First experiences of a gay couple (cont.)

Waking every morning to a head oozing pre-cum

 

Yes, it's really a great feeling to have people supporting me here. Somewhere to let off steam and feel that I'm not alone on this journey

You're right that I had the wrong idea at the start, but lesson learned now

Thanks

 

I'm both terrified of it and desperate to find out what it's like. It must be the sub in me

I reminded him that it's here and where to find it, to which I got the answer "Don't worry, I'll get out sometime!"

I think he said deliberately "sometime" and not "next time" as he knows it keeps me guessing and constantly terrified. I know that when he does use a cane, he lets himself go and is much tougher on me than I would think. Hence the terror too

I once told him I want to be able to take it like a man and that my whisperings are like a child throwing tantrum and would be best ignored. He certainly didn't stop last time he caned me, even though I started pleading

Even now when I think of it, I feel it would best be avoided. With the triple whammy I am fearful really

But at the same time I know I need it, I know I need to be taught a lesson for cumming without his permission

We'll see

 

I really don't know. The first time this has happened and I feel guilty for releasing cum in this way

Somehow it's his cum not mine, and it's my fault for releasing it when being pleasured. Another reason for a caning maybe?

Anyway day 10 is already here again and I'm back into desperately horny mode. All I want is to pleasure him with my body. Cumming is not the priority anymore (and he knows that too )

 

Pleased that others enjoy reading my sporadic diary. Gives me a feeling that others are supporting me, which is definitely a need of mine

Thank you

 

Great to have others like me here. Though you're way, way ahead of me. Chaste since 2019? I simply can't imagine it

Are you punished too from time to time?

 

Still can't imagine what you have been through and are going through. Thanks for sharing

 

I know that my limits need to be tested, but there is a genuine fear. Fear drives adrenaline and I'm a bit of an adrenaline junkie

And then pain does drive a hormone (I forget which one), which does elate me, but I only notice after the event

So quite a mixture of feelings and needs

 

Well the tension continues and it's time for an update. After fairly regular orgasms over the Christmas and New Year period, everything is back to normal: I'm struggling again with my horniness on day 16 and now really have the feeling that I am heading for, and beyond, my previous record of 38 days

My bf has gone back into quiet persistence mode. When having sex a few times ago he asked where the key box was (only he knows the code). I had left the box in my mini rucksack in the other room (for safety reasons I always carry the rattling box with me ). When I told him, he just shrugged his shoulders and said "Well we'll leave it then"

And then last time (when I had made sure that the rattling box was next to the bed ) I asked him whether he wanted to unlock. The answer was a simple "no"

I can't complain as his fisting was deep, sexy and made my cum flow. It was an amazing feeling

But before that he asked me where I was hiding the three-legged cane that has now arrived. He found it easily and inspected it. What a construction! He tested it somewhat half-heartedly on my ass, but even that hurt. I had to smother my face with a pillow to keep the noise down

He even tested it very lightly on his own leg. That hurts he said with a smile

This was just a test. The proper punishment for cumming without his permission still awaits. He will tie me down over a large arm chair, stuff my mouth with something and give the full power of his arm through the three-legged can

That is going to be frighteningly painful and I will probably show the marks for a few days. But it is what I deserve after betraying him before Christmas

 

Someone's enjoying the soap opera. But really very real when the thing strikes your ass

 

Uuuum

 

Someone likes to rub it in. It sometimes feels that you're getting impatient with its usage and would rather come here and do it yourself

 

Everthing's been continuing in the same way from before Christmas now with release about once every 7 days. Much less frequently than his, but still a long way from the denial that I experienced last year reaching a peak of 38 days

But today everything changed. Maybe, after waiting for this for a while, today he felt that the time was ripe for a change

We were in the kitchen playing together on the large, robust kitchen table. He'd warmed my ass up with a dildo and had shaved around the crack. He likes me to be smooth there

And then came the change. While on all fours, he told me to present my ass even more. I didn't realise at first what was coming, but he'd taken the three-pronged cane in hand and a stinging stroke was the first I knew of what was to come

Oh did it sting and hurt. This was to be my long promised punishment for cumming just before Christmas when I was uncaged and he was trusting me

I cried out in pain and begged to have my mouth gagged with something (don't want the neighbours complaining do we? ), but he ignored me and continued. These were now full-strength strokes unlike his light test of the cane a few weeks ago

I had somewhere around 5 in total. I was too focused on the pain to count. He could have continued, but seeing the impact marks, he thought this was enough for me

Sitting writing this I can still feel where the three-pronged cane landed. It left its mark many times over. It's a beast of an implement when used with full force



I was glad that he decided to continue with other things. I couldn't have taken much more

He didn't remove the cage (maybe it's on for the long haul again), he milked me hard and, although it's only day 7, my cum just flowed. I could see it pouring out of my dick onto the kitchen table

He noticed it too so that when he swtiched to fucking me, he scooped the whole lot up into his hand and as his dick thrust deep into my ass, his hand, covered now with all my cum, was deep into my throat

Wow, what a great feeling. Maybe almost worth the caning I'd just had

As we rested afterwards, I was still really horny. The milking had had no affect on this so after a while I aroused him for a second round. I'm now full of his every drop of seed and feeling very content and happy despite a somewhat warm ass from the caning

What a great Sunday