"I like that you can't cum"

Well since this is kind of my blog I decree that only females should be saying "should" whilst on this forum! Only kidding, "should" like any word in the English language should be used with a certain etequite.

I myself I think almost used it this evening when I said something like, "if it ain't broke don't fix it". I was directing her to longer chastity. Slaves don't make suggestions about sexual or non-sexual activity. This was in regards to our ongoing chastity relationship. Situation is she likes it as it is, I like it (with massive male existential doubts), so power defers to her. As in "should" as a doctrine of chastity, I'm not sure if it was me who melted the snowflakes. But if I did I stand by it. "In for a penny in for a pound". This is a big ask of a female companion so you have be ready for the long haul to make it equally interesting if you're lucky enough to have a mistress who is into shutting down your sexuality. "I should wear the cage tonight" is basically treating your Goddess as a whore.

 

Have any males on here done reflexology? Does it work and is it real? I'm studying it at the moment . I don't know what else to do with my self.

 

Two worlds have collided here, me with my initial permanent chastity fantasy (don't we all early on?) and her journey of discovery that after 14 months of both of us having no PIV she genuinely doesn't want or miss it, not when she has this instead. She is perhaps more keen on chastity now than I ever was. We live apart and I've not seen her for a week or so. She tells me how she gets the flutters when I lock up after work and send her a video including the key going into her qiui box. There are times of frustration and fear of the permanency of the future but I love how happy it makes her. There's a true equality and balance to our unequal chastity lifestyle and from what I've read on here I think I've got it made. I'll never have another chance like this so no quitting no cheating no pull outs and definitely so sulking. I think I've been locked about 4 months now, wow. No orgasm, no erection (in her presence at least. I shower, go figure). No end in sight. It has become very normal for us and not in a boring way. The build up in excitement and horniness in our text exchanges this week has been off the scale. Big first ever relexology session when we meet this week and I have no idea if I will be any good at it, so many sequences to remember.

 

So finally last night my mistress and I had our first free evening together since she instructed me to learn reflexology so I can be a better personal massuer. We had big plans to go to bed at a reasonable time but ended up chilling on the couch, offloading all our little work and life stuff and drinking too much wine till silly o'clock. She put her beautiful bare feet up to my end and I was allowed to lick them. I said I'm not starting to massage them as I'm taking my reflexology very seriously and I'm not doing a little session while not sitting on kneeling properly.

We woke the next morning to a beautiful late summer day. After a small breakfast on the balcony we set up two chairs. You'd have to look hard from the busy town centre precinct to see through the slats my mistress sunbathing while having her foot massage but no-one would be able to see that I was only wearing my cage while kneeling at her feet. She loved it and I felt pretty confident that I was able to flow through most of the techniques from memory. She has agreed to allow me to practice on her often and I'm so pleased I have this to offer her whilst she has to make no effort.

 

Another wonderful evening spent with my mistress who cooked me a lovely prawn linguine as she was off and I was working (we're not hardcore flr, she's actually a really kind girlfriend despite how strict she plays chastity with me). The night ended with a reflexology session with her in bed, me kneeling on the floor, followed by sleepy oral night time kisses for her. As I thought, this is probably going to replace other kinky scenes we do for a while but it seems right especially during Locktober season. She was so taken by our reflexology session last week that she told her best friend how good it was. Her best friend doesn't know about our chastity and d/s situation as far as I know. The friend has medical issues for which there is a specific method in my book, I should say I've not yet any indication that the "whole body" benefits are real, too early to say. Of course, girls gotta love em, will always believe in alternative medicine and star signs, etc. The stars are aligning for me to be worshipping another women's feet who won't know I'm in chastity and orgasm denial for 4 months. So off I set to the dark side off the moon and female foot worship...

 

Strange re-reading that how things have changed. Unlocking in her presence and any form of sex with my penis is off the table. She told me this week how she has stopped masturbating, I think partly influenced by my talk of sexual energy and bonding hormones. She also commented that oral has been almost every night we meet, about once a week She wants to remove that expectation for both of us, I think she has felt almost duty bound. She also wants to develop my foot fetish by foot worship being mainly my sex life for now, she is enjoying full body massages too at the moment thankfully. I am never to initiate oral from now on. We are beyond that initial 3 month orgasm free happy marriage trial and both agree we need to evolve the d/s relationship into the long term, and settle it down from the toys and scenes where she almost had to put on a performance. She never really wants to role-play a domme it has to be real and truly when she feels like it. One thing I'm sure of is I'm going to be seeing a lot less of her holy place when she returns from a holiday in early Locktober. She's going to a hotel she's been to before and I think will be masturbating with the jacuzzi jets in her room constantly by the sounds of it. This Locktober is going to very difficult for me.

 

I'm in a hotel for the night after working away. For some reason, the busyness of the day presenting a training course, a nap then hotel restaurant I didn't lock up and send the lock up video as soon as I got into the room as usual. A few nice texts from mistress, how was your day, etc, and then the inevitable, "are you locked up for the night??". I locked up her property and key, sent the video and apologised adding that I didn't cum which I hadn't. "Aww, you are mine now ❤️ "... no talk of punishments, no domme-like threats i naively thought it would be like in those captions. We have to do remote locking with our lifestyles, but she is putting everything into making sure she is in control of it. The keypod, unlock requests, timed unlocks and lock up videos, this system is quite new to us but she's ruling it strictly each day and my compliance with it (usually) just demonstrates my willingness to be owned. I even felt guilty and had a feeling I was going to be caught just for a few hours of being out of the cage and doing nothing with it. It would hurt her to know I was taking advantage of our risky remote locking situation, the key is just there in a flimsy plastic box. Somehow I can't do that, not with the effort she's putting in and joy she's taking from it. Cheating the chastity rules is forming in my mind as on a par with infidelity. Is this how true obedience becomes ingrained?

 

I don't want to fight against being in enforced male chastity, for that is what it seems like to me. As I suspected with the instruction to learn reflexology I put my mistress to sleep before I finished the first foot. I was grateful she gave me her feet to worship, she is saving her holy place for the jacuzzi in Jamaica. I will have her feet to ponder on and will probably switch on the bulldog porn blocker in readiness for her return which will block this site also. October will be a quiet month which will be me basically saying, " keep on keeping on". So I'll see you all in NOvember no doubt.

 

My Mistress and I had a final evening together before her 3 week holiday. I had been told to shave my head as I had been growing my hair in a bit but an electric razor shave on zero is what she prefers. We cuddled on the couch, I stayed up her end as foot play on my balls would be too much tonight if I was going to be kept caged yet again. I checked the calender and realised she comes home just as I head off for a work trip which will take us up to just under a month apart. She will have her jacuzzi jets and I will have long distance chastity. She showed me her newly bald bikini bits, wow.

"Are you still OK with me sending you lock up videos?"
"Yes the small cage makes you look pathetic."
"And... do you like that?"
"I'm getting flutters now just thinking about it."

We went to bed and kissed for the last time in a while. I couldn't help but kiss my way down, she opened her legs and pushed my head towards her stroking the stubble on my head and grinding herself on me as I licked. Afterwards she had a cigarette.

"I was so close to unlocking you and letting you fuck me"
"We can. I would like that too."

She sighed and watched my face. There can be no begging.

"Seeing your reaction makes me think... No."

She pulled the erect cage back and slapped me on the balls a few times. "They're big." We turned off the lights but I couldn't sleep.

I still don't know what this is, a very strict initial lock-up or if she's just stringing me along in some kind of permanent chastity. The next month, or 6 weeks if we do Locktober are going to be very difficult. Foolishly this seemed to be the night if I was her I would have taken the cage off and let me cum. I let myself expect it but she makes no promises. I fear my compliance in sending timely lock-up videos will only reinforce her belief that she has a fully trained slave now and that the initiation should continue.

 

So just a few more days of our extended time apart of just under a month. I went for a nap in my hotel room after work, uncaged. She knows what time I get in to cage up and I awoke to a phone call demanding I lock up immediately and send video evidence. This is like porn for her now, she would have no interest in dick pics or videos if it did not involve me being caged. This is infinitely more arousing for her than any form of penis sex. I had hoped that this time may have had her coming back craving piv. Instead it has convinced me and maybe her that chastity is her number one fetish and nothing is standing in the way of that. She is craving coming back to her caged slave and has said I better be ready for lots of french kissing but not sure how much of that will be "upstairs". She has lots of plans for us but that maybe we do it at my house so her flatmate can't hear. The end of Locktober no longer matters for us and I have been warned never to ask for release. I'm going to have to make the most of my new life in chastity because I'm now completely convinced it will never end.