Deep breath. And... relax. Here goes

Stop that right now, @bondinchas ! I'm not going there!

However, last night we had The Big Talk when he got back. I said that what he did was yuck, and reiterated that I didn't want to be an actress in his porn fantasy. And on top of that, he was way out of order by taking the lead (and literally pinning me down) without permission. I'm not sure it was before or after that that he noticed the cane in the corner, which of course I completely avoided talking about. Laura (and others here) are so right - just leaving it out creates lots of delightful (for me) uncertainty (for him). He began to ask about it and I just shushed him - politely and nicely, and with a cheery grin!

I said that I wanted him in the slightly smaller cage. He said that he didn't like it because not being able to begin to get even a little bit hard seemed to affect him a lot. I said it'll only be a for a while. He asked how long and I said, "like I said, just a while" (<evil grin>).

And that was that. When we woke up, he went for a kiss, which I really wanted too, but as instructed by Laura I was friendly and nice but didn't allow anything sexual. I could tell he was really confused - it wasn't as if we'd had a row but I was just treating him like he was a brother, not my partner. He asked what was going on and I said that he shouldn't ask - that I was in control now (that felt glorious).

Of course while he was dressing, he found my knickers in his underwear drawer. He said we'd agreed that we didn't want him to be feminised. I just said that I haven't asked him to do anything - I'm just keeping some of my underwear along with his.

He went off muttering about not knowing what's going on and then reappeared a minute later apologising again for what he did. I said that I 100 percent accepted his apology, that I love him very much, but there will be consequences, and I sent him off out.

Several flirty texts from him, which would normally elicit a similar response from me, but today I've just been pleasant and sisterly, changing the subject to practical stuff we need to do today. I'm loving this already and we're only into the first day of a month-long plan!

Sal

 

I'm only a few hours into day 1 and I'm already thinking a month is a long time! Still, I have a plan and I'm going to try to stick to it - even if the plan for second couple of weeks makes me feel exceedingly wobbly - goodness knows what it'll do to him! Sal

 

This evening he asked me into the shower with him, as usual, fully expecting me to unlock him and climb in with him. I unlocked and said I would just watch from the sidelines to make sure he doesn't play with himself. And instead of shaving underneath I suggested he should do it. He looked worried and asked me if everything is ok - I said that everything is absolutely fine. He's so confused. <evil grin> I also suggested that he shave himself a good deal more than usual. When he'd finished, he got hard while I was watching him but I asked him to put the cage (the slightly smaller one) back on and once I'd clicked it, I just stood and watched him dry himself, which i asked him to do sitting on the edge of the bath. I felt proud of having managed to satisfy at least three of Laura's rules: making the rules, cfnm, placing myself higher than him, resisting any temptations myself and asking him to shave more than just what was necessary to stop snagging on the ring. Big tick! He asked me what was going on and I just said 'consequences'. Sal

 

When the hair grows under the ring it seems to itch and eventually starts to chafe. I wish there was a way to let him out for long enough to shave and add cream but not allow him to get hard... Sal

 

Thanks @littleguy3 and @547378263 - that's an interesting suggestion re waxing. I'll have a good think about that. It fits with the discussion I had with Laura and I also like it because he can get some feel (literally) with what I have to endure, and it would make him squirm like anything. I absolutely couldn't be in the room at the same time (a step too far!) but would happily wait outside. We have to be in central London a couple of weekends from now, so that might be a fun thing to book him into in Old Compton Street! Thanks for the suggestion!!
Meanwhile, My Pete has been more and more confused by the 'consequences'. He's been in the slightly smaller of the two cages ('Shortie') all week and he keeps asking to go into the slightly longer one. I asked him why (there's only just over a centimetre between them I think) and he said he feels 'squished'. At first I thought he meant it was physically uncomfortable - which is not what I would want, but he clarified and said 'mentally squished'. I said that I had felt a bit mentally (and physically) squished by him a week ago. He apologised again and asked if I was deliberately wanting to exert much more control than usual, as a punishment. I said it wasn't punishment, just a consequence and that it wouldn't last forever but that we had quite a way to go yet. He gave me the full frightened-rabbit.

My knickers in his underwear drawer and the cane in the corner of the bedroom have had exactly the effect that Laura said they would - and I haven't had to say a thing. After he's had a shower, I've told him I enjoy seeing him naked (except for the cage, of course) and I've made sure there's plenty of cfnm time. Wherever possible I've used height - the other night we watched a film with me sitting on the sofa (normal clothes) and him sitting on a cushion with his back against the sofa at my feet, wearing just t-shirt and boxers. I've been trying to be fairly asexual, but that's difficult. He brought me flowers the other day (all part of his apology I think) and we had a proper long kiss. I put my hand on his cage and asked him how it felt. He said he felt his sexuality was being squashed.

I like the idea that usually he's desperate to get hard, or to come but now he's desperate just to get into a teensy bit larger cage so that he can just have the merest hint of getting hard. Last night, I told him this and he asked me what he needed to do. He promised me he would never do 'that bad thing' again. I just said (having rehearsed it to myself plenty of times in the past week) that he didn't need to promise me because after this month was up, I knew he wouldn't even think of it. He just said, "A month???!!" I said it would be at least a month.

He asked what else was going to happen and I just said, "You'll see". I'm actually not exactly sure of the plan but I do have a list of possibles.

I'm enjoying this, even though his behaviour is ever so slightly spilling into the rest of our lives, which is scary. Laura said it would, but also said he'd revert soon enough when I take my foot off the pedal, so not to worry.

Sal