head down. She led me to the toilet on the lead and used me instead of toilet paper. Although we've both got the holiday blues it's been another step on our romance and flr and the best time.

 

Don't get hung up on the metal detectors. I hate it. I had some time off and when I asked for a hygiene break we did a video call so I could be surveilled by my mistress. She could see me getting hard but i could not "see if it still worked". I want her to have 100% control. I think I can trust myself but hair triggers and all that. This site has opened my eyes that I am extremely lucky to have a girlfriend who is so on board. I am respecting that at the moment but it's difficult to maintain.

 

So 2024 my mistress wanted to ramp up the strictness of chastity and this has meant no piv, cumming and very limited erections for me this year so far. Very strict and meticulous control of unlocks and hygiene breaks. Fri we had slept together but no sexual stuff as it had been a late boardgame night with one of my kids, asleep in her bedroom. Even cuddling in and with my gf wearing her cuddly pjs i had a long and painful caged erection. I pleaded with her to let me sleep uncaged and to have sex on our date night, sun (last night). She said no to both and reminded me I shouldn't ask. We had a night to ourselves last night and she said as I have been good she would let me out of the cage for a stretch. I said I think her willy has shrunk and it would be very small, which it was. She said she doesn't care if it does as she doesn't really need it but that it would grow back to normal size that night. We played the carcassonne board game till late and cuddled to sleep and I was allowed my uncaged erection. This afternoon it was time to go and I went to the bedroom to put my clothes on. A few moments later she followed me in, took off her leggings leaving her thick socks and jumper on. We kissed under the covers, I pulled off her panties and she pushed my head down. After her first orgasm she said, "are you hard?" We made love for the first time this year, right on the 3 month mark. My orgasm was long and mind blowing. "It seemed like the right time. That will be you for a very long time though." She has allowed me to go home for an uncaged shower, then I cage up and lock the key in the keybox and send her the video and she takes control of the box on qiui. Reset to zero and we settle down to the next sentence of indefinite, strict and blissful chastity. She is amazing, all I could ask for in a mistress.

 

I had been chatting to my mistress of having fantasies of making love to her again... and other not-so-submissive thoughts since her allowing me piv with her. She said she would think on how to get me feeling submissive again. When I next saw her she ordered me to strip then kneel in front of her and put the dog collar and lead on me. She ordered me to take the cage off and for a moment I thought I may allowed to be free perhaps even played with. "I don't want this anywhere near your metal cage, I don't want to kill you." She handed me the dog shock collar and I fastened it tightly around my balls. She told me I would be crawling and naked all weekend. She then shaved my head and all of my body hair, leaving my eyebrows and short beard which she likes. The next day I was allowed to dress briefly and be taken to the bingo with mistress and her best friend who didn't know my mistress was electrocuting my balls throughout the afternoon with the remote in her handbag. I should probably have kept my thoughts to myself in the first place.

 

Me too. I hate electricity on my balls and my mistress knows this. I think she likes the relaxation of just pressing a button that will completely overwhelm me. She shocked me as I was carrying drinks all the way through the bingo Hall for about 10 seconds. I'm not allowed to show any major reaction or I would be banned from sex for the rest of the year. Not allowed to refuse the punishment or tamper with the device. She finds it very funny and considers my balls as her property and her favourite hobby is finding different ways to torture them.