"I like that you can't cum"

... and you pleasing me orally. That's a big turn on." And with that any return to a "normal" sex life was over. I've spent long enough now in chastity and pleasing my mistress orally that that's just who I am and that's what we do. This was in response to gently asking my mistress if we'll ever have sex again (the meaning was clear, I meant piv sex). So it seems like no, not ever. I already said that it's for her to decide. I thought it might be a game, that she must eventually crave wonderful intercourse with me. It's seems no, she likes oral and likes it all the more because I'm caged. I'm not sure I'm ok with this but I have never refused anything she has initiated so for now I don't feel like I'm going to refuse this. There is no sympathy on her part, for all she knows this is exactly what I wanted... but I didn't really expect it to happen. What should I do?

 

Of course I have told her I'm ok with that. It's the least I can do for her fulfilling my chastity fantasy. It's just surprised me that that's it. It's clicked into place for her. I have fantasised it would. I suppose what I'm really asking is has this happened to you? In a matter of days it seems I am purely an oral slave for my mistress. I have not put any signs out there that I ever wanted to be otherwise. She is not being forceful about it but I am never forceful back, we never argue about sex. I'm just like, I wanted to be a pussy worshipping slave... and now I am!

 

That's good advice. I won't undermine her. I am as you probably guessed, unbelievably turned on by her position on this today. Tomorrow I might feel differently. Right now all I want is the privilege to worship her body and am grateful for it. If my bratty side does come out be sure I will treat her with respect and no, I gave up my right to demand anything.

 

Btw we got all the stuff for pegging. We do it a bit less than we did. I think it's another way in which she's taken advantage of the situation and kept it about her needs. I'm ok with that, eventually I'll ask for it after some cage time. I love that she's putting her desires first. I asked for it and now it's changing me

 

I suppose I feel like you made you bed you better lie in it. I said I've given all sexual choices to her perhaps in the heat of the moment. I think I should honour that. While i am regretting it a bit i am also think I need to stick with what I said. It seemed like a good idea at the time. I just didn't think she'd really cut out my sexual desires but she has. I go down on her all the time, have never refused that and now that's all I do.

 

I am enjoying I think. It's out of my hands now. I have to follow this path. I can only hope for some sympathy but it seems she likes it this way. I asked for this and now it seems it's become a reality. My mistress no longer sees me as someone who has sex.

 

I'm not sure about the cockolding. Does she come home with spunk in her? I think that would be a bridge too far for me. I can't say I would enjoy that.

 

We do often discuss quite rationally when we're chilling usually in the evening before we "do anything". Although I would probably have it a bit different with some sex sometimes I had already said I want her to be in full control. The way she said she likes oral with me in chastity, it just seemed like she was thinking with a controlling mindset even though I was hinting at sex. I found it powerfully dominant and not just playing around anymore with what we both want. With that I'm going to obey for as long as I can hold out. I want her to truly feel in control and enjoy that. Her fulfilling her dominant nature is way more important to me than the plans I have in my head for a little bit of chastity/ a little bit of sex when I really want it.

 

I realised today that it has been over 6 months since we had piv sex. Longer than that for hands or blowjobs. I have masturbated unauthorised in that time, part of the reason for nothing else. I checked in with my Mistress as this is a new milestone for us. She indicated that she is happy with that, that's it's better for both of us. We're past the point of promised lock up durations. This is indefinite. I do not say anything negative about my chastity although I sometimes wish I could switch it off for a night. I think as far as she is aware there is no desire for me to have erections, be teased or cum. I get ball torture and pegging sometimes. Eventually I may cum from this. I think she is content, thankfully she has a voracious appetite for oral sex and she has said this is heightened by my chastity and submissiveness. On sunday I was handcuffed, gagged and blindfolded for a ballbusting and pegging session. Afterwards she said it had been "my night" and that we could just cuddle to sleep. Kissing, she pushed my head under the covers and I felt more ecstatic when she came than I could ever remember when actually cumming myself. The more chastity and punishment I receive the more grateful and enthusiastic I am which I think is just reinforcing that this is all want and all I am. It's out of my hands now. I can only keep going further.