A keyholders diary...

Thank you very much. The both of you. I'm truly blessed to have such a wonderful caring husband. :character0100: So, another Christmas is over. Wow, that was a crazy couple of days. Crazy, but so fun!!! I had such a wonderful day with family last night, and then John and I spent the day with our daughter today. To see her face when she came downstairs and realized Santa had come, was just priceless! She was so excited! I think her exact words were, "OMG!! Mommy, I got a lotta lotta presents!!" Then, "This is what I've wanted my whole life! Thank you so much, Santa!!" Yeah, she'll be 4 in February. To see her get such a thrill out of it, made everything worth it. We had a really great quiet day playing games and opening some toys for her to play with. I have to admit...some of this stuff is WAY cool!! Like this crayon maker thing? I actually enjoyed playing with her. And it wasn't just because of the Mimosa's. Only one more stop on the ol Christmas trail tomorrow. My FIL's. Wish me luck, my friends. Cuz this Goddess is gonna need it. :manga_bunny: I hope you all had a wonderful day! Merry Christmas!!:treesmiley:

 

usy, busy, busy! It feels like I haven't had the chance to sit down once in the past 4 days. I have a few moments before the next wave of things to do comes at me, so I wanted to update my diary.

Christmas at John's dads was a really good time. I wasn't really looking forward to going, but in the end we had a lot of fun. We played Wii for a while and now I'm totally addicted. I think we may need to look into purchasing it. Even our daughter can play. There's so many fun games. Bowling, archery, ping pong...what a great way to get a family together. And you're not sitting on your ass to do it!! You've got to get up and play which I loved. John and I got a really generous GC to one of our favorite restaurants. I can't wait until we can go and use it. Yummy.

We come to yesterday. For the past couple of weeks Xcite/Mike and his Goddess have been planning to get together with John and I. We were going to go to our local zoo together with the kiddos. Wouldn't you know it....the flu hit their whole family. :sad0002: I did get the chance to see Mike, though. I helped him with a wedding he was shooting about 40 miles west of me. I just love everything to do with photography, and he was nice enough to give me a look at what it's like. I HAD SO MUCH FUN!!! I mean, it was work and busy work at that, but I just kind of took to it right away. I adore weddings and to be able to help this couple and her family make their day memorable was fantastic. I actually got to shoot a couple of pictures as well (HOLY CROW!! Those cameras weigh a TON!!). I was fluffing dresses, adjusting necklaces, making sure the flower girl was smiling, putting on corsages, carrying equipment from here to there, fixing ties, and laughing/smiling the whole time. OK, I have to do a little bragging here.....

Mike is SUCH an AWESOME photographer!! I want to know where this guy was when John and I got married!!! We had a really bad snowstorm Saturday night into Sunday morning. We got about 8 inches or so and fast. Because of all the snow and the location of the wedding there was an opportunity for some really beautiful outdoor shots. He didn't even blink an eyelash...he goes outside with the bride and groom and starts shooting. At one point he just shakes his head and says something like, "Oh, this is too good of shot not to take..." And lies down sideways to take a shot from the snow covered ground. With no coat. Just to get that perfect photograph. He showed me the pictures he took from outside and they are truly beautiful. So, although he's crazier than crazy, he's got a gift. Mike? Have I embarrassed you enough? :innocent0003:

OK, on another note. John has been on the honor system for about 2 weeks, now. No CB...just left to his own devices. Well, I got a picture text send to me this morning. Him in his CB. Let the games begin. I'm so looking forward to tonight!!! Details to follow.

ps. I still can't believe he locked himself up so he wouldn't be tempted to play. Guess I'm pretty good at this, huh? :love0063:

 

It's very nice.:happy0011:

 

After our daughter went to bed last night, I decided that it was time to have a bit of fun. John has not been locked up for about 2 weeks now. He was doing super on the honor system...until Sunday evening. He was bored and started surfing the net. I guess he was looking at some porn and started to get the itch to play with my property, so instead of forging ahead, decided he better lock it up. Very nice.

John took a shower and when he got out I told him to lay face up on the bed. He had mentioned to me during dinner that he was thinking about bondage all night the evening before. So, not wanting to disappoint, I decided to tie him to the bed spread eagle. His poor caged cock was literally oozing out the vent holes. :evilgrin0010:

After I got him all strapped down to the bed, I told him that I wanted him to lick me to an orgasm. I sat on his face so he could go to work. He was doing a fabulous job, but to tease him a bit I kept moving just out of reach of his tongue. I was fingering myself, playing with my clit while he had to lay there helpless to watch me. I can't believe how much fun I was having teasing him like this. Watching him try to to lick air just inches from my pussy was fabulous! After I finished myself off and seeing his complete frustration, I decided it was time for a shower.

I unlocked him, so I could play with him for a bit. Got in and immediately lubed him up for a hand job. While I was stroking him I asked him how badly he wanted to cum. I told him he had a choice. 1. Not cum at all or 2. a ruined orgasm. He said he wasn't sure yet. Okie dokie. I turned around and told him to fuck me until I came...again. He was trying to reach around to rub my clit :mad0025: and I pushed his hand away and said he had to finish the task without any extra help. He did well, and I had a very hard orgasm. He then pulled out and I said, "What are you doing? I'm not done yet!" While he was fucking me I turned my head and asked him if he wanted to cum. He was pleading with me to let him shoot his load in my pussy. I told him that I stated my stipulations. Ruined orgasm or none at all. He told me he'd cum any way I'd let him. He started pounding away and when he got to the point of no return I pushed him away and held his hands down. It was so fantastic watching his cum just dribble from his cock!

We got cleaned up (with his dick still hard) and got out of the shower.

After we went downstairs we talked about making a, what we're calling it, a "wheel of misfortune". I got the idea from playing a game with my daughter where you spin an arrow to see how many spaces you move. One will have #'s on it to see how many days he'll remain in chastity, and the other will have rewards and punishments on it. There will be many more punishments than rewards...just to make it interesting. I have lots of ideas on different things to write in the spaces. This is going to be lots of fun!!! That's his project for tonight.

We had such a great time, and while the vanilla sex we've had over the past 2 weeks has been great, I've really been missing the Domme/sub games. I'm really looking forward to the next few weeks/months. This is where I feel the most comfortable...being in control. I believe it's my time to shine. :bad-girl-0009:

Until tomorrow...

 

Thank you, Cindy. You really know how to flatter a girl. :manga_blowkiss:

Well, here it is, 1am and I'm awake. I'm having a bit of a problem and I'm so upset over it. I have a dear friend of mine that is just lost at the moment and I don't know how to help. This is so hard.:sad0064: It seems I've done something to upset them, and I don't know what that is. And why am I talking about this at 1am on the Mansion you ask? Because no one else is up in the middle of the night and I need to talk about it.

So, here I am. Just waiting to get the chance to talk and work it out. Sorry for such a depressing post, but I needed to chat.

 

Thank you very much...both of you. MW, I just didn't want to dwell on it. Seriously, the chat with you helped get my mind off of things. So thanx!! I did have a wonderful time chatting with you last night! I'm off to start that thread we talked about. You know, I actually ran, flipped on my laptop this morning, hopeful that I had some kind of response to the 5 emails I sent asking for an explaination....only to be very disappointed. I'm at such a loss on what to do...I just feel like crying.

 

I'm going to just vent for a bit. Feel free to pass this post. I'm so very upset right now. It's been great being able to talk on here and get my mind off of things, but this is still in the back of my head and will be for a very long while. I want to know what would make someone who supposedly trusted you with private and intimate information, completely cut me out of their lives....when it seems like they need friends the most. I'm just crushed. My friend just kind of erased me out of their life. Why would you do that to someone who cares about your well being? Why wouldn't they give me the opportunity to say goodbye? Even if our relationship can't be that of friends anymore, to not have that kind of closure and know that they're hurting so much is very, very hard. I care about this person. The worst part is there's no way to reach them. So, I have to sit here and wonder what is going on, if they're talking to anyone, worrying if they're alright. I love this friend very much, and to have them cut me out of their life is just devastating. I don't think they realize the impact this is having. I just want them to get in touch. UGH....I'm totally rambling. Maybe the lack of sleep, maybe trying to type through tears. I just don't know what to do. I've never felt so helpless. This is the 1st time I've ever said this...but I'm praying for the chance to talk to them again. I kind of knew this was coming, I guess, but it's still a huge shock at how it's being handled so thoughtlessly. Do you know how hard it is, thinking you were someones close friend and then finding out you were disposable? Real life totally sucks, sometimes.

 

I really hope that's not the case. I don't think I've ever felt so used before. I hope we can make amends before it's too late. What kills me, is all we have to do is talk about it. Why is that so difficult?

 

There isn't, MW...although it sure sounds like it would be petty high school bullshit like that. Excuse my french, but now after being upset all day, I'm getting uber pissed. It seems that because I'm nice to people and really good to my friends, that's like an invitation to walk all over me. I mean, WTF?!?! Who treats their "friends" this way. Mike, you're so right! I don't need this crap in my life...not when I have such great people that don't play these games. Anyway, thanks so much for listening to me bitch. Sounds silly, but it did help a ton. MW, I had such a great time talking with you this morning. Next time I'm up at a ridiculous hour, I'll have some coffee with you. xo