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    Spiral 15 is here!

    Well I just thought I would take a minute to let everyone who has been following my posts know my Lori Tube #15 was here waiting for me when I got home today. Much to learn and get used to and I will be sure to save the formal thoughts for the appropriate forum. In the mean time my Wife just gave me this huge grin and told me how hot it looked. I think I am back in trouble..who knows.

    Night all.
     
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    My Invite

    OK all I was just honored with a personal visit on here from my very own Goddess/Wife. While I got a well deserved butt chewing for having a rant that was a little misplaced let me clear it all up by saying if there is any doubt my Wife/Goddess is the most amazing person I know (I know there are those who will disagree because you are with the most amazing person you know)

    Anyway I would like to extend this personal invite to her to join this group so she can contribute as well. So if you will all help me and extend an invite as well I would appreciate it.
     
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    Day one underway..

    Well today marks the first day of lockup in the new Spiral. I am only a little apprehensive. While I still have the keys it is still a little intimidating. I can easily see that once I hand over the keys there will be no way out of this, at least none I can see yet. so far only minor pinching getting it on and off so I assume practice makes perfect (Although I am led to believe there will be little practice in taking it off only practice in wearing it):gen085:

    I will try to post more as the day continues so in the mean time thanks for stopping by.
     
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    Wondering how the first night went in the spiral?

    Also, i would like to invite your Goddess to join... :animal0008:
     
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    1st Night Good

    Well the first night in the spiral was better than I anticipated. Still got the same nocturnal erections I had in the CB 6000 but for some reason the pain was not as intense. However the problem lies that since the spiral part of the cage confines you depending on how much you grow there are a couple of times when the folds of skin got pushed through the rings of the spiral. No real pinching per say but it sure looks like the chances are there.

    So far no real problems. However yesterday one and only one of my testicles retracted back out of the ring so there may be a slight sizing issue yet. The difference however is with the 6K I could have removed the whole device at tat point. With this no so, not sure why but not so.

    Thanks newsub4a for stopping in and I will be sure to pass along the invite!
     
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    Is this just too much work?

    Well another up and down segment I guess. We are unfortunately going to have to return the Lori device for resizing if she allows it. I have to wonder, as much as I would like to continue this, how much is really worth the end result. I so long to see, feel, and experience the frustrations and rewards that comes with this type of lifestyle/choice etc. However with now over 5 months in trying to adjust to fits of devices, get devices, and keep my Goddess excited through it all is it worth it? Then when locked up the excitement is often short lived as it is inevitably then that the stressors of life kick in and I am left stressed and locked. Trying hard to get my wife back in the mood is often difficult as she has a very very stressing job and then you combine that with trying to raise three kids who take all the extra time and energy I do not even know where to go. It appears that although entirely my perception that only those I meet in this lifestyle with kids who have moved on in life can really even try to attempt the enjoyment. Perhaps I am just overly frustrated but in all reality I am just trying to find that right balance of us vs the world and then when I have so little of the us time trying to figure out what if anything of this lifestyle will fit in the us. I am not saying I quit but I am saying perhaps it is time to take others advice given on here and just take a break for a while. I will try to keep you posted on the lori device but I have very little excitement to get back into the cb6000 with all of its problems. Later all.
     
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    Easy there xcite. This does take a little time to get things going. As you and your wife both know from our personal chats everyday life can get in the way but you have to remember this too will pass. My pet and I went through three devices before we got the one he is wearing now. Even the Lori device we ordered had to go back to be resized. Not sure if there is a better way to do things on her end but regardless I am sure she will make it right. In the mean time if you really want to please your wife AND this is what she wants then there is nothing wrong with the CB6K for now. It is not about how comfortable you are *grin*

    Keep posting because I do like to read about you guys even if I do talk some with Goddess M.

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    New day..

    Thanks Kate for the visit. My gorgeous wife and I had a pretty amazing night. Truth be told I had settled in for the evening on my laptop and was just going to surf the internet till I got tired enough and then go to bed. Her creative little mind sent me an instant message with an invitation to the bedroom. WOW. Needless to say she did not have to ask twice. While it had nothing to do with any D/s style it was sure nice to get a break like that.

    Bak on the front we received a very prompt reply to our email to Mistress Loris who as instructed us to return the device for repair. While no time frame was given we will just have to play the waiting game I guess. I am not sure of my wifes mindset with this whole thing anymore as it has been pretty quiet conversation in regards to the chastity thing. I am pretty sure, almost positive she wants to keep things going but as I offered to wear the 6k she just shook it off. I think she is wanting to give me a little "free" time. All I know is I could never get enough of last night and other similar evenings. I wonder if this makes me a sex addict? Perhaps this is wear my need stems from in regards to chastity. All I know though is if there is no tease or play while in it I do not get the point-perhaps I have so much more yet to learn.
     
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    OK OK OK so past the self pity post but still slightly frustrated by the whole device thing. At any rate I was able to learn that after playing around with numerous size rings etc we now have what I feel to be a pretty accurate measurement. The good thing is that I found I can actually use a smaller ring with the CB6K and it fits a little better. Who knew?

    Not much else to report. Goddess has determined that she likes the new Lori Device #2 (as I am not pierced) and thinks this would be the better way to go. She like the fact that it keeps me totally encased I think. I don't know for sure. I do know her and Goddess Kate talk behind the scenes so I am sure I am in trouble of some sort. It is hard enough making sure to please on Goddess/Wife but when others are giving her help on how to torment me, well I am in trouble that is for sure. And of course there is another dear acquaintance, Linda from the other site who stops by a few times and sends her tips. As much as I would love for my Wife to be on here I think she gets enough help already.

    The device is in transit to Ms. Lori and we shall see where it goes from here. I am certainly glad she is adjusting the size of the ring for us but we are making darn sure it is spot on this time as we only get one shot at it.
     
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    xcitex2, I know you are in a frustrated place, but sometimes you just need to sit down, stop what you doing and breath. All is well. Remember in the early days all the excitment and wanting to get your wife involved. From the outside looking in, it appears you are in a good place. While your wife may not be on here first hand, what better way for her to get good information and direction than first hand from some experienced Mistresses.

    Thanks of posting to my journal the other day!
     
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    Back in the swing of things..

    Just wanted to spend a few minutes updating this journal as it has indeed been a little while. First and foremost I wanted to say thank you to all of you who check in from time to time as it appears this thread is gaining in popularity, who knew?

    Goddess and I just celebrated our 7 year anniversary yesterday and it was unfortunately filled with all the vanilla set backs that a day could bring, including having to deal with a teenager and an ex-wife all in the same day. At least for me my wife has such a wonderful sense of humor that she just seemed to brush things off and move on. I know she would have rather chosen other ways to spend the evening but what can you do sometimes. The good thing is I bought two tickets to the musical Moma Mia for this Friday night so it will give me some time to make up for the day.

    We did have a great laugh in our conversation as she was giving me a hard time telling me this is the year that we are supposed to have the most struggles or that I am supposed to stray due to the seven year itch. I just laughed and told her that is going to be hard to do while locked away in a chastity device. The smile on her face told the story in it's entirety. "OH yes" was all I got in return followed my that little smirk she has when I know I am about to be in for a long lesson. I would think at this moment she is liking the prospect of her role now.

    Speaking of devices our Lori device is now in the hands of Ms. Lori for repair and alterations. Despite my best attempt at measuring multiple times I needed the A ring to be about a 1/4 inch smaller in diameter. The spiral part remains to be seen. The only issue I have with it is that the inner diameter should probably have been ordered 1/4" larger-this was my fault entirely and the length is to short figuring the end is open. I assumed ( first mistake) from the images on her site that the end would be closed off a bit. As it is not I can achieve an erection and grow past the end of the spiral. While I have not tested the system to see if I can reach orgasm I can assume it might be slightly painful as the overall diameter of the spiral would keep things quite compressed. Goddess has her eye on the new #2 and is in communication right now with Ms. Lori so at this point I have no idea what is coming back to me.

    Well as most may have guessed right now I continue to enjoy a little freedom while I wait. However with that being said Goddess has already instructed me to get back in the 6K as there is no reason in her mind to be out right now while I wait.

    Ay any rate someday soon I am sure I will be able to have on ongoing journal geared more at the day to day frustrations of chastity. Till then thanks for stopping by.
     
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    Freedom comes to an end..

    As long as I have known my wonderful wife there are only a handful of times when she will do something that I do not see coming or that is truly a surprise. However just yesterday as I was talking to her on the phone she hit me with one of those surprises. Even though she is traveling she was able to reach through the phone in a sense and make sure I knew exactly what her wishes were (understood to be an order at this point) She saw no reason at all why I could not be back in the CB6K while I was waiting for the modifications to my spiral. I knew better than to challenge that as I could tell she was serious. It is not that I did not want to be back under her control in that sense. I guess it has just been that odd roller coaster of in then out then in then out...In my mind I wanted to make sure it is what she wanted.

    As far as what she wanted I have no doubts as just this morning I was informed I will be receiving the new #2 Device from Ms. Lori. Not sure what or how she is doing this but I have to say those little nubs on there scare the crap out of me, so if any of you are reading this have experience with that style of device, please share your experience. I will obviously keep you all posted in that regards.

    Not much else to say today I am afraid. Last night was the Mr. Mom role as the wife/Goddess is away on business it left me to tend to the kids, baths, dinner, and dishes. (Dishes I cheated on as we had take out!) Dinner still counts in my mind when you have to spend countless minutes at the drive through window to insure they understand the difference between chocolate milk and lemonade..geese. The only unfortunate part when she is away is I can not find the desire to sleep at all. I spent way to much time researching different sites and came up with one conclusion..the internet is full of stuff you may never want to know about. Now as I sit here updating this, locked securely away in this most uncomfortable device I eagerly think to myself what is in store for me now. It appears Goddess is on the prowl again.
     
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    Watch out Xcitex2 my girlfriend/goddess is warning me if I surf to much dirty stuff online she would install a porn blocker on my computer...
     
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    Thanks John

    But believe it or not most of what I surfed was politically driven. While I certainly checked out a few links I found on this site I probably would have been better off surfing porn, that is of course till I ended up in your situation. ;)
     
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    that sad thing chastity mansion is banned in the pornfilter - I need to behave:animal0028:
     
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    Behave for sure!

    That would suck!
     
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    Well good morning everyone or at least good morning to those here in the US. Goddess returned home from her two day trip last night and unfortunately we each had our own set of "work" tasks to tend to so our conversation was short. However I do know my adjusted spiral should be here middle to end of next week so it looks like I could be in for a longer lock up period. Right now I am back in the CB6K and had a very long night to say the least. Well at least long morning. I was awaken at about 4AM and could not get back to sleep for anything. Even did the traditional trip to the restroom to see if the normal pee relief would work. It did for a few minutes but I just could not control my mind. I kept thinking about the new device coming, the length of time I may be in it, the sexy woman laying next to me. Wow I was out of control. Needless to say it was about 5:30 before I finally caught some z's. Of course within 30 minutes the morning alarm was going off and Goddess found a way to play with my ass to wake me up in more ways than one. I do not know what it is but that just drives me crazy.

    For those of you who were/are following the spiral resizing issue you will want to see my recent post in the Chastity Device review area. Not sure what it is but My wife talking to Ms. Lori seemed to be the way to go.

    Well I know I will get no pity from anyone here but for some reason day two is driving me nuts. Perhaps it was the extended time out. Who knows. I know it was wishful thinking but I was hoping before I went back in lockup that my Wife and I could share one last "free" moment. I think she is getting better at this. I doubt it was coincidence that she had me back in lockup after a week of no activity. Of course this morning was fun as my typical humorous way of joking around may land me in hot water tonight. She threatened to tie me up for the evening if I kept it up and I just brushed it off. Then as I drove off she said "Orajel" If you have followed my posts in the past you already know this story. Oh well if you can't have fun in life than what's the point right? If the day goes as I think it will I will find her working her but off on the computer for work and then off to bed to pass out after a long day of work, home, and kids. If not then I will live to regret this morning. Perhaps now would be a good time to plan a romantic evening for her in hopes of saving myself.-later everyone.
     
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    Xcitex2, I just had to laugh, ahhh with you not at you, when you described you 4am wakeup. I wear a -6000 in a part time mode, but I swear those things must have a built in 4am'ish alarm. For a minute, I thought you were decribing one of my mornings. Sometime I get back to sleep quickly, othertimes NOT. It just depends on how vivid Mistress Michelle was during our chat the previous evening.

    Like you, we are all eagerly awaiting the arivial of your new Spiral. We can't wait, but then that is easy for us to say, we will not be locked in it!
     
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    Thanks pt300800. Yes it does seem from last night and wearing it in greater length in the past it is always the same time.

    As far as the spiral it seems to be an entirely different beast.
     
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    Wow - just read through your history. You are indeed a very lucky person, and seemingly a very lucky couple. Thank you for sharing these changes in your life. So often in fantasy it's all play all the time, so it is good to be reminded that in a real world relationship there is not always time for play, and not always the desire for it. Couples must learn to adjust and adapt, as they must to any new situation, in order for the new order to be beneficial to all. zadig
     
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    Thank you so much zadig! We are in deed a very lucky couple and yes we are definitely still learning, still experiencing some set backs, and yet still enjoying all of it. With kids at home you are right on track with some times not having time to play LOL.

    Thanks for stopping by.
     
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    Good morning journal, readers and coffee. This weekend brought about some enlightenment in some form I guess. Goddess finally admitted the reluctancy she is dealing with right now is that she absolutely is turned off by the plastic piece of crap CB6K and can not wait to see me back in the steel from Ms. Lori.

    While I am certain we had more issues than most with the device those issues led to a plethora of disenchantment on her part I am sure. It literally is just now that I have finally found the right ring combinations.

    With all that being said Goddess has informed me and confirmed that she has ordered the new #2 AND that I will have the spiral back sometime this week to wear while we wait for the #2. I was desperately hoping if she ordered that one that she would not have ordered it as shown with the little spikes in the ring but no such luck. The other demise is that regardless of which one I am wearing at the time there will not be the frequent need for release for cleaning purposes. As both are pretty open in design and made of stainless steel I fear I may be in for the first real lock up sessions yet.

    Now the saving part for me will still be her work. While I read so many stories of many being teased and tormented only to be locked back up I do not think I will have to worry about that yet. Of course the frustration of not being able to take things into my own hands so to speak may be enough I do not think the additional add ons will take place for a while. She is so engaged with so much at work that I just can't get her to relax. She took and entire day yesterday with her sisters, and her mom to go shopping while I tended to all three kids at home. I was hoping she would come back home all fresh and excited, which she did till about 7Pm when she sat down on the couch and began to work on her laptop for her job. It was like someone taking the oxygen right out of the room as I could almost hear her gasping for something besides what she was doing. I feel really lost in that regards. It is hard enough to be a great husband and a devoted chastised partner, but to add career coach to the mix is just out of my talents.

    That all aside I am anxious and nervous about the new device(s). If she does get her spark back I know I will be in some serious trouble as just by herself she captivates me. Each night I watch her slip into the same old boring pajamas and I wonder if she knows how gorgeous she really is (and how those damn pj's do her no justice) And for those of you asking the question is yes, yes I have told her a thousand times, and yes I have bought her the comfortable yet sexy attire she deserves. With that out of the way..I miss that relaxed, calm, refreshed woman I once knew before corporate America turned her into the imprisoned person she has to be for 14 hours of the day. I can't help but think that sometime soon this business I run is going to explode then I can get her out of where she is. Of course that means she will be here with me and I can already see if she has her way I will be tormented each and every minute of the day with nothing to stop her then...wow decisions decisions....
     
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    I had to laugh at your post today, so much rings so true.

    The anti-climax of a device that doesn't fit, and comfy pyjamas! I get the comfy pyjama thing... it doesn't mean we're not interested by the way, it just means we need something comfy to wear.

    I always promise to throw out my comfy pjs and find something that is a cross between sexy and comfy... but it is really difficult.

    Sorry... I wandered right off the point!

    I hope all goes well when you get the new devices. :animal0008:
     
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    Thanks Mistress for stopping in. I get the comfy part as well it is just some of the ones she has that are comfy need retired. LOL After being made to wear panty hose to bed I can understand the comfort part. While I have little problem sleeping once there I can understand the getting there. I think our biggest problem is finding the "sexy" that can also be worn when the little ones stumble on in, in the middle of the night.
     
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    Nothing to report today as I am afraid I have come down with the flu. Even out of lock up it is no fun. Goddess felt she would be nice and leave me out and all I could think was that it was the last thing on my mind. Anyway enough for today more when I am up and moving. Take care.
     
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