This is a blog dedicated to my musings about the implications of my fascination with women generally, and CM and FLR specifically. I’d be very interested to get other points of view and comments. For L-u-c-y and all of the verified females on the site, any given sexual interest directed at them by a random male is almost certainly unwelcome. Perhaps the best way to capture this is to say that there are lots of beta men out there who lust after women pretty indiscriminately. From my perspective as such a male, this means my sexuality is “negatively marked” in the eyes of those I lust after. Frustrating for me, and men like me, but fair enough-it takes two to tango. Entering CM means entering a world where all of the above is taken for granted. Exploring the site gives males like me a vivid insight into one way of resolving the dissonance between the enthusiasm we feel sexually for females on the one hand, and the negative reception of those feelings by females who do not reciprocate on the other hand. That way is chastity, or the fantasy of it. On my theory the dissonance in views of (futile) male sexuality is resolved by both parties in a KH or other FLR arrangement agreeing to “leave the negative male sexuality at the door” and thereby prioritise 100% the female evaluation (negative) of such desire. That permits a paradoxical relationship to develop between male and KH-one entirely permeated by male sexual desire but which treats it with disdain unless and until the KH decides otherwise, and leaves room for whatever the KH wants to be pursued. I should make clear here that I am not locked and never have been though the fantasy excites me-if I could find a worthy KH. Fundamentally what would make a worthy KH from my perspective is one who I believe is doing good in the world in a broad social sense, not necessarily limited to improving gender relations and certainly not simply a KH who I find sexually arousing-after all, my sexuality is negatively marked in the eyes of all KH, and is to be bracketed off (left at the door) in any chastity arrangement. And in any case, I’m pretty indiscriminate in who I get my sexual kicks from and how so my sexual highs aren’t a reliable way to evaluate candidates. To illustrate my point, it’s mirror image amounts to this: there are a small number of hot, alpha males whose sexuality is not always negatively marked by females and that therefore (sadly for beta guys like me) can expect to get decent amounts of sexual action. However would we admire women who overlook bad alpha male behaviour (not just bad relationship behaviour but also bad behaviour in society as a whole)? No we would not. We might hope that females ditch hot but bad guys, in other words, even if they treat their female partner well or at least not badly in their relationship. Grateful for any feedback from anyone who reads this far!