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    being real here -and honest. spent last two days hating the device -really wanted it off yesterday. just had to grit teeth -and work through it
    What i hate most -shrinking right down -penis flops in the tube -then, get aroused -penis bashes itself, gets squeezed ect - and i am so bloody horney!
    She knows -and she wants me to remain in it.
    "You wanted it -you got "
    Crap -now Im hard again -and balls are you know what!

    If you are a lurker -reality is a lot harder than fantasy!
     
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    Wait until the third week, you think you got it bad now.:anim_39:

    Remember what it says at the top of each page on this board. Good luck.
     
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    LOL -yep -careful what you wish for!
    Up 3 times during night ! uncontrollable erections I just could not kill -almost too painful!
    Good day during day -no real discomfort today -even forgot the device a few times -amazing what you adapt to.

    We had a talk about device last night -now im all confused over what she thinks about it -(women LOL)
    She wants me still locked -but is still not feelong in control? -what ever that means. In a way, I think her mind set is at the moment -he's locked equals no need to think about sex -good -leave him locked.
    me -I want intamacy with out her feeling pressured for sex.

    I will see where we are in a week -especially on how we go with my monthly scheduled "play time" -then take chastity from there I think.
    personally -Im still positive -mostly!
     
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    I wish I could tell you how I got my head round it, but I can't remember. It's almost one day I woke up and suddenly had it!

    I know I've got most of it sorted now, teasing becomes natural, like I've always done it.

    All I can offer is hugs and sympathy. Patience will get you there.
     
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    I have not been here long, and i don't know many of you guys here very well -but i can say this - there are a lot of very nice caring people here.
    real people -who i think have been brave enough to live dreams -and not poo poo them.
    Power to you all, and thankyou for the replies and thoughts.
     
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    OK -a few things -I have the irritation under control I think -i am actually using a little sticking plaster for it -and that works fine. Fit -now inescapable and i can't pull out with what i think is the settled ring spacer size. Only took a month to get it right -LOL
    We have talked a lot last 24hrs about all this.
    I was pretty-she calls it -sooky la,la yesterday - and I tried to explain that going from masturbating daily, to none -to turning all my thoughts to her, is a huge thing -and I am trying to get used to this.
    She told me -relax, stop being so clingy -and she understands.
    The exciting -scary bits of the conversations - "I sincerely hope you have not been looking for the key (after i related about middle of the night erection forcing me out of bed until i relaxed)
    the emergency key -whicjh i knew was in her purse -has disapeared -as has her purse.
    from todays chat -I am definately getting this for a long, long time - monthly releases -but from the tone of the conversation today -i am entering permanant (once a month out, once every 3 days clean) chastity
    She likes it -she likes the no pressure of sex control she has.
    She also though -real life here guys -told me -from now on -stop adjusting the device in public!

    Every indication -this is really going to happen. it turns me on, it scares me

    We taled about a release this weekend -i hope -I feel so!, so!.
    Finally -dribbles -man, the dribbles of pre come.!
     
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    no need to tell me about the dribbles yesterdayy it was so bad I considered buying antylinets to save my underwear! As for the rest It's been wonderful to hear about how Your wife has accepted and taken control of the chaste you.
     
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    definition of sweet and sour
    removing device for clean - and finding irritation/sore totally healed!
    Showering - with out supervision - resisting temptation -and putting the device back on.
    So -no removal now unless for clean, or relief. I think i might have ages to go before that too - 'I have other plans for this weekend" -she says
    sweet, and sour!
     
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    its nearly midnight, and i am alone in the house.
    before chastity -i would have been masturbating over something i would not be able to recall the next day.
    Mindless stuff.
    now, i sit here, and all my mind is turned to my wife, my key holder, my love.
    chastity is turning into an emotional roller coaster -as many i am sure know.
    How do i ask her, can i please come?
     
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    Week end has gone past -no release -as was planned, promised.
    remembering this was about taking pressure of her about sex, with myself having a monthly release to remain sane (LOL) Im a little peeved honestly.
    remember , this is not your typical Mistress submissive chastity -I am in chastity for her yes -but its meant to be a shared journey.
    She winged last night when I asked for the key to clean -"you keep asking for the key -i thought it could be worn for months with out coming off!"
    When I pointed out that we agreed every three days _while I adjust, and confirm no more sore development-and that it was three days - she expressed surprise.
    That is her mindset -she is so non sexual, that three days, three weeks, three months with out access or sex, is natural to her -she does not think about sex, why should I?
    So, reality -i am locked up - and I don't want another fight about keys and access -if you knew her, you'd understand.
    So, heavens knows how long before i get a release -a great idea Im sure many would think -for me -I am not so sure!
     
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    My wife sounds just like yours, vanilla and hardly any interest in sex at all. As Mikecb says, "i want chastity not celibacy".

    MM's sweetpea
    rachel
     
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    Hi Rachel,
    thanks for the reply
    Funny enough - an hour after posting, she walks into room, goes -here is the key - go and do your thing.
    So, I had a release - and , well, nice, but really, very unsatisfying - no intimacy at all. Still =orgasm unreal.
    I am locked for another month -I want this to work, so the above not really an issue - if I am patient, and this month is successful - Im sure next time will be better.She was in a pretty bad mood me thinks anyway
     
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    herbie, Congratulations. It seems like you're hitting a comfortable stride with wearing the device and your wife in control. Here's hoping she continues to enjoy it, as do you!

    mikecb
     
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    Just a day at work -i would rate today a good day -hardly noticed the device most of it.
    Am pretty tired from the "wake up -Im trying to get aroused -get out of bed middle of the night thing. main ring is very tight -or device not secure. Going for security when relaxed and put up with discomfort other times.
    device not mentioned today -trying to get to point where its mentioned very rarely.
     
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    Not much to report today -even slept fairly well -exhausted really.
    device comfortable - inescapeable - only needs to come of weekly for a clean now.
    So i suppose, after a month and a bit -we are here -the chastity lifestyle.
     
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    was let out for a clean yesterday -changed to next ring size up -i am still getting irritated sore on underside of penis -no pain, and tape is helping -but its very, very annoying.
    I don't want to have to take device of for cleans -i can do that all right with shower nozzle ect.
    taking of for clean is Ok -but getting back on! -nightmare -!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Wife trusts me not to misbehave -and I don't -but what a struggle - wash, clean, dry, a little strip of tape -and try not to get aroused, and try to get back in.
    battle of control!
    Anyway -another day -all day in garden, feeling pretty good about this chastity life now - sure i will feel different by middle of third week since last orgasm!
    For me -one HUGE positive -no more surfing porn -no wasting time, or thoughts on any one else but wife.
    You know though -why can't anyone just copy the CB6000s EXACTLY -but in steel?
     
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    Another vanilla day I suppose
    I spend all day thinking about sex -and unable to do anything, and Im sure she spent all day not even giving it a thought. SIGH

    Too busy at work to even think about the device, and hating mid night wake ups, and 2 am wake ups, and 4 am wake ups LOL...............
     
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    A quick clean -no problems, and back in
    Wife has spare key in her purse -when i asked for it so i could shower/clean i went - thankyou -I will get key.
    "Don't you dare! she says -I will always do that " and she was grinning ear to ear. I think she is enjoying this more than she will let on!
     
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    Congrats on your journey.

    I know what you mean about reality.:Locker: See my blog, not as interesting as your posts though. But even a few days in, is a challenge. One advantage you have is ability to get out and rearrange and go back in. Using TimeLock, once you set a release date there's now way out, unless you have someone else involved who can enter the Pass Phrase to terminate the lockup. That's basicly the same as having the key held by a key holder which I dont have. But you might like to look into TimeLock as a way that your wife can be assured of your release schedule.

    Best of luck on helping to heal your wife, it's a noble undertaking. Perhaps if she were to accept some professional help as well, with how she is feeling now that she is freed from the preasure she used to feel from you, your chastity might be even more beneficial to her well being. It might pay to discuss these issues with a therapist to intergrate your sacrifice into your wife's thinking so that she can someday return to her pre-injury feelings for you.

    PS I have no interest in TimeLock, other than as a user, but it offers a host of interesting lockup scenerios you might be interested in. www.timelock.rules.it

    Take care,

    ShieldingMatrix
     
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    life.
    its made up of little moments, and big ones.
    One day, Ill sit down and work out how i got here.
    but for now -a little moment

    Today wife booked a holiday - 5 days in April -away to visit friends
    'Do you mind?" she asks
    And I joke - "No -I'll stay here and be good'
    And the reply - which says so so much
    'We will have to work out a emergency key arrangement wont I?!"

    I think -in her mind now -this is going to be forever.
     
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    Hehe! Congratulations! :)
     
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    newby posting

    Thank you for this post, I have enjoyed hearing your updates. I hope your wife comes around to the idea of her role in this. A little concerned that you gave up control so quickly. Like the sore you got it seems to take time getting physically used to it, and recovery periods seem to help. I havent been able to keep mine on for over a week yet due to physical activity(and paranoia of someone noticing it). I'm just a kid working at a local deli shop and i dont want to put a noticeable tent in my apron or have it slowing me down too much. I have been saving up for 6ks which I hope to be better for long term wear than the 6k. Then I might start a blog like yours to help keep me honest. As well 'milking' can help give some physical/mental relief and may even be healthy, not sure if its your thing but its an idea anyway. Good Luck and hope to hear more!
     
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    continuing on.

    We had another quick talk yesterday -and from it I am pretty sure she is now very happy with this chastity situation - and really wants to hold me chaste. She doesn't really understand how frustrating it can be for me =the whole thing of sexual lust i think is well past her -at this time anyway.
    She does like the fact, loves it in fact -that all my sex is controlled -directed to/by her.
    The device is sorted now -with cleans every 5 days, the tape trick keeping sores under control -no other irritations.

    I once, when I was 17, saw forced womanhood -the TS bit no turn on, but the chaste bit yes.I seem to have spent a whole life of missed opportunities and fantasies nearly fullfilled -mainly through lack of will and courage.
    This one seems to be about to come real.
    With her attitude, and the love we have -I am going to be locked for good here -can't see it otherwise -and this is good.
    She is, really is a lot happier not having to dael with sex -she said so - and having a relaese schedule is good for her.
    Finally -when I mentioned the midnight "crushings" -she said -"OH suffer -its what you need"
     
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    Not much to report really -just life.
    Device still on, still working, I am healed up -no tape on at the moment, seeing if device can remain on now with out tape.
    Cleaning easy with a nozzle i am such a shrinker, so if no ouchies there will be no need to take it off.
    Actually a bit ill -so it was a surprise to sleep all night with out a midnight"crush".
    (I'd take that over this cursed cold/fever!)
     
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    Ok - I said that this is all real from the start.

    well -here is reality - woke up, was sick, felt better, wished I could masturbate - couldn't -did a lot of other stuff, and basically lived the rest of the day with out even thinking sex, or device, did lots of model building, gardening, playing computer games.
    Body has really finally adjusted to device - may have to try smaller ring again.
    Nothing else to report!
     
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