I'm going to get desperate soon!

Yes, I thought about it on occasion but my situation is rather complicated so it wouldn't work out as is... Maybe some day, but it's just not doable right now. I won't get into that (my situation), as it's not something I enjoy talking about.

Being a former player irl, I imagine that if I had a keyholder partner then things would get rather "interesting" because players like to be in control and not be controlled. I'm a bit wiser now but I still have that trait, so I consider myself something of a "wildcard" in this community.

 

I got so lost in my fantasies now that I forgot I already have coffee with me... LOL. Got up and went to grab the mug and I said "Oh, wait a minute!"

Sorry, but I had to post something because right now I have exactly 666 messages! < See for yourself if you don't believe me.

 

Thank you Joe.

 

I feel like things are getting "weird" for me, for lack of a better term... A few days ago, I was literally in tears, but yesterday and today, I'm smiling. I wanted out of the cage so badly on Saturday but that was pretty much it. Today, my balls ache, my cock is twitching inside my cage and my pelvis is sore and I'm actually enjoying it.
Did I actually lose my mind?

 

Well... Hmmm... Good point!

 

I just had an embarrassing fail!

My chastity strap just arrived:


I tried to put it on while I was still locked securely because I didn't wanna take a chance with unlocking myself while horny AF. It was too difficult, so I grabbed my emergency backup key and took the cage shaft off as they recommended and when I tried to put the shaft back on, I accidentally blew my load onto the floor.

I guess there's no need to speculate any release day any time soon now... But yes, I am keeping the cage on now that it's been relocked and secured. I'll see how it feels while wearing it to work the next few days.

I understand this was purely an accident, so I won't let it bring me down. My session continues... For how long, I really can't say now.

 

I appreciate that.

For whatever it’s worth, I guess I have a reprieve from desperation for a while…. But I think I already got the T-crash I was afraid of because I got exhausted at work after just 2 hours.

 

I do appreciate that Jay, but I’m a hyperactive animal with ADHD, so that wouldn’t last very long with me.

 

It’s a hyper-sexual disorder I acquired upon hitting puberty. I’ve been this way for as long as I can remember.

In fact, even though I accidentally blew my load earlier today, I’m already starting to feel horny again. This reprieve may not last very long.

 

That’s exactly why I got into chastity in the first place. Without my cage on, I’ll jerk off at least several times every day. I’ve done more than dozen times in a single day (if I’m lying, I’m dying) quite a few times in the past.

I’m trying to become a better man, not a sissy, and doing something about my compulsive habit is a major step in that direction. And I’m having some naughty fun along the way.

 

Thanks but I don’t need a motivational speech.

 

Well, I've been locked up for 40 days now and it's a real milestone for me.

That accidental orgasm the other day didn't give me any release, as I'm still horny AF and wanting to jerk off, but it did take me off the edge... For now. I went to bed early last night and got caught up on missed sleep. I feel so much better now. I woke up really fucking horny and my balls aching this morning, but I'm smiling and not crying.

I think today is gonna be a good day.

 

I'm going to work with blue balls again today.

While I'm there, I'm gonna look for a pack of jockey briefs. Might work out better than the strap did and I'm sure I can get a pack at a decent price before my employee discount.

 

Well go get it!