Member, Male, from USA
It's a busy time for me. I might take some time away from CM to focus. Best wishes to all my friends for the new year ahead! Dec 1, 2020
- Blue00 was last seen:
- Dec 8, 2020
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- Location: (Country, Region - and perhaps even City?):
- My key is held by:
- Honor for my wife
- Locked since:
- Your chastity role:
- Other - (Explain in "About You")
- Chastity devices:
- Gates of Hell -> Holy Trainer ->Bon4 -> Cherry Keeper
Trying to be a better husband, but each time I think I’ve got it figured out, I suddenly learn I am still being an idiot. At first the desire to explore chastity started as something for me. I pushed my idea of chastity on my wife. I got a cage, and I assumed she would express interest. But she didn’t. At best she will tolerate it.
- Chastity resume:
- First lock with wife 7/5/2019
My mistake was to not first build a fire within her. I am putting this here so others can learn from my mistakes. Now, it will take a lot more effort to build that fire. Now that she knows that being hers is something I want, I’ll never be able to stimulate her imagination until she arrives at the idea herself.
Regardless of if she wants to engage in chastity, I have decided to at least remain abstinent for her. That way, she will get the emotional and physical benefits of me being in chastity. To enforce this for myself, I have explained to her what happens to me and my responses when I pleasure myself (Grouchy, self centered, delayed ejaculation, less helpful at home). Now, she will recognize when I stray from my promise to her and myself, and it won’t matter if I use a cage or not. She will know and that alone will be devastating to me regardless if she says something about it or not.
I do feel guilty for not recognizing how my chronic bad habit affects her through several years of being together. I hoped that my offer of chastity would somehow make it up to her. That is another mistake as now I must also learn to remain abstinent not for my guilt, but for her benefit. That needs to occur even if she does not know I am doing it or participate. That will be a hard road, but I created this challenge by being selfish. Now I must learn to be more generous of my love, time, and being.
Maybe one day, she will develop an interest in enforcing abstinence on me and maybe she won’t. Either way, the choice must be hers if it is going to mean anything.
I am so glad for this site and the people on it. there are so many caring and giving people here and I strive to become one of them. Everyone has great ideas to share so others can learn and grow.