Part 2 ~ The Reluctant Dominatrix

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LMAO....Kylie.... that's cute.

I feel like hiding in a big hole today, real life really REALLY sucks big time at the moment.

Money, career, house, sex life... I haven't felt quite this bad in a long long time.

But you know me, I'll probably be ok later!

 

See.... I'm fine now! Lol!

Did some calculations, finished reading "The Sexually Dominant Woman", had an orgasm (thank you pet!) and denied him his!

Time to get up and get on with the day!

 

LOL @ pet... he is in the kitchen blaring out "All by myself" on the stereo because I decided to leave him and eat my cereal in the living room! He so makes me laugh.

Well from a blog point of view it looks like I didn't do anything yesterday, but I did... here's a link to the post!


I went to bed early(ish) last night. We were both really tired because baby had woken us up 3.30am the morning before and wouldn't go back to sleep.

I've only just woken pet up (10.30am) because I know he was playing on XBox all night. I'm being lenient at the moment because I think he has a job coming up (he's a freelance games tester... so rock n roll!) and he won't be able to stay up all night and lie in.

That's not what was going on in my head though... I wanted to wake him up and say "get up slut, I have jobs for you to do"!

I was supposed to be taking baby swimming, but I'm still not sure... she's a bit sniffly, and so am I, and now so is pet, which means manflu is probably looming!

We also have the offer of going out and having some fun later this month, but we have the normal babysitter issues. My mum won't have them (I've done the kid thing!) and pet's mum is now in a smaller house and probably won't have room. I have some ideas though, so I will try and juggle the 4 darlings... but I don't hold out much hope.

pet has also expressed issues on the cuckolding thing. Not sure why he's suddenly worried, it's not like it's imminent... he just said "but you're mine" and that he felt very protective towards me and that the whole thing could quite easily destroy us and I would blame him for pushing me in that direction..... big can of worms there this morning!

Well, baby is trying to pull my cereal all over the sofa so I best get on with my day!

 

I have read that thread, didn't answer it, not sure why and too tired (for some unknown reason) to read it again now... pass the coffee!!!

After the conversation yesterday I'm just so happy to be put back in my "precious" position. I like feeling precious and protected by him, and I like that fact that I am his completely and no-one elses.

As I said, I'm extremely tired and not really thinking coherently yet today!

Today I feel like ditching the chastity, but not for reasons of stroppiness or anger, just because I feel like we're not being us.

If I do, I know I'll regret it. I'm pretty sure it's tiredness speaking and I'll shut up.

You'll notice that when pet doesn't blog, I get very restless, start to doubt my abilities of being in control and generally get a bit lost.

Despite having conversations and excellent communication, I find comfort in reading black and white... ah well.

Busy day today (as always) Toddler group in the morning, but I just want to hide on the sofa. Taking son to buy shoes for his Junior Prom this afternoon, then helping out at Brownies, then going out for the evening.

 

Thank you kris. I'm feeling more Dominant these days, and I do think pet should be blogging on a daily basis and I will rectify that asap.

he's been realising that he's getting away with less and less back-chat and topping these past couple of days.

I've taken away all his credit and debit cards and only allowing him to have them back in emergencies (like buying me a new pink laptop bag!) I am giving him a regular allowance, and he is getting to grips with coping with that and budgeting.

he was in complete shock in the supermarket earlier... he wandered off to find his magazines and came back with a big grin on his face and went to hand them to me. I smiled back and asked if he had enough pocket money! he went all pouty and moaned for a bit, but I made him go and pay for them himself, and he doesn't have much money left for the rest of the week now. They weren't necessary, so he could have put them back, but his choice was to buy them... with 4 days till his allowance day, we'll see if that was a wise choice.

Yesterday was an odd day. I'm having really bad trouble with hormones since baby, and I really do need to go see a Dr about it or take a balancing hormone supplement or something, because it's not something I'm used to. I curled myself up in a corner yesterday and didn't want to speak to anyone or go out of the house, but pet convinced me to go shopping. I needed a new folder for University, and I love stationery shopping and the trip managed to turn the whole day around.

At his mum's house he was being cheeky when we were alone, and smacked my behind, so I scowled at him and made him kiss my feet to put him back in his place... seemed to do the trick!

Later, before I went out for the evening, I decided to fit him with a butt plug and see how long he could keep it in for. Unfortunately the larger one (which was a wider shape at the base, and I figured would stay in easier) didn't fit too well and he was too uncomfortable... I was going to give up, but we decided to try the smaller one, which I know fits well. I made him put some tight panties on to help hold it in, but I really need to buy a harness.

he managed really well, but because my phone was playing up I didn't receive his text to tell me he had removed the butt plug... lucky for him, as I had a punishment in mind if he had to remove it - I'll save that for another time. I'm not mad that he removed it, he did the best thing under the circumstances.

I had a great night out/in with the girls (takeaway at a friend's house while we planned what to do with our adorable Brownies next term). I'm really enjoying helping out, and the Brownies have named me "Pixie" which is so cute.

Can't blog anymore, I still have a headache... hope everyone is doing ok, the site is so quiet today!

 

Thank you newsub. I keep threatening to go to the Drs because I think something is not quite right with my contraception this time round.

Pre-baby I had the Mirena coil and it was AWESOME! No hormone imbalances, no periods, it was perfect. This time round, however, I have all the hormones and monthly spotting that may last only a day, but fits in with the mood swings. (All TMI, but anyway!)

So I really REALLY need to get to the Dr, but I bet you they just say "you're a girl, get over it!"

I'm pretty sure its not PPD. I crashed a bit after baby was born for a month(ish) and then felt fine... I think it's this stupid contraception, but who knows!

 

No... not pushy, you made me laugh!

I completely 100% agree with your "get up and get out" comment. Sometimes I can manage to push myself to do a tiny little thing which snowballs, or rather than do nothing, do something that I enjoy to get me going again.

I love gardening, but when the house is a mess I feel guilty for being out in the sunshine... but as I've said elsewhere, I'm solar powered! :xd: Maybe treating myself to 30 minutes in the garden every so often will boost my battery.

 

I'm very confused at the moment! (Nothing new there then.)

Yesterday was one of those up-and-down days. I did some gardening, then went indoors and played a new XBox game with pet and we decided it was so much fun we would go and buy another copy so we can play each other online, via the internet, with other people (yes, sad but true!)

Unfortunately between making the decision to go shopping and coming back downstairs past a messy bedroom, kitchen, kid's living room and adult's living room I threw a fit at pet... a huge fit, where I said many things I shouldn't have and deeply regret.

I have no self control over these explosions and I hate myself afterwards. We managed to get through it though, between pet's incredible patience and me being able to admit I was wrong... and things got back on track.

We didn't go shopping, we started clearing out the kid's living room, which is the first room you see when you enter the house.

On a trip to the dump, pet decided to take a detour and get the 2nd copy of the game to surprise me.

**stopped because I just saw pet waving through the window... I'll come back in a minute!**

 

Ooops! Sorry about that, lost my train of thought now!

When pet came back from the dump he asked if we were going to carry on tidying the kid's room and went off to start... but when I followed him, he was kneeling down in the kitchen with the game held out. *giggles* So we planned to do a bit more tidying and then play the game later.

pet made dinner which was SCRUMPTIOUS! I even licked my plate (terrible manners, I know... but it was gorgeous!) We had a lovely family dinner, which doesn't happen often, and the kids were chirpy and happy and we had lots of laughs.

The kids decided they wanted to sleep in the kid's living room now that it was tidy and we had reinstalled the Sky TV, XBox and PS2 that we had previously removed for discipline reasons... so we settled them in and then I stayed in the living room (with the BIG TV!) and pet went up to the bedroom and we logged on and played our game.

We both had a couple of glasses of wine, and chatted while we played, it's really good fun, we say all sorts of things to each other... it's a bit like phone sex via XBox headsets lol!

While I was playing and chatting I was thinking how nice it would be to go upstairs when we'd finished, snuggle up and have snuggly sex... the kind of loving sex you have when you want to feel loved and intimate and connected.

So this is where I get confused I wanted to have sex with pet BUT:

1. Due to the lock up, I feel that "release" should be something special... ie play, scene, etc
2. If we have sex, we've wasted 3 weeks lock up
3. If we have sex, pet will be miserable for a couple of days, due to the crash

So I just went up to bed, we watched Big Brother and I fell asleep.

When I woke up this morning, things were really different to how they've been the past couple of days.

pet didn't whinge when I woke him up because baby was grumping and I had a headache from the wine.

he came back up with a cup of coffee and snuggled with me... then went to feed baby breakfast.

Then he came back up with egg and dippy soliders! MY FAVOURITE! This all put me in such a good mood that I didn't want to hide in bed today, I jumped out, put a sexy mini shorts and skimpy top on and came downstairs.

When I was interrupted in the last post it was because pet needed to see if he had fixed the new hosepipe correctly, as I'd told him I needed to vacuum the pool today...

Now he's just come in and given baby her milk ready for her nap... AND HE'S CHEERFUL!

It's all a bit odd, but very nice. I'm still confused about sex though.

 

I know that would be the logical answer, but the strap-on for me is a very vigorous, animalistic, passionate sex item... not for intimate sex.

For intimate sex pet definitely needs to be inside me. This is something I have struggled with since chastity was introduced to me.

Some would say that we are not suited for chastity, but I think we just need to "find the fit" for our relationship.

It is incredibly complex (as I'm sure you know) and something we want... we just need to figure out what works!!!!

 

Thank you everyone for all your advice... as usual it is excellent!

I've just been snoozing on the sofa, and I think I have come up with some sort of solution which will deal with all aspects of the situation...but of course I can't tell you just yet!

I can't explain what it is that I *need* about the vanilla sex thing... maybe it is something that only women will understand (no offence anyone!)

But as I said, I think my sleepy but kinky mind has found me a happy ending! In fact, I'm very excited about it! I hope it works. :angel: