I'm going to get desperate soon!

I can’t speak for the others, but my own experience has been having to deal with spontaneous orgasms and they’re just as bad if not worse than ruined orgasms because because you have no control over them and they offer no sense of release. It’s more like your body autonomously opening a pressure release valve.

 

Is that so? LOL!

 

OMG! I had a really naughty dream last night and it made me wake up with a serious boner in my cage. 2 hours later I still got it and it's making me so fucking horny that I'm ready to start crying irl.

I'm spending my morning constantly telling myself to just hang on because I only have 1 week to go, but I just can't distract myself enough right now. I'm literally shaking irl right now.

I really want my keys right now... My balls ache so much.

 

I’m at work now… Whoever was here before me didn’t do anything and left a huge mess for me. Normally, I’d be pissed but today I’m actually happy for it because I need this help me keep my mind off of how I feel today.

One of my coworkers asked me if I was alright because they said I looked a little “on edge” about something. I just used the good old “too much coffee this morning” excuse. Works every time.

 

I'm definitely desperate right now...

I caught myself about to order a teddy bear online because I wanted to hug something irl, but then I slapped myself in the face pretty hard (I really did) and said to myself: "Snap out of it, man!"

I still have a week to go, but at this point I'm just torturing myself. When this session is done I'll take a break to mentally recover before starting another one.

Damn... I want my keys so badly right now!

 

I still want my keys but I seem to be doing better this morning... Maybe the peak has passed and the trough is starting again. This is getting crazy!

 

Pissed her off? What did you do?

 

Oh boy...

Well, I'm sure you'll be alright in the end and that's what matters most. Yes, it'll be one hell of a ride, but you might actually enjoy it... And her too possibly.

I'm trying to move myself into long term lockups (not permanent) and getting that first full month in is the most important step. So, if you want to try long term, then look at this as an opportunity to prepare yourself and also to impress her. If she feels pity on you and offers to unlock you, if you think you can get that full month in, then tell her you wanna go through with it. She may even help you along the way.

 

I got 5 days left... I thought about extending again, but there's no telling when my next back-to-back day off will be... Last time I went longer than 3 weeks without orgasm, when I finally pushed myself over the edge and came out of the cage, it TOTALLY wiped me out. I was sore for a few days and it took a whole week to get my energy back (major T-crash).

I'm leaning towards not further extending my current session, but we'll see when the day comes. As Joe told me in private, "One day at a time".

 

I’m having an awesome morning today!

I woke up more horny than I ever was in my entire life, but instead of wanting out of my cage, I had an irresistible urge to tease myself by watching some super kinky porn. So, I browsed my HDD and some “extreme kink” videos and watched them for about 2 hours. It made me physically jittery, but instead of whimpering and crying, I actually moaned with enjoyment. I went to work with a smile on my face.

I ran into the store manager just a little while ago and she commented about how “cheerful” I seem this morning. I subtly told her “I just woke up on the right side of the bed this morning!”. She laughed.

On a side note, I just love how plump my balls have gotten after 5 full weeks of denial. I think they’re still growing because last week, I could feel them resting on the chair when I sit down… Last night, I realized I literally cannot bring my knees together anymore. I never felt anything like that before. I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!

Here’s hoping the rest of the day is this great.

 

I’m leaking behind the sales counter again. This used to scare me in my first couple months in chastity because it was a new thing for me… It doesn’t scare me anymore because I know now that it’s just my body doing its job and I’ll be fine. But it still annoys me because it stops me in my tracks every time it happens.

I’m not gonna let this ruin my day. I’ll just ride it out like anything else.

 

I made it home finally... I was fighting off an unwanted spontaneous orgasm the last 2 or 3 hours of my shift... I feel so exhausted from it now.

But other than that, I had a pretty good day and I'm glad I didn't blow my load behind the sales counter.

 

I just decided to add 18 more days to my session to make it 2 full months. So I now have at least 22 days remaining.



I found 3 good reasons for doing this:
1) I have a new cage add-on arriving today and I want to give it try for a couple weeks.
2) I want to see if the peaks & troughs finally calm down and level out. They haven’t thus far, so perhaps simply more time is needed?
3) I really love how plump my balls have gotten and I wanna see if they get any bigger or if they’re already at full capacity. I love so much that I literally cannot put my knees together & wanna prolong that.

I know I’m gonna get more days of desperation and depression but everyone here has been very supportive and I feel I can pull through with your continued support.

If I can do back-to-back 2 month sessions then I think that’ll be my minimum time locked up hence forth. We shall see.

 

I sure will... I'm sure it's purely psychological (both of our situations), but adding more time to an already longest-ever session is really turning me on and arousing me.

I feel I've fulfilled this chastity caption fantasy irl:


OMG! I'm so fucking horny right now after reading that caption!

 

Yes, I'm finding that out with my own experience. In fact, I'm starting to throb right now.