Out With The Old... in With The New!

Hey all, sorry for the lack of postage! I've been so busy with work and stuff, feel like i've neglected my blog, so here goes.

Last night was a quiet one, I had intention's of play, but then felt a bit tired and also a new series of a program I watch religiously had started so it kinda wasn't going to happen.

Well to be surprised stuff did happen. Kris and I got into bed and he mentioned how he was really horny, and couldn't stop having selfish thoughts. He even mentioned how he would like to cum on my arse.

I used this to my advantage as I enjoy tormenting him when he's in this mindset, I dropped my pants and told him he could masturbate over my arse but not cum. He started and I could tell the frustration was becoming too much, but like a loyal sub he did stop.

I thought to myself let's move it up a notch, so I told Kris to lube up my arse cheeks and he could thrust his cock between them, he quickly agreed and much of the same happened, again he stopped before he came.

I could tell now he was really frustated so I gave him an option, he could have a ruined orgasm inside my arse, but he would be expected to clean up with his tongue once finished or he could have nothing!

Needless to say Kris straight away grabbed the lube and started sorting himself out to enter me, the sex was great! I loved every minute of it, I was equally turned on by the fact Kris was going to have a ruined orgasm and theevents which would soon follow.

Kris eventually came but didnt look satisfied, because he had stopped thrusting before he came.

I then lay on my back and told Kris to get on his knee's at the end of the bed, play with my cock and clean the mess he had made inside my arse, which suprisingly he eagerly did, and I had an amazing orgasm, and at a few points became very vocal ordering him to get his tongue in there deeper and clean his mess! (jeez I hope the neighbours didn't hear me)

We've got quite a bit of play planned this weekend which is good, I shall update you afterwards, but now I must go clean up some dog puke! Where's the sub when you need them eh?

Oh before I forget, thank you to Mistress Watchful & Mikecb for your nice comments when I was feeling a little down about myself, they really helped.

 

So I think it's time for my side of the story as I think Kris' blog doesnt tell things from my perspective.

All last week I had plans that whilst I was in work on Saturday Kris would be locked in the cage. He's mentioned on more than one occasion to me that he would like to do something which was long term and kinky, Perfect then that he was to be left locked in the cage with a hood on, blindfolded and wearing his pvc pants incase of any toilet needs, I would then come home, unlock him and tease him like mad!

I'd put so much effort into it, the whole idea was a complete turn on, i'd be driving to work in the week and think about, getting a raging hard on in the process, I even had a dream about it. I was completley geared up towards it then Kris announced on Friday night that his friend had asked him to go off roading and asked my permision to go instead of doing what I had planned.

I told Kris that he could go (Obviously I didn't mind Kris seeing his friends, which I may add I don't have a problem with) but I was also really gutted that all my plans were now messed up.

On saturday Kris told me that he would be home by 3.30pm, Great I thought we may get some play time! 2hours 30mins later Kris turns up. Needless to say i'm fuming! He is always late! And to be honest it gets on my tits and he knows this, texts would say i'll be 30mins, then another 10mins, then another. Argh! I just wanted to be kept in the know because if he had told me he would be late i'd have cancelled all plans for play, not drove all the way home and instead hung out with some of my friends who live in the same town I work in.

I don't mind Kris going out having fun, It does not bother me in the slightest, but I don't think he understands things are harder for me since we moved in together in relation to my friends, My best friend lives 122miles away, there and back and my other close friends are 64miles away, in my home town, So it's hard for me to see them, Especially our work commitments and some of them also have children. Now add that to Kris & I hardly being able to do stuff together, ie go for our own little adventures round Wales because we have financial commitments, things just got to me.

I love Kris and I love living with him, I wouldn't want to change that, i love being able to wake up next to him every morning, do cute little things for him. We spent 4yrs of our relationship seeing each other only at weekends, even then we still went out with his friends. But it was so hard! The weekdays were hell! I just wanted to see him!

Me & Kris do like different things, he's an out doorsy kinda guy who likes to chill with his mates with a few drinks, where as I love shopping, going out clubbing with my mates and getting stupidly drunk and silly. There's nothing wrong with that, they do say opposites attract.

I just want my feelings and views to be taken seriously instead of being told it's just me being funny because Kris did something without me.

 

Things are finally good again, we've had what seems like a million dramas in our vanilla life over the last week or so.

I've had to bail Kris out with his finances in a massive way, the crazy things we do for love eh?

I've spent most of the week exhausted from lack of sleep, constantly feeling sick and upset becuase of the situation we found ourselves in, we nearly ended up having to leave our together life and go back to living miles apart at our parents houses.

That would have sucked loads, just as everything was getting good it felt like everything was being ripped away from me.

It's all good now and Kris and I are getting back to our old selves, all the stress seemed to leave with a passionate session with Kris, he started growling at me whilst we were kissing and playing with each others nipples and cocks, which he knows turns me on loads because I know it means he is really horny.

I don't know what came over me, but I ordered him to get the dog hood out and then things just seemed to go from there getting really hot and intense.

I think I've admitted now more than ever that I prefer Kris to be butch rather than a sissy, I find it more of a turn on seeing him in a jockstrap than a pair of frilly panties, don't get me wrong he does look good dressed like that but I have an obvious preference.

Hopefully we are going to get alot of play this weekend and find some time to get Kris some sexy male underwear as he seems to have nothing anymore, it all seems to be feminine panties and frillies, He said I should recycle some of mine on him, which I admit I could seeing as I seem to have a million pairs, but they're mine! haha!

We seem to be a lot more connected now in both our roles, vanilla and kink, it's great! I've not felt this content in ages, that sounds really bad, i've always been happy with Kris, but it's always felt like something was missing since the sissy play started.

Well I best be off now, I have a cake in the oven which needs checking up on.

I hope everyone is good.

 

Having just read Mistress Watchful's blog I'm blaming the snow!!

It seems like everyone in England is having ups and downs with relationships and life this week, stoopid snow!

I've completley ignored my blog this week, I've felt like I had nothing to write about. Nothing interesting just normal everyday stuff.

In limbo at the moment, on Monday morning there was snow everywhere, I looked out the window after getting out of bed and announced to Kris there was snow, he said he did not belive me to which I replied if there is you have to ride my cock, needless to say Kris ended up sat on me, during our lovemaking he asked me to 'fuck his sissy pussy' hence why i'm in limbo.

I thought he was my big butch dog, thought that we had established where our lifestyle was heading, but it seems Kris is happier being a sissy.

Then there was more snow which meant Kris couldn't work, stress was high between us both and we have slowly slipped back into our old vanilla ways.

Little things like Kris asking permission to use the bathroom and to get a drink have slowly become no more, I know I play a big part in this slip, I should disipline, then move on and all would be normal again, but I haven't had the energy.

We hadn't until today had any sexual contact (which isn't normal, it's normally 2days at the most) even then Kris has cum, It was good though, felt like we both needed it.

Money seems to be the root of all evil, it seems that all our rows and stress is caused by it. I wish I could win the lottery, spend it all on toys for playtime, outfits for Kris and cars and a big house, ohhh and loads of designer clothes and ps3 games (well I don't want alot then haha!)

Still need to stop smoking too, I haven't felt up to it this last week but hopefully can make a start on that soon, not telling Kris when though so that way I can't disapoint if I slip back to my dirty habit.

So thats what my week has been like, a bit poo but I didn't want people to think we'd fallen of the face of the planet, we're both still here but in what role I don't know.

It'll all be good in the end though, it always is.

 

Things seem to be going up and up now, I'm uber happy!

Kris seems to be at his most submissive and I seem at my most dominant, I really have embraced his feminization and treating Kris like a filthy little slut gurl! It has been fun.

I'm having little moments still where I do want my big butch man back but I don't think I could go back to that on a 24/7 basis as it seemed to cause a whole host of problems where Kris wasn't as submissive as usual and seemed depressed.

Not much has happened apart from the pair of us working out what we want and how we can make things work.

I've had a lot of work on this last week which has meant i've neglected my blog, and also not been able to spend as much time training Kris as I had hoped.

Hopefully though we are going to be able to get completely back into our roles with 100% effort.

So there's a little update just so peeps know that i'm still around

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Hey all,

Had a bit of a slow day yesterday, We'd spent all day nursing hang overs so not much play happened.

I had a banging headache and just wanted to curl up on the sofa and watch tv and play games, so thats pretty much what we did.

I wanted Kris to feel like he was still my little sissy sub so I ordered him to the shop to get painkillers and some cigarettes, perfect hangover cure. Which he gladly did (Even though he hates buying cigarettes for me, goes against all his beliefs) I think he just wanted to show loyalty.

So anyways we went to bed and things where getting pasionate, I was playing with Kris' sissy tits, and fingering his sissy clit, at one point I even went down and started licking away as if Kris was a real gurl! He was loving it,

But then when it came to showing my cock the same love he kept stopping to blow his nose! (He's full of a cold, bless him) but yeah he shudda been blowing me!

I was a bit frustrated by all of this and rock hard still as I closed my eyes and tried to sleep.

Thats when I announced to Kris is was going in the lounge to watch some porn, and sort myself out.

Kris seemed more than happy about this, seemed to be really turned on at me getting off over big butch guys fucking the hell out of each other.

So off I went condom in hand, leaving Kris in bed alone whilst I went to sort myself out, twas good, I enjoyed it. I took my time, watching everything and getting more and more turned on. I was wearing the condom to give to Kris once I had finished.

On my return to the bedroom I handed the Kris the condom and told him to drink my cum to which he did straight away and thanked me for my little gift.

I think i've worked out now sometimes with a sissy you have to take matters into your own hands (excuse the pun) and shouldnt worry about the outcome.

 

Your right MW, Love does make eveything good. As long as you have that then there is nothing you can't face, Although there will be a row if Kris turns his boring program about the sun off in time for Shameless at 10pm :anim_63:

Mike, that is such a hot idea! My own lil fluffer! I never thought about that before, I'm sure it could make for some interesting fun though. I'll be sure to post how that goes.

Not much to report tonight, had a mega busy day in work, so i'm planning to spend my night in front of the tv, being pampered by a very sexy gurl. Even though Kris doesn't know this yet :happy0192:

 

I want to post, but I have nothing to say.

I guess I have alot of thoughts going round my head at the moment.

I'm not feeling at all dom like, I don't want to play and I don't like it.

Let me start at the begining, one of my relatives has just died, someone that I was quite close with. I feel really shitty and feel like I want/need some normality in my life, I just can't face it though.

Kris has been amazing, looking after me, but he hint's that he would like play and says it will take my mind of things, but I just can't. I'm even feeling like I'm letting Kris down, he's doing everything for me, and I can't even put on some rubber briefs and tie him up to say thank you. I want to, I just can't right now.

I'm all emotionally f*cked up, I'm going from happy and silly to sneaking off for little cries. It's shit.

I love Kris and I'm so greatful to him for eveything he's doing for me, I still have the funeral to come and that's probably when I'll be at my lowest, but I know Kris will be there to help me through it.

I guess the whole point of this entry is to just let things out, get it all off my chest. Also to say thank you to Kris.

 

Thank you MW, Tom & Mike. Your comment's mean hell of alot to me, it was nice knowing that people are there for me.

So what to write about? I'm slowly getting back to my old self, still have the funeral to come so it could all go a bit pete tong.

I keep feeling like I want to jump back on the master/sub horse and give it a good hard ride back to my old ways, it feels like Kris is a little more cautious tho. I guess he knows me too well and knows that just as I get back to form, I'm gonna crash straight back down next week.

That would suck, and probably would knock things back a while longer. I don't want that, I do though want to feel like I did when I was master, all care free with no stress because Kris would help me release that through play.

I just thought i'd pop by and say hello and thank you to you guys who left me such nice comments, I'm really greatful so thank you once again.

 

Hi all! Guess who's back!? Did ya all miss me? :happy0007:

First off, i've said it once maybe twice but again a big thank you to all you guys for your support through my rough time, you guys rock! :love0038:

So anyway, back to me, I'm back, 100% back to being master and boy does kris know it!

During the last few days we had alot of talking, mainly about play or the lack of it, Kris said he didn't feel ready to which I thought hang on if somebody isn't gonna be ready it would be me due to the recent events. I felt taken aback a little if i'm honest, so anyway we had loads of talks and got a lot out in the open.

On sunday Kris hinted that he would like to be tied up, I didn't really take the hint if i'm honest, also I had the hang over from hell, at bedtime I started to get a little passionate but Kris said I couldn't expect to just get my end away.

On monday though I did take the hint, we had just got back from the funeral and I needed to unwind, I set up the cuffs and lay a collar on the bed, walked through to the lounge, grabbed Kris by his tie and dragged him off to bed where I ordered him to strip and lie on the bed, as he did this I locked the cuffs around his wrists.

You could tell Kris liked this as he was getting harder and harder, I kept playing with his nipples and his cock, as he would become close I would flick his cock or squeeze his balls, this went on for some time so I ended up putting my cock in his arse and us having some passionate sex, this was well needed.

Later that day just before bed I teased Kris about blow up dolls, he has had fantasies about being my love doll, being all motionless as I have had my way with him, he thought I was taking the piss rather than teasing.

We made our way to the bedroom where I hope Kris can see I enjoyed every minute, He lay on the bed all wide eyed with his mouth open, i was really turned on and before I knew it i was thrusting my cock down his throat, Kris didn't make a sound, I then lay him on his side, lubed up his arse and had a good bang on that too!

It was soooo hot! and Kris would now like a latex suit or head mask so he can be more doll like.

Today has been quite a quiet one, but I blame us slowly getting back to our old routines of work and things is to blame.

I hope everyone else is good.