Total Submission, Getting Real Now

This post is mostly for my own benefit to record my thoughts and feelings as this continues. Feel free to chime in if you wish but please don't derail my blog.

Mistress and I have played with the chastity device while I'm home (I spend about half the time in Bahrain or other places) and it's mostly just been her locking me unless she wants it out and then probably put it back on in the morning.

We've been discussing it lately and we both had concerns that we needed to overcome before we could take things to the next level. My concern was being locked and forgot and I think she understands now how far 5 seconds of attention can go if she doesn't feel like doing more. She was thinking I was getting bitchy from things until we talked more about the "locked and forgot" days.

I have been locked and denied since December 16th and we have since agreed to commit to a formal agreement. The agreement runs for 10 weeks so that it encompasses the rest of my off time to when I leave on February 1st and then an additional two weeks. She has learned how much my mood and desire to submit and obey improves with a little tease and denial and now she understands that allowing an O messes everything up. And since chastity has given me a short trigger, she said it's not worth letting me inside her for only 30 seconds of fun.

This is our agreement which is subject to change at her discretion. At the end of the period we will reevaluate and modify as needed unless one or both of us doesn't want to continue. If we don't continue, I'm sure all chastity devices and play will be done with forever. So far, Mistress is thrilled with everything and I can't imagine that she will want to go back to the way things were and I'm really loving the feeling of deep submission to her. While I would love to be inside her and orgasm, I am enthralled with submitting to and serving her in any fashion that pleases her and I could do this forever if it is what makes her happy.

Side note: Mistress allowed me to buy a custom made device from Ms. Lori which has already been ordered and paid for because the second hand Lori #8A that I bought a while back doesn't really fit me right and can cause severe discomfort. I will be putting it up for sale in the near future. Ms. Lori is backed up right now and new custom orders are taking about 120 days to get out. I love the 8A and it's a beautiful device but it just doesn't work for me.


The Agreement
Mistress/slave contract . Begins December 22, 2019 and ends March 7th, 2020
For the sub:
1. Never ask for key or to be unlocked unless flying, medical reasons/ appointments (Mistress decision).
2. Unauthorized orgasms are forbidden and subject to punishment as Mistress seems fit. This applies anywhere, locked or unlocked.
3. Unless it presents a security/safety issue, slave must apply chastity tube as soon as possible after flying and provide verifiable proof of locking. Key will be kept locked under numbered security seal or cage locked with a numbered security seal until it’s time to return to airport.
4. Slave is never guaranteed orgasm or penetration by Mistress. Mistress reserves right to deny orgasms as long as she desires as she understands that denial of orgasm keeps the locked in an obedient and attentive state since it can take up to a week of orgasm denial to reach a peak benefits to Mistress.
5. If Mistress allows slave to orgasm inside her or on her, sub must immediately and thoroughly clean any mess made by oral means, without complaint.
6. If Mistress allows any sexual stimulation, slave will not orgasm without permission or will give warning that slave is close to orgasm. It is the sole decision of the Mistress to allow or deny orgasm or cause ruined orgasm.
7. Mistress has the right to have sexual relations with whoever and whenever she chooses but she must let sub know and let slave know the details. Mistress has sole discretion as to the use of condoms for her lovers or slave. If Mistress needs a cover story to get away from house, sub will take her on a date night and drop her off with her lover and pick her up when she is ready.
8. If Mistress leaves key on bathroom counter or just hands the sub the key, it means to shower and prepare to take the initiative for play but the aforementioned rules about orgasm and cleaning still apply.
9. Slave must respect, obey and please Mistress at all times.
10. Mistress may add daily or regularly scheduled chores/tasks for slave to do. Mistress agrees to write tasks on a list if they are not a regularly scheduled task/chore.
11. Mistress reserves the right to punish at anytime or any way she chooses as long as she doesn’t cause damage that requires medical or first aid.
12. Slave will ask Mistress for help for things that Slave knows he needs help with so that Mistress can help make a plan and and hold Sub accountable.
13. Mistress will show her appreciation for subs sacrifices daily with things like holding caged and showing her pleasure to have her property under lock and key.
14. Slave may not touch Mistress in a sexual manner without permission.
15. When Mistress graciously allows her slave some sexual attention but doesn't let Slave orgasm, Slave must thank Mistress for keeping Slave locked and denied. Slave must thank Mistress daily for keeping slave chaste and denied.

Daily tasks when home.
1. Be out of bed by 7am unless otherwise agreed.
2. Make bed each morning. Sheets must be washed every Friday and bed made before Mistress gets home.
3. Brush teeth before having any coffee
4. Ask Mistress if she needs anything
5. Go to gym or ride bike for a minimum of 30 minutes on Monday through Friday and either Sunday OR Saturday but every day is ideal. Slave must leave for Gym or bike ride no later than 9AM unless special permission is granted by Mistress.
6. Take out trash as needed and take cans to curb before pickup then return cans to garage.
7. Vacuum house twice a week and mop once a week with the exception of XXXXXX’s room and bathroom.
8. Put Mistress' clothes away as soon as possible.
9. Make sure Mistress comes home to a clean kitchen and dishwasher emptied or loaded.

Note* We have an adult child living with us that is hopefully starting medical school this summer or fall.

 

I drink coffee all morning so if I don’t brush when I forget sometimes. This was one I wanted because I needed help with doing what I know I need to do.

 

Mistress has been sick with a sinus infection and “the crud” as they call it here. I’ve been making extra effort to take care of her and of course she doesn’t feel like playing but at least grabs my cage when we go to bed and tells me it’s locked just like she wants.

 

I think the full drawn out contracts are silly but I think a written agreement is good because it makes both of you think about and agree upon things. I would have a hard time thanking Mistress for keeping me chaste and denied when she gets me worked up then denies me but I thought it would be empowering to her as it would be positively reinforcing the denial and relieve any guilt from doing so.

I know I need to work out daily so we agreed and she is holding me accountable.

 

Feeling kinda down. Mistress spent a few hours with her male friend on Saturday but I hardly got any attention all weekend. Feeling “locked and forgot. I usually travel to the Middle East for 4 weeks or so then off 4 weeks or so and she often works from 9am to 7:30-8:30. So I’m home alone for most of the day and hate sharing her time with anyone else. So it bothered me that she spent 3 hours on “him” and I got 30 seconds play.