Lifestyle Choices

Hi this is the first entry in what I hope to be an ongoing story as time evolves. The situation is that myself and my goddess (wife of 28 years) are changing or lifestyle to try to move to a formal FLM arrangement.
We have been discussing and planning this for almost a year now and formally started last Sunday.

A bit of background. I have posted a history here until until a couple of years ago when life got the better of us and parental ill health etc took its toll. However I have been in chastity off and on for well over 7 years at first with very limited input from my partner but over time this has increased and now she is in control by mutual consent.

In my view any play or lifestyle choices in this area will only work by ongoing consent from both partners and if properly managed the FLM lifestyle has the potential to be a very interesting ride.

Back to planning. We decided that in order to see if it was possible to keep me locked up for an indefinite time ( work and life will always insure occasional breaks) that I should wear one device or another continuously for several months or until we were convinced that this was a plausible option. The longest I have been caged prior was 7 weeks which was terminated by family issues (not ours).

My reasons for wanting my goddess to take a measure of control was fairly simple in the past I have not been that great and my goddess has a number of self esteem issues that I did not help as much as I should have and some I even caused. And for me it payback time as well as this type of thing does turn me on so I am hoping for a win win out of this. Anyway I did just under three months with releases as there was no intention of not being allows to come during this period. As it is I only came a coupe, of times so it was a pretty good test. The devices used were the H T 2 and a stainless steel rings based device that I have modified for a better fit. The HT 2 is a good device but the skin cannot breath properly causing dead skin and irritation. With all the ball trap devices and I have used most of these I use a dab of Vaseline to prevent friction problems around the ball sack.
We net away for. A weekend to review things and we wrote up an agreement, not a contract just a formal agreement of roles response abilities and rules and penalties. With regard to discipline my goddess does not feel comfortable with this so we agreed to look for and use a professional for this.
By agreement I paid a visit to a very good professional I found after quite a bit of research. The first visit was a number of firsts for me but part of our agreement is I have to have been locked with no orgasm for both the week preceding a visit and the week after so no self pleasure allowed and I must be locked for a visit.
My next post will cover the first visit.

 

My first visit to a pro domme.
Well I booked and followed the stated process from the ladies website and I emailed her a summary of the situation ( I do not think she believes it's real but then who would). On the appointed time and day I visited her at her dungeon which is very well equipt. Based on our emails we had a session where I was cross dressed and caged for a while, I was caned cropped and flogged. As well as having my first taste of a butt plug and mild CBT ( I was locked in a steel cage after all) the confinement was very firm with her equipment and I rather enjoyed the crop and flogger as well as the rest.
The cane was excruciating and hurt a lot at the time but the pain soon went away.
Well when we discussed this visit my goddess felt we needed more data to prove that this could be a good deterrent so I was asked to book a further session. Of course I did do this and the second session and the last that I have had at present was a dry different session. It started with me being stripped and hooded (all sessions start nude). Then I was placed on a caning bench and took about ten or twenty strokes of the flogger and a few of the cane. Then throughout the session she advised me of a number of strokes of the cane that I would have to take at the end of the session. I found most of the strokes were things that I could not avoid but that's pretty standard anyway I think. She then used some very mild anal and testicular electroshock devices and a vibrating plug on me. This is whilst I was confined in a gynacologists chair and spread in a very demeaning manner.

Anyway at the end of the session there were 76 strokes of the cane to be administered. I was tightly confined in the caning bench and had to count them in sixes. Wow that hurts she caned my backside thighs and calves and was very controlled but by the end I was in tears ( yes she had given me the choice to stop as I said she is very good) but I took them all. My ass was like a piece of raw steak and my calves and thighs not much better in fact it was about weeks before I wore shorts. I also spent the whole session wearing two pairs of nipple clamps and boy do,they hurt over time, I am so glad I was fairly confined when they were removed.
Well after the session my goddess and I had a further chat and agreed that this was an excellent deterrent.

That was several weeks ago and just last weekend we agreed to start the FLM properly.

I was caged for four days prior to the kick off night and I had to wash and shave remove the cage and spread eagle myself on the bed prior to starting. I was tied out and then my goddess played with me and for the first time in about twenty years she gave me oral. WOW I held on as long as I could,but then I went off like a rocket. Her comment was remember that it may have to last you a while. That was over w eek ago and I have been caged ever since.

Our agreement is basically sex is entirely up to her I have no actual say but I can coax a bit.
Money we deal with jointly but will review.
Free time is still mine to do what I want with but she can veto anything and I have to support her. ( she has just started leveraging this so its a start).
Future planning is jointly decided
Housework I am slowly getting more of this to do.
I work for myself and my wife looks after the household so any transition will take time but she controls this.

I will for a while anyway have to visit the pro domme monthly but my goddess will be discussing my behaviour directly so I will not know what will happen at any session.( I also have to fund these). So in about a month I will have my next session and it may be enjoyable or very painful. After the caning session I had lots of marks but no long term discomfort and was able to drive home with mild discomfort.

We have discussed a few things but only being a week in its very early. I sleep in a leotard and shorts as a rule and should wear a g string during the day, I have found the g strings to cause caging with the cage so she is having a rethink. I think she my try me in panties or women's thongs as an alternative but we will see.

 

It's only been a day or so since I put my update in but we have talked and I have been able to provide pleasure twice since which is great for me. My goddess is going on a spa break for a few days so I will not see her for a while but she is going with a friend ( female) so that's fine. We have never discussed cuckolding and as she is not into sex I doubt we ever will. I know I am not getting out any time soon and she is reviewing how long my first stint is going to be it's likely to be between 1 and three months. I seem to be settling down after the first week to 10 days and I am calmer and more ready to serve.
My goddess is slowly being more demanding so already I am seeing some changes in us both which I think are for the better.
Next post is likely to be a few days.

 

Hi there is not very much to update goddesses Spa break went very well do her and she came back looking ten years younger, this tells me that I need to do more to get her to take time out and to take more of the load off. Whilst she was away I did get some pretty mundane things done such as a spring clean of the kitchen even getting the cooker specialist cleaned (well worth the cost) so for the first time when she came back I was pretty confidant that she would be happy with the state of the house. laundry up to date all washing up done hoovering done etc. Unfortunately my work changed and I had to go away for a few days the early the morning after she got back so we had very little time. I made a point of giving her some air when she got back but I did make her a cup of tea. In the evening ( early hours ) we did talk a bit as I had asked her to think about the direction an goals that she wanted out of our new form of relationship. It's going to be hard for both of us to move to an FLM arrangement as I have mostly dominated things and have controlled the money etc for over twenty years. In reality I did not expect her to have thought through very much whilst away but she had and her thoughts were very sensible.

1) To focus on her self esteem which has always been low.
2) To work to demand from me not ask (this was a surprise but it shows how seriously she is taking the plan).
3) She really want me to go at least three months at the start in the cage and she will review it then.
4) we reconfirmed that family and relationship are the priority and if there is a problem either one of us can call a time out. I do have a only clause that she will decide if my reason is good enough then I will only get a six week lock up extension or if she feels it is a very good reason she can waive this penalty, however if she does not feel the reason is good enough she can extend my lock up by up to a year. This is to make is so I do not call a time out just because I feel the need to come.

I will have to book my first session with the pro domme in the next few days but she will be contacting the with what she wants to happen, this makes me nervous but it is important for thing to progress so I may end up with a nice teasing session ( caged of course) or a punishment session. I am trying to be good enough for the former but it's not up to me. Talk about losing control.

The out come is she is now very committed to the plan ( probably more so than me three months is really daunting even if I am three weeks in) and I want her to be truly happy plan or no plan so I am more comfortable that we are doing this at least because she wants to not just for my kink.

It's important to me that this is not just to please me or I know it will never work but goddesses level of commitment seems to be excellent at present. I must say I do not think she would ever post here or anywhere eel but to me this is a great start. Beware of what you wish for comes to mind though as three months appears to be a minimum and any sexual interaction looks like it will be on her terms which means there is not likely to be much apart from cuddling most of the time. I did agree to would be her choice now I just have to live up to it.

On a side note I have been enjoying the HT2 as a super comfortable device but on a really hot night when she was away it slipped off overnight and I found there was no way to get it back on. I did confess this and m now locked in stainless steel. She did not give me the key or indicate that we would try the HT2 again so it looks like my modified stainless cage is going to be with me for a while now.

I get back home tonight so I may have an update in a few days.

 

Hi again. Well agin it's a bit boring we had a night planned last night but due to my sons girlfriend throwing up drunk until 4 AM not much happened. We did have a cuddle and I was allowed a night out of the cage but strictly no cumming allowed. It was good to get properly hard again but goddess insisted on a thong back leotard and shorts for me so only a limited scope. I am off working away again for a few days and maybe we will have some time when I get back. I have been instructed to book another session with the Pro Domme for when I get back and my schedule allows it. So I will be going for another spanking and who knows what if anything else. As I said in an earlier post the first session was really enjoyable the second was painful and really stretched my pain limits. I can still feel the 70 plus stokes of the cane. Irrespective of what I want this will be the first time that goddess will be advising the Lady on how she wants me treated so I really do not know what to expect.

I have had the three months reconfirmed this weekend which will be the longest time for me ever my personal best being 7 weeks so I am still in awe of this and I do not think it has sunk in but goddess is firm on this so far.

I have made a couple of pages of our agreement into a punishment book Andy I do have one offence so far of pestering. This should according to our agreement be punished with a teasing session then spanking on my cock with a ruler until it goes down as many times as she sees fit as well as the loss on my next orgasm. I think goddess is being lenient as she say it can be sorted during my session which will probably be next week.
Well that's all folks I will update when I get back.

 

What a night !
Last night was just awesome. No I did not get to cum or even get let out of the cage but Goddess had her best ever orgasm from yours truly. Back to the start. I was back from my three day work trip and yesterday was the 4 week anniversary of my lock up and Sunday is the 4 week anniversary of us formally adopting working towards an FLM relationship.
I was told for the first time to go and get some shopping so my Lady could relax ( I had intended to play some golf ) and as such I went shopping. After dinner we both took the dog for a walk as we could get a little privacy and mostly we just walked the dog along the sea shore. We did have a couple of discussions on the was things are progressing and the up side for me is my Lady is in general very happy with my progress. She explained her three month plan to me which is i should expect to be kept looked without release for the next 9 weeks but if she wants me to cum then that's up to her but do not expect it. This is better than a definite no but I think she is serious and it's unlikely I will get a release until the three months is up.
When we got we semi agreed to watch a dvd together in bed ( we both really enjoy this but rarely get the opportunity.
Upon return there were kids to get to bed I needed a shower and shave and there were kids friends to get home so as usual plans sort of went awry.
At about 11 I had my shower and shave ( including what I can get to around the cage) and changed for bed. I had been instructed to wear just a swimsuit as she like the smooth lines and the feel. I went to bed and waited an hour but as she was obviously doing other things I started the DVD on my own. I was happy to start it again when she eventually arrived about an hour in but we just watched the end of it snuggled together with me rubbing her back and bum which she generally enjoys.
We turned the TV off after the film and I started rubbing her stomach and chest ( she came to be in just a silky thong). After a short while I was told to put on the blindfold which I keep in my bedside drawer and then I was instructed in how and where to stake her for her pleasure ( this is an obsolete first although I have always wanted her input on what she really enjoys).
As a typical male a moved gradually south until I started teasing her. Again a bit of teasing and stroking of her stomach and chest and I worked a finger inside she was very wet again this is fantastic so I knew I was doing things right. After a shortish while I was instructed to get her vibrator and use is in a very specific manner and only in that way another first and when it was inside to think that if I behaved well enough that could be me . Wow that's was a hot thought I did as asked and wow what a reaction I then added my tongue to the mix and she's was in ecstasy for several minutes until eventually she came.
I know she's likes me to stop after she has cum so I removed the vibrator ( I did lick it clean yummy) and went back to gently caressing her in a non sexual way. Whilst we were doing all this she had grabbed my balks and in the height of her passion she had squeezed them and dug her nails in in a very painful way I am still somewhat sore this morning, this is something that I know was not deliberate but was an indicator off her level of arousal.
Once she's had come down we had a very brief chat and a glass of milk each but she did confirm that was the best sex she has ever had. I am rather proud to have delivered and even more proud of her as she would normally ( evert time in the past) let me out so I could get off generally inside her but all she said was no chance for quite a while. It was so hot. When she found what she had done with her hand she did ask if I needed to be let out to recover but I knew I was just too turned on and an orgasm was not on offer so I declined on a wait and see basis. I am still pretty sore this morning but also still very turned on by last night.
In truth I do know that I am not capable of giving het the same level of pleasure in normal sex I would try but I am not the 8+ inches of the vibrator nor do I have the stamina as well as I am really to heavy for her ( I am working on my weight as well).
So here ai am looking forward to the next time but knowing that at present orgasms are only going one way so I am going to do my best to learn from last night and make them get better and better.
I know this is a little close to the mark but for me it's an important milestone as I really did not miss cumming and took great pleasure in my Goddesses pleasure. As they say it takes all sorts.
On a different note I have emailed the pro Dom for a session as requested and I have passed her number on to my Goddess so I am really in their hands I am just waiting for a date to be confirmed. The date is unusual but there are good reasons why it can take a little setting up.
Well I think that's enough for now the next step is our 1 month review which should be in a couple of days wish me luck.

 

Well we have had our one month review and it was interesting but no play time since my last post. We reviewed the punishable offences and set penalties, we agreed a weekly review of good or bad behaviour. I now have a selection of underware that is to rekindle to be good so things are moving in lots of area.s and we documented some short medium and longterm goals. All quite reasonable and sensible. I have now been locked for a month so it looks like at least two more to go, I hope I make it and do not falter but it's already tough and still what seems like forever left.
In general we are progressing well and at a sensible pace so all is fairly good just very boring at the moment. The appointment with the Pro Domme is taking longer to sort than expected so that may take a while but goddess has taken a significant step in texting the Pro Domme so opening direct communications with her. This could be really good or not depending where it goes so I must wait and see. Hopefully I will get a kind session in a week or so.
Goddess is happy with the plan and taking control gradually and I am both being asked to do more and am actually doing more as well.
Sorry no good stuff but I am hopeful for some play time next week.

 

Well a bit of a gap and lots of updates where to start. Firstly I am glad the site is back up and hope MW has a full recovery from her fall which sounds horrific. I really do wish her all the best in her new ventures and I do go far enough back to remember why she started this site in the first place so a big thank you from me and if it's her turn to move on then so be it and I do wish all the best to whoever takes her place.
Well back to what is.really just my blog.
I re read my last post and I was still arranging my first visit to a pro Domme well the lady in question had been out of action for a while but became available again so the appointment was duly made an Miss (this is what my lady likes to. Be called) duly sent a text of my misdemeanours. I went to the session feeling very nervous as what was to happen was completely out of my hands. I had been caged continuously apart from cleaning for about six weeks so the cage was as I have been advised it will be was girly locked on. After a short contrived delay which was actually to turn the heat up on my nervousness the session began as is usual with me naked and on my knees crawling in. There were quite a few misdemeanours and this was a relatively short session ( our choice nothing to do with the delay as this and more was added to the end) so it was basically a punishment session.

I started in the x frame facing out and received a lighting flogging with a crop I think. I am always collared at the start of a session and this time was hooded and blindfolded for this part. Nipple clamps and electro stimulation ( shock ) was also used in conjunction. The first time she used the shock tool I really was not too sure I felt it but this time I really knew it was attached to my balls. The experience was a tingling which did get quite painful when it was turned up. ( this was very carefully used and only slowly turned up but was quite effective) the real challenge for me were the nipple clamps the bite and the nipple torture seems to be vert effective on me.

I must have been in the frame for some time but when I was released I was moved to a new spanking bench again I was very firmly confined to this ( I actually love to be confined like this it's a huge turn on for me ) and then the punishment really started. I was given 36 stroked on my ass only at the request on Miss who did not want me marked anywhere else. The first 30 were bad enough. But the last 6 I was offered the choice of six really hard or twelve less hard. I really could not face the thought of twelve more so I opted for the six. Wow they hurt Andy I really did not think they we're that much harder than the previous but ouch. Thes were given for very specific misdemeanours and I have tried really hard not to repeat theses errors which were

1) demeaning Miss by not recovering here after a cuddle ( this was a complete surprise to me as I did not realise it was an issue for Miss.)
2) Pestering her with too many questions.
3) Topping from the bottom

These go into a book we have and they also attract a punishment from Missso it's really a double whammy for me.

Anyway after the caning and a bit of foot ( boot ) worship I was done and after a cooldown period I left to go home scorer and planning to be better behaved and better over all. My goal is not to be caned I doubt if I can achieve this but it's my goal.

More later as there is still a bit to catch up on.

 

Still trying to play catch up after my session feed back was sent back directly to Miss it's really weird visiting a pro Domme but having someone else set things up but I do not think there is any other way in our emerging FLM marriage. Miss and I had arranged to get away a week or so later for some quality time without the usual house full of kids and hangers on. I had booked a caravan on a site instead of our usual hotel as we felt it may provide a more relaxed environment this actually works out more expensive than a hotel deal so,it's not to save money.

The first part of the trip was a shopping trip to a local town where Miss wanted to but panties to replace my underware with as she felt this would keep me in a better frame of mind. We did not find much but we did get a few bikini bottoms and a couple of pairs that she thought would work. We also brought a load of clothes for Miss which she liked so a few hundred pounds poorer we booked in for the night. Miss always likes to have a slow start so I had the jobs of tea making and letting her sleep for the first night, the following day Miss wanted to look at cars so we spent all day going around car show rooms. I was obviously in panties and for the evening I waited on Miss in a collar and short skirt which I was advised would be my evening attire.
Miss also confirmed that she had deliberately left the cage key and our new safe at home.
We purchased a coded safe to keep the keys in only Miss has the code so I could get the keys in an emergency as I can break into the safe but that would destroy it. It's a pretty decent Chubb safe.
So I knew at the outset that there would be no relief for me Miss confirmed that she really did want me to go the full three months only being let out for cleaning once a week and she felt she may cave in if the key was available so no key. Miss is really getting the hang of being a key holder.
Anyway when we got back and Miss had had her first tea I was told to get the punishment items together so I could finish paying for my errors. I had already been caned for these so I felt this was a bit strong but it's Miss's decision and I just kept my mouth shut. The caning seems to be working. I spent a very uncomfortable hour in a thong back leotard over the cage and a reasonably tight hogtie wearing both a blindfold and a ball gag. This mixture meant that Miss kindly let me pay off all the penalties is one go.

I was released after a quick spanking with a ruler on my backside after the hour to make some more tea and get back into service. The skirt went back on and the collar ( the hogtie has a built in posture collar ) and I had to keep the blindfold ready. Well after the tea I was instructed to massage Miss whist she watched TV. I do enjoy this and I am getting better at it I worked from her feet up and after an hour or so we went to bed where I carried on but far more intimately slowly bring Miss to one of her best ever orgasms. I truly feel honoured when this happens as she has these so rarely. At least I did not rack up any further penalties or break any of the agreed rules. The following day was again spent looking at cars and just relaxing, we had a nice relaxing day. again that evening I was back in the collar and skirt and had not been out of panties all weekend after a long evening watching TV and making teas etc Miss asked me to rub her feet and calves with her face down on the bed and me kneeling on the floor.
I started by gently working her feet and toes both top and bottom with both my hands and mouth and very gradually worked my way up. Miss had kindly worn one of my favourite outfits a fishnet topped and PVC bottomed body with a through crotch zip, I love seeing her in this she looks fantastic in it. But I was not allowed to touch yet.
I continued with both hands and mouth up her calves and then continued to massage very gently up over her knees and onto her thighs regularly returning to her feet and ankles. I cheated and when I was massaging her thighs I brushed her sec over the PVC at first just occasionally but becoming more frequent. As Miss got more turned on I brushed her more and eventually she lifted up to give me more access. I was really horny and so turned on I unzipped her crotch and gently began working her both front and rear. Miss typically never lets me touch her bottom but this night she did not seem to care. As things got hotter I used my hands on the stomach and boobs all still very lightly and started to orally stimulate her. Miss really got into this and I ended up with on hand roaming her front one hand working clit and my mouth working her ass. I was absolutely smitten and so was she her orgasm when it came lasted for what seemed like hours but was probably a couple of minutes, by far the best she has ever had I had not even considered reaming her before but the whole thing just worked wow. Afterwards we just cuddled and Miss told me that she was so glad not to have the key or she would have caved in. What a night a beautiful orgasm for Miss and nothing for me not even a tease I felt so subdued and submissive it was awesome.
Well that was the end of our trip but it was a good one.
So a quick update Miss has in the last 8 weeks to that date had about 5 or 6 orgasms including her best ones ever and I have had nothing not even a tease whilst out of the cage. Yes I have been touched in the cage but that's not the same thing.
Well since got back not much has happened I have had work and Miss has had a resurgence of her back from the last session so it's not 10 weeks since I was locked up and I have my next session in a couple of days Miss will text her instructions and I will get well whatever I get.
Miss has a couple of issues one was a session of bad language from me caused by a phone issue and stress over missing work calls potentially costing us a lot of money and one evening I fell asleep and did not tell the kids to go to bed. ( they are 13 and 11) and my oldest ended up putting them to bed. I really feel bad as I genuinely do not know what went wrong.

Well that's me back up to date in theory I have about two weeks to hold but there in no promise of relief after that so its just a waiting game right now. I will update again after my session I a really hoping to avoid the cane but I doubt that that will happen so I expect another sore ass.

 

Ok today or yesterday now I visited our lady ( I really do not like the term Pro Domme so I will use the Lady reference instead) and she was slightly delayed. I responded incorrectly as I was asked to sit in a specific location and I responded that I would walk around. Not a good idea on my part. Miss had texted Lady previously with her feedback on my performance in the last month and in general this had been good with two significant errors and one missinterpretation.

I did actually wait where I was asked to and after a 15 minute delay ( added at the end of the session) I was asked to go in.
As is usual I stripped except the cage ( obviously as I cannot remove it ) and crawled in. I was immediately told how poor my response had been and that I. Would be strapped instead of caned as Miss seemed to have mistakenly told the Lady that I was unhappy about it. The reality is is had said I wanted to behave well enough not for the cane to be needed which I think is very different. Well I was placed in a set of steel stocks for my head and neck and warmed up with a paddle then strapped until Lady felt I had been punished sufficiently in that way.
I was then strapped into a gynaecological bench in a very open position. Lady used nipple clamps ( at one stage either three or four pairs very ouch) to take my kind of what she did below. Initially this was electo therapy to my balls which varied between a mild tingle and a painful jolt whilst she used a small vibrating device in my backside. This I found very erotic but also painful I was advised that under no circumstances should I cum. I did manage to relax and I did not cum as such but when I did leak somewhat. I am really not surprised after 10 weeks. Lady then changed the electro therapy to a clip on the foreskin through the rings on my cage and the second connection to a butt plug. This cycled from mild tingling to a significant jolt and Lady played with this,for some time. she also tortured my nipples which seem quite sensitive to this. This seemed to go on for quite some time and after I was released we had the usual cool down and the session ended. I think I may have found sub space for the first time. I also think I was milked but I really do not know I do know that I have come out feeling very calm and relaxed with a conviction to learn and be a better sub for Miss. I know the use of a professional may seem strange but Miss has some definite hard limits which would interfere with my training so we have agreed to use Lady as a training aid. Lady is very supportive of this and Miss communicates with Lady directly and I am not party to their messages. This is probably just as well but I do respond well to corporal and erotic punishments and this seems to beat into me to change my ways for the better.

Right now I am sleepy and for the first time in ages no feeling randy but very relaxed and chilled with a focus on being better over the next month. Miss and I have agreed a 4 to 6 week gap between these training sessions on both common sense and cost grounds and I only book a session when Miss agrees it is time. Lady feels that she needs to make me see my feminine side and future sessions may look at this but the way she corrected me was to me very efficient. I really do,get nervous when going to see Lady and yes I did come away with a sore ass again.

We did today talk about the FLM and it does seem to be working for her much better than expected I am now in my 10th week caged with no orgasm and I do not know when or if I will get to cum I just know that Miss is liking the situation and I will have to wait until at least the 12th week for any chance to cum.

Well that's me up to date I re read this and it seem very unreal but living it day to day is real and looking forward I cannot envisage moving away from the FLM we are working on. For those who may be interested Miss is not a very sexual person and has a low sex drive so cuckolding etc even if I wanted it would not be an option. We are very much in love and we both intend to stay that way.

Well that's me done for now thanks for your interest.

 

Just a short update nothing erotic has happened not really even a cuddle as Miss's brother was staying for a few days. I still have a sore ass from my session with our Lady I really think the strap can be worse than the cane the discomfort and marks seems to last longer as well. I am starting to get worked up now we are at almost 11 weeks ( in fact exactly 11 weeks locked but a couple of days off since my last O). Work and breaks look like they will interfere with the three month anniversary and idealised this as a question today as well as what next. Miss's answer really shows how she has developed. At around three months I will get out for a while whether this is before Miss goes away or when she is back she will not say. Also she says I will be out for a while which could be a minute an hour a day a week or several weeks, she knows but just does not want me to know.

Well done Miss you really know how to keep me on edge. I know there are some real long termers on the Mansion but to me this has been too long but Miss has indicated that shay want much longer, I really did not know how to take that, it may be nothing or Miss may be very serious I just do not know and I am advised its really none of my business. What a change I do not think Miss will ever want to go back now.

As I said just a quick update I may get a cuddle tomorrow night as well here is hoping I know I am staying looked anyway.

 

Jemima. I thought that was the case but the Lady I am sent to decided to prove otherwise. I was locked in Steel stocks with my legs spread but not confined and it hurt so much I regularly had both feet off the ground in pain and I am still well marked generally after the cane a few days and most of the marks have gone, although there are marks still there weeks later.

After a caning I can sit down after an hour or so with very limited discomfort but it was a couple of days with the strap. I a talking about a thick leather strap about 2 inches wide and about 18 inches long.

The bonus with the strap is no cuts. My last two canings have drawn blood. The Lady does say I have a high tolerance but both of my last two punishments nearly led me to safe word.

I must however say probably the worst was when Lady put the fourth pairs of nipple clamps on and started tugging and twisting all four pairs. My nips are still sensitive today, added to the electo therapy on my cock and ass I think that tops it all.

I do enjoy a spanking it's quite a turn on but the strapping and caning are definately punishments. I am still working to have a session of training where I am not corporals punished.

 

Jemima.
I am not really that brave I do approach the sessions very nervously but it is training that I need to be better for Miss and she has confided that it does work, I have not repeated any offence that I have been corrected for and although I am likely to slip sometime I definately do not want to have a reminder.

Bear in mind I love being in bondage and truly enjoy beIng under control I still am doing this to improve for the love of my life and without her consent and encouragement we would not be where we are today. We are I believe the happiest we have ever been and the pain of a caning or strapping is transient and passing. Once I am in a session Lady will do whatever she feels appropriate based on a Text from Miss I do hope they will meet at some stage but Miss is not ready for that as yet. Our Lady ensures that I am appropriately confined so the Stocks or the whipping bench or the x and I am inescapably bound with vey limited movement ( the stocks only my legs able to move) I can safe word but I really need to just accept my transgresses and accept the consequence of them. Yes it hurts but it feel right I am a weak man and I need correcting and this works for us.
Yes it is very erotic with the Lady but as I am caged and will always be its just in my mind someone doing Miss's bidding and as Miss likes the results and I do get my fix of inescapable bondage it works for us both.

 

We did have a cuddle this morning and although I really wanted to push things and start something more Miss said no and so I behaved this used to never happens as I knew I would get away with it now I know I won't . We did talk and I do have to learn to just accept things and to not know which I find really hard after being in control for years but I am working on it.

Miss did advise me that she will be letting me have some time out after the three months is up but if I misbehave then the cage will be back on. I will still need to be caged a week either side of my monthly visits to out Lady anyway. this ensures that I cannot get any sexual pleasure from the visits as I could if I was unchanged straight before or after so even when I am not caged I will still be in it about half the time.

We will be looking at a custom cage to prevent any growth and Miss will be selecting the device. Miss has really grown and I feel now that with the able help of our Lady she is in control for real. This is and was my choice and Miss's and we could change our minds but I have committed and intend to follow it through and Miss is enjoying this more as we move forward rather than less so we will keep on this road for the foreseeable future.

Miss is not yet comfortable with everything this lifestyle has and I would really love to session with both Miss and Lady but that may never happen or it may Lady has kept the door open and Miss has told me if she wants to move beyond the current text communication she will but it's none of my business I will just have to accept the outcome.

Well I am in theory due for release Monday fortnight but I can see that being delayed a day or two but if that date sticks the we would be at just over thirteen weeks which as far as I am concerned is too long to be caged. The only problem is I get no say I. It at all now. Miss has indicated that future durations are not likely to be as long as the current one but that she may decide on something much longer 6 months or even a year or two may be even permanent, I do not see permanent at this stage but even another three months is scary. Even worse is Miss is only going to tell me what she wants from now on and her stock answer will be you do not need to know. How things change anyhow that's all for now.

 

Well not much has happened since my last post work has got really busy for the next few weeks which is forcing some changes so I will not be around at the 13 week mark when I was supposed to be freed after my three month sentence. We have done 12 weeks or so now and I will either get out in the next couple of days or it will be 14 or 15 weeks due to work. As I work for myself the work is great but the timing really does suck. I am kind of desparate but as its my first time with no release for sooo long I really have no idea if I will be able to perform properly assuming I get the chance when I am release.

Miss has dropped a few hints that tonight may be the night but I commitments at all so I am very conscious of being as good as I can but I am also exhausted from a very long week with lots of hours and almost 20 hours of driving.

Well I wanted the FLM so I have to get used to it I do have lots of household chores to do today and also several hour of prep work for next week. No rest for the wicked. I will update if anything happens tonight I am hopeful but funnily enough not desparate .
After all I actually have no say in things sexual our agreement is very clear on that I am getting less and less say in things generally now anyway. Have a great weekend every one.

 

Thanks Sissywannabe that's pretty much how Miss feels. She does find that our Lady is much stricter in her interpretation but I think that's to the good. We have been using 4 to 6 weeks as a guide time but it looks like it will be nearer 8 before the next one due to work.

 

Well I am out almost exactly 12 weeks as I am flying and travelling all over the country it makes sense to start now rather than in a week. It's seems strange that being out is unusual rather than being in. We did have a cuddle but in reality we were both too tired to really do anything. So it's back to freedom of a sorts for two weeks then I have to have a non orgasm week whilst unlocked. I have not been told why but it sound interesting.
We did a very brief 3 month review but as Miss is pretty happy with everything and I have no issues it was short with no changes made. It may be a while until it's worth me updating as I will only see Miss and the family briefly over the next three weeks but I will continue to look in. Miss has intimated that I will be going back into lockup but has not let me know her views on when.

Wishing every one the best

 

Sissywannabe, The lady we use seems to be able to cater for pretty much anything and she has her own superbly equipt rooms creating an excellent ambiance. She does listen and as I have said I have had in a very short period quite a range of treatments to cure me of my bad habits. If you are ever in the UK on the south coast I can send you details. As she does not know I post here I use Lady so as not to either advertise or upset. Lady is very skilled and she does seem to love what she does it is a whole lifestyle to her not just for money although it's not cheap. We did discuss this last night and we both agree it's both worth it and for me especially a great help. If I feel like misbehaving I just remember the last session and stop.
As is love being confined and helpless a visit could be either a punishment or reward and to date is mostly a mix of both as I am confined most of the time.
I had never had either Anal or Electrical before visiting our Lady and I find these both punishing and pleasurable. I had not had nipple clamps used and to me these are no fun and I had sore nips for days after my last visits. Lady has figured out I have sensitive nips and so she uses that. I am fairly robust on corporal punishment which really surprised me I thought I was a bit of a wimp but having seen my ass look a bit like a raw steak a few times I am told my our Lady that I have a high tolerance, as I do not know then I will take that as an accolade of sorts.
Ten stokes of the can on my first visit made me feel sick but 70 plus on a later visit left me warm, with no trouble sitting or driving. as I said the paddle had the greatest effect on sitting the cane seems to mark me well enough but in reality after an hour I do not feel it too much at all.
After the electric on the last visit to the tip of my cock and a probe up my ass Lady told me I was dripping not that I noticed, I must note that I was sexually very calm for a few days afterwards.
Sorry I seem to have gone off on a tangent well thanks for reading and if you are over and want to visit her PM me and I will let you have the details.
All the best