From self-locked, to online, to real time

From self-locked to online to real time

I am starting a blog about my journey over the past five years.

There are certain aspects of my journey that I hope may be of interest to others:
1) I started self-locking
2) I then had a number of online chastity keyholders
3) I eventually met a real-life keyholder

I have been into chastity 'on and off' during my five year journey. During my 'off' periods, I had two different vanilla girlfriends but neither relationship lasted long enough (or felt right enough) to dare mentioning anything kinky, let alone chastity.

About a year ago, around the time coronavirus was causing lockdowns in many countries including the UK, I got back into chastity in a very big way (my own personal lockdown!) - and I've been here ever since.

Over the last year I've had a short but extremely fun online experience, and then have built a relationship with a Pro-Domme who has been my keyholder for almost a year now, and with whom I've had some of the most wonderful days of my life.

I salute everyone who is experiencing a rewarding chastity journey with a wife, girlfriend or boyfriend as your keyholder, but my journey is a little different and I hope one people will enjoy reading.

Through chastity, I have been able to explore a much wider world of sexual domination and submission, which I have found truly incredible, amazingly rewarding, extremely therapeutic, and (occasionally) explosively orgasmic!

So in many ways chastity has been just the springboard to a more fulfilling life... care to jump in with me?

 

Ever since I've had sexual desires, I've been drawn to ideas of a woman being in control of me, owning me and my pleasure, whilst I yearned to give her pleasure in return. I didn't know of male chastity in these early years. Nor did I feel comfortable revealing these feelings to girlfriends, which in any case numbered in the low single figures. I thought it wasn't very masculine to admit such submissive tendencies. So these remained firmly as fantasies. But like a little seed, the feelings continued to grow inside me, fuelling my dreams.

It was the summer of 2016, a time I was single, and probably because of that I had sunk deeper into pornography, and all the associated activities that would bring on. Female domination porn was a clear favourite and although I'd heard of seen photos of the very traditional (almost medieval) metal belts a lot time ago, I had somehow missed the modern male chastity revolution that was already in full swing.

Nothing could therefore prepare me for how I felt when I chanced upon an internet photo gallery of couples with guys wearing modern ball-trap chastity tubes and cages. It amazed me there was this whole previously undiscovered part of the sexual universe that I had completely bypassed.

The photos entranced me. Naked men, usually wearing a small tube or metal cage, with their partners often clothed or in lingerie, with the woman's hand teasingly cupping the cage. Sometimes the man was kneeling, sometimes tied to a bed, wearing a leash, kissing his Mistress in various places, sometimes he was calm in the cage, sometimes straining and dripping, but always in my eyes the epitomy of female domination and male submissive heaven.

I then started reading the accounts of male chastity - though I wasn't easily able to distinguish from fiction and real-life. But knowing how desperately horny and passionate I would become after a few days voluntarily abstaining, I could barely imagine what a period of enforced chastity could be like. The idea that a partner could lock me up and totally control my orgasms, manipulating me at her whim for her own enjoyment, was intoxicating.

Being single when I discovered chastity was both an advantage and a disadvantage. The latter is obvious, no immediate person to ask to be my keyholder and hopefully enjoy the journey together as part of a healthy and adventurous sex life. The advantage of being single was that I could freely experiment with chastity through self-locking, to see whether I actually enjoyed the physical restraint and self-imposed denial. It was, in many ways, risk free chastity.

So it happened that the day after I discovered the photos was a Sunday, and I am fortunate enough to live in city with an adult store that was open. I went hoping they might stock a device and they had a solitary CB6000. I hesitated when I saw the price - seriously expensive for a few pieces of mass produced plastic - but I was already getting hooked on the idea.

I'm sure like everyone who first tries a device, whether you are with a partner or solo, especially if you haven't done much research (and I wasn't on CM at this point) that you have no idea about obvious things like a good fit. When I got home, I can't believe I didn't split the tube at the outset. The minute I started putting the ring around my balls, I was totally hard and stayed that way, for a long time. When I eventually managed to push, shove, squeeze and squash myself into the tube it was both so hot and so painful. Getting all the pieces aligned and clicking the padlock was such an achievement. I felt quite a stud that the tube must be far too small. I had a lot to learn!

My memory is hazy, but I think I stayed pretty hard in the tube for the rest of the day, I was so excited by the experience and the sensations. I calmed down later on, but hadn't really noticed now how small I'd become in the tube. It still looked secure. Now I know all the advice is to take is steadily, and definitely not to try sleeping in a device on day one. Well I was too horny for that. I wanted the full blown experience and wanted to go big. If I'm in for this, I want to go all the way. And I did manage to fall asleep, only to be woken about 3am in absolute agony. Everything was red and swollen, I was really worried in case I'd caused any damage. So there was no hesitation in reaching for the key on my bedside table.

I was relieved to wake next morning to see no apparent lasting ill effects, so after washing popped the tube back on and managed to wear it for most of the day. I didn't mind sitting down to pee, it was quite relaxing, though I noticed the tube would remain annoyingly damp afterwards. I started reading more and more about chastity. I was ravenous for information about the experience, devices, common problems and how to resolve them, and inevitably I started reading more and more about the dynamic between the locked and the keyholder. And that was a something I needed to resolve too.

So the self-locking continued for a while, mostly just during the day, and not every day - depending on my work schedule. Periods without orgasm would start to extend to three or four days (a complete turnaround from my pre-chastity days) and I enjoyed the explosive power this would ultimately induce. Wearing the device at work was a serious turn-on, as was when socialising. I had to learn to choose my clothes very carefully - definitely no hugging pants. I started including full nights, though I struggled with those a lot. It was fun, for a while, and might have stayed that way had I not had another amazing internet encounter. But more on that next time.

 

Over the last five years I have come to realise that an interest in chastity encompasses a wide and diverse range of motivations and rationales. Yes at the core as men on CM we want to be in chastity but there are a raft of reasons why - whether it's to introduce some kinky power exchange fun into the bedroom, as part of a D/s dynamic or FLR, to help manage a porn and/or masturbation addiction, the sheer pleasure of tease and denial, as a form of loving commitment, or any combination of these things. For me it was certainly at the outset more driven by sexual motivations possibly because I was both single and self-locked, but over time I've become to appreciate the deeper relationship that can exist between the cage and the heart. And in a strange way that started to dawn on me only when my chastity journey moved online.

There are two essential things for male chastity to work in my view - first is someone to hold your key who wants to hold your key, and the second is a device that is both secure and comfortable (or maybe that's three things?). I started my chastity journey with neither but fortunately, like the Mars rover, I have perseverance. And that's a quality I think that underpins my chastity journey, like most others on CM, and it's one with ups and downs. So I'll have a little down moment to begin with, but it does pick up later on.

By this point in my journey, I had been self-locking for a couple of months, but the early excitement and thrill had begun to diminish. I would manage at most about five days self-locked at a time, always aiming to reach the milestone of a whole week but often my resolve would crumble. I could enjoy the initial fantasy of being in chastity, but it actually started to work in reverse and become less fulfilling. If anything, it began to reinforce that this really should be a two-person experience, which was (for me anyway) pretty hard to sustain on my own. And whilst on one hand I enjoyed and learnt a lot from reading the accounts of happy chastity couples (well - they sounded happy to me), it often left me with pangs of isolation and a feeling of emptiness. I would think back to my previous vanilla girlfriends, and wonder whether they would ever have entertained some chastity play.

It was about this time, through my various continued internet searches, that I found a newspaper article about male chastity and it included an interview with a woman who described how she had a collection of chastity keys and men who were her locked submissives. I'm not sure to this day if this was a real article or not, but either way it was brilliantly desktop published - it looked so authentic, and the photo of the Mistress keyholder in question was both very tastefully done and extremely playful. I did not know much at this point about online keyholding, but I did know that I desperately wanted to contact this Mistress. I was enthralled about the idea of being in 'proper' chastity, as I imagined it, and it excited all my wider repressed feelings about female domination and male submission.

I am going to omit some of the precise details of how I first contacted this Mistress - but eventually I managed to reach her on fetlife. Her fetlife page was creative, exciting, teasing, inviting, stimulating. There was a lot more content than just chastity but the chastity photos, videos and stories were simply divine. I learnt that whilst she had a number of locked subs, she wouldn't just accept anyone; to be locked you had to meet a number of criteria. And to be clear these were not financial criteria.

I was beyond nervous. It was the first time I had shared with another person my interest in female domination and male submission enforced through chastity. In real life, I am about as vanilla a guy as you could imagine on the surface (or at least I was back then!) and there was part of me that was uncomfortable. But more than that I feared rejection. So I wrote a very long 'job application' to the Mistress, almost pleading to be locked and setting out a long list of reasons why I would be a good sub. Looking back, I asking a lot of someone's patience to read it all (hopefully not like this blog!!). But in less than a day, I received a reply.

 

There is a type of thread that will be familiar to anyone who has browsed the Personals section either on CM or other chastity forums. It goes something like this, where A is the person seeking chastity (let's say for sake of argument it's a man), and B is someone who A hopes might hold his key as - primarily - a non-financial arrangement.

A: Please will you lock me into chastity and hold my key
B: Why would I want to do that?
A: So you can dominate me and I can submit to you, you can have power over me, own my cock and decide when I have orgasms (or if I have any).
B: That sounds like something you'd enjoy. What's in it for me?
A: Well... you'll own me and my cock, and my orgasms, you can have fun teasing and denying me. And I will worship you as my Goddess. I will be a very good sub. I will send you proof of my chastity every day.
B: Yes but, if I am your Goddess, how would you serve me in a way that is useful to me?
A: Erm... I could write to you and tell you how horny I am locked up, to amuse you, because you have control over me and my orgasms. I also want to be locked 24/7 forever...
B: So you said (sigh!)

Obviously not every online discussion seeking a keyholder goes exactly this way, but you get the general idea.

Why all this preamble? Well because in a sense I was that 'A' once and that's sort of how I approached my first keyholder - even if I wrote out my reasons in almost an extended university essay. Looking back years later, I feel a mixed of amusement and embarrassment, but it's all part of the learning experience.

A downside for me of being self-locked over quite a long time, is that the fantasy can grow and grow - fuelled by a lot of internet fiction. Reaching out to a keyholder brought more reality into things. It helped me begin to appreciate the two-way nature of chastity, and (over a very long period) re-evaluate lots of feelings I had about attraction, love and sex. And this is one reason why I'm supportive of online relationships as a way of experiencing aspects of male chastity - and domination/submission - when other avenues aren't (at least in the short-term) available. It's wise to know what you are looking for when thinking of exploring online but I'll share my thoughts on that in another post.

My first keyholder was a lifestyle Mistress (I may not have the quite the right term, but I mean someone who was a Mistress for fun in their social time, rather than as a paid professional). To this day, the female supremacy and chastity content she posted on the internet was amongst the most fun, witty and alluring I have ever seen. She had amassed a large collection of locked boys by the time I contacted her, who often featured in various ways in her content. All boys were locked by her trademark padlock and I desperately wanted to wear this too. It felt like a fantastic party to which I craved an invite.

When I reached out to Mistress, she had experienced a number of initial enthusiasts who then faded and disappeared, so she was understandably cautious who she subsequently accepted. We chatted by email over several weeks and I admittedly became quite obsessed about being locked. I think deep down I was between real-life relationships, somewhat lonely, was a repressed submissive, and Mistress's online presence quite honestly turned me on - a lot.

I remember the day Mistress's envelope arrived. I had been away on business, returned home late one evening, and there it was on the doormat. Excited doesn't come close, I was ecstatic. Mistress required all her new subs to send dated photo proof of their initial locking, and I spent the rest of that evening choosing an appropriate outfit, writing a sign with the date, shaving, finding the best spot in the house with the optimum lighting... it was quite a performance.

Mistress and I had discussed the subject of emergency keys, as she usually sent just the padlock. Part of me found the idea of that so incredibly hot, it was what my heart wanted but the voice of reason in my head felt otherwise, so I asked Mistress if she would mind deciding herself. She included a sealed key and something I would now recommend to anyone contemplating online keyholding.

I was wearing a CB6000S at the time, and I took my time very gradually removing my lock before inserting Mistress's. I savoured the moment before I pressed down and heard the click. It was an unbelievable feeling after months self-locked to have handed over control, ironically it was almost orgasmic. No longer could I unlock whenever I felt like it or when my own willpower gave it. I felt like a whole new chapter had begun.

 

For the first few days after clicking shut my Mistress's padlock, I was floating on a cloud. I couldn't stop opening my waistband and taking a quick peek. I was so excited being 'properly' locked and the restraining effects of the chastity seemed to be greatly enhanced. But most of all it was the feeling of submitting and being owned, or at least being owned alongside quite a large number of online subs, but I didn't mind that. Rather I felt I was locked by a real Femdom celebrity and part of her special community.

Thanks to my earlier self-locking, I knew I could keep clean and manage to get some sleep in the device. But wearing my Mistress's padlock changed things in two major ways.

The first was admittedly sexual in nature. When self-locked I lacked willpower if the urge for release got very strong. Giving up that free choice over what I did with my body was both relaxing on one hand, and seriously stimulating on the other. Whilst I thought I'd experienced some of the classic denial feelings self-locked, it was nothing compared to how I felt approaching a first full week locked by my Mistress. She had gone to the trouble of accepting me as one of her online subs and sending me her padlock, and I didn't want to let her down. There was also the prospect of little rewards the longer I could stay locked and submitting - which was a major incentive. Knowing I couldn't remove the lock without breaking into the sealed emergency key (which anyway would have defeated the whole purpose) was a massive buzz.

The second change was in many ways non-sexual, because I was interested in following Mistress's teachings. Mistress would agree to lock people who didn't otherwise have a keyholder, but she was clear not to expect lots of tease and denial play. For Mistress, female domination meant just that, women as the superior species and the role of men being to serve them; it didn't mean locking men to increase their sexual thrills. The teachings included that over time long term chastity can train a man, for example, to be less obsessed with his next orgasm and focus on his Dominant. Now people can debate the merits of these viewpoints for a long time, but this was all quite new to me and I was curious. There was something about the 'offer' from Mistress - if I lock you and you serve me well, over time your pleasure will come from serving and you will find it far more rewarding - that really drew me in as part of exploring the world of D/s and FLR.

Being accepted as a locked sub there was the opportunity to exchange emails directly and regularly with Mistress, which was a privilege given the size of her online following, receive personally addressed photos and to participate in a constant stream of fun and amusing challenges. It wasn't tease and denial in the traditional sexual sense, but it was pleasantly teasing enough and my device took care of the denial anyway.

Overall it was good fun, I was able to have a deeper chastity experience and begin to understand more about D/s dynamics. Looking back some years later, as a first keyholding relationship, I probably wasn't ready to let go of the sexual side of chastity (I had really only just got into it) and to just focus on submission in a more purist non-sexual way. But I still treasure the experience and I am still in some ways fascinated to this day. Mistress was very genuine and I am grateful to have spent some time as one of her subs. It helped me in many ways. But more on that and what followed next time.

 

Thank you jemima - you are too kind.

 

Many thanks Lester, I appreciate your feedback.

 

I've taken a little break from my journal but I feel it's now time to share what is the hardest chapter in my chastity story to date. I would like to thank my former Mistress for reading this first and letting me post it.

I continued to follow Mistress online for a number of months. There was something new on her website almost every day to view or be involved in, winning one of her online competitions was always exciting and over time I felt we got to know each other through our direct messages at a more vanilla level too (and I mean vanilla in a positive way).

I enjoyed being locked 24/7 for both the sexual and non-sexual reasons I described in my last post. Though (and I am really ashamed to say this) I worked out after a while I could pull out the back of my CB6000s with lots of soap in the shower. I resisted the temptation most of the time, but on a few occasions I just innocently wanted to have a really good clean but unfortunately my willpower crumbled and one thing led to another. It was a very rare occurrence and I didn't want to spoil our lovely email chats with my failures. It is one of the reasons (years later) I eventually got my current device that I wear now. I need that extra security.

So moving on from this first painful confession, there is a second one - arguably worse.

What happened next was completely unexpected when I first started my chastity journey. Being in contact with Mistress, and developing an online relationship with her (albeit I was one of a number of subs), and having feelings of affection towards her, made me start thinking about real-life dating. I had rather boxed away my heart during my years single, as rejection was too painful, but I sort of rediscovered it through my contact with Mistress. Unfortunately I couldn't become Mistress's live-in sub, the thought never strongly crossed my mind because it would have been absurd, and I started to dip my toes into online dating whilst still locked. As a shy person, well I was a lot more in those days, I was very slow and cautious about online dating, so it was many weeks before I actually started to meet people. And whilst I'm not the type who jumps into bed on the first date, I felt wearing the device would have just felt so odd.

I was very confused about the whole situation. I had a few one-off dates and then met someone who initially seemed very lovely. Not at all kinky, but fun and bubbly. She much more appealed to my vanilla side, and maybe the relationship with Mistress and the chastity had (in a weird way) induced this effect. I was less orgasm-centric. Anyway, to cut a long and rather difficult story short, it only lasted a few months with my girlfriend, though we kept up some friendly contact for a while afterwards.

After all my promises to be a good sub to Mistress, what did I do? I stopped contacting her. Yes it was crap of me. I didn't know how to tell her. It goes back to not wanting to disappoint her, so I stayed silent.

In the end, I informed Mistress after the vanilla relationship ended. I won't go into private details, except to say she was exceptionally understanding, more than I deserved. Even many years later, it hurts to recall some of this, but I hope I became a better person.

I had a break from chastity for a while following that, but it's an impossibly addictive thing and my journey was far from over.

 

My journal now fast forwards to early 2020. I continued to enjoy reading about chastity and watching video clips of locked men in various states of submission. But having had a keyholder once, I found self-locking just couldn't replicate the experience. Then, by chance, I found a sex toy review site run by a former Professional Mistress.

Her website contained some of the hottest stories I've ever read, and a blog describing her previous experiences with locked slaves. I was blown away by the sheer pleasure she described keeping men in chastity, and how deliciously ruthless she was about it. This was absolute power and control at its best.

I noticed the accounts of her locked subs were a few years old, but I contacted her and asked if she would hold my key. At first she replied that she now had a family and no longer had the time to devote to being a keyholder. I was disappointed but I was so turned on by her writings that - a few months later and by which time we were (appropriately enough) in a lockdown in the UK - I emailed again and pleaded to be locked. I knew she enjoyed the pure frustration chastity could bring, so I offered to wear a Birdlocked device with silicon spikes and that I would compensate her for her time reading and replying to my emails (it was very modest compensation at that). She liked the idea of a spiked cage a lot (a first amongst her subs) and said that made a big difference to her saying yes.

Then began a very intense and erotic chastity experience, with lots and lots of tease and denial. I used a numbered plastic lock and would send Mistress a daily diary, including a photo of me in the cage with proof of the date. Mistress would reply with suitably teasing and arousing messages in return, complementing me on my progress and delighting in hearing how painful any attempted erections were.

I wouldn't normally advocate spiked cages, but silicon ones in the Birdlocked only came into play when I tried to get really hard. When soft I could barely feel them. It wasn't intolerable pain, more of a mild punishment for getting too excited. The spikes also helped dissuade any attempted pull-outs.

After a week locked, Mistress started giving me tasks to do, including sending her video of me edging with a vibrator on the cage but being forbidden to orgasm. It had me writhing on my bed and I was beyond desperate by the end. It was extremely challenging to avoid an accident but I was true to her instructions.

By week two, I felt completely comfortable with the spikes and was moisturising several times a day, but (as it was a clear device) I noticed that the skin around my head was getting rough. I enjoyed the lightness of silicon, so with Mistress's permission I videoed me swapping to a non-spiked Birdlocked.

By week three I was absolutely deep into the experience, the thought of cumming was regularly on my mind - even when doing the most mundane things. Mistress kept me on the edge, saying that I wasn't ready to cum yet. At the end of the third week locked, she rewarded me for my good behaviour, I was allowed to unlock properly and send her a clip of my orgasm. It initially felt so weird, almost like I'd never masturbated before. I tried to make it last but it only took a couple of minutes. That said, it was explosively memorable.

We continued to exchange regular emails and I felt we were building a lovely D/s online relationship. She was also very active on her website and twitter, so even between emails I felt connected. I'd have been happy for this to have gone on for weeks but, when we came out of the first UK lockdown, she messaged to say her family and social diary was getting increasingly busy, and whilst I was welcome to stay locked and keep emailing (for free), she wouldn't be able to reply regularly, monitor me or send tasks to the same extent. I was sad about this but respected her openness, so we agreed amicably to conclude contact.

Her parting message to me was that she felt I would really enjoy experiencing a real-time session in chastity, not to be afraid of this and that nerves were very normal amongst new subs, and that I should seriously consider this for the future. It was brilliant advice, but that's all for the next chapter.

 

Having enjoyed such an intense online chastity experience and been given encouragement that I should not fear approaching a Professional Mistress for a real-time session, I began to search for someone whose interests looked compatible.

N.B. Before I go further, I acknowledge that I am in a minority on CM having a professional as a keyholder - and that in previous threads elsewhere some have expressed this can't be a proper relationship. I hope to share in future posts in fact how rewarding this has been. I am though not suggesting it can be the same as having a wife or girlfriend holding your key. That would be a dream of mine (guys that have partners who are also into male chastity are so lucky in my eyes!) but, not having such a person to ask, and having enjoyed online so much, it just made sense to go one step further.

Going back to my journey, I started Googling and almost the very first link was to a website that absolutely astonished me. It was an account of a male sub and his experiences locked by his Professional Mistress. It described everything I desired and more. The power exchange, the denial, the glory of release after few weeks locked, the closeness the sub felt to his Mistress. When I then clicked on the Mistress's wider website I absolutely melted. She was stunningly beautiful, articulate and intelligent, and described more of a psychological style of domination, rather than one based on discipline and pain. This was backed up with a huge range of photos and videos of her with clients, plus more vanilla interviews on Youtube, so there was no doubt this was very real and not fake.

I took a while to build up the courage to email Mistress. I was very much in awe of her and worried that I wouldn't have the courage to go through with a first meeting. I approached her very respectfully and explained I was a complete novice, but absolutely loved chastity and wanted to experience real play with someone holding my key and in complete charge. I was open that I had previously had a couple of online chastity relationships.

Mistress was extremely reassuring in her replies. She explained we could have a very relaxing introductory meeting, with no pressure to do anything I wasn't comfortable with, and she was completely fine with me just wanting to test the water. Over the next few weeks, I gradually revealed more about myself by email, my repressed kinks and my fantasies. Eventually we agreed a date for my first session (fortunately I only had just over two weeks to wait). I couldn't stop thinking about it, I was nervous but unbelievably excited.

As this was quite a step forward in my chastity experiences thus far and (if all went well) I could potentially be locked for some time, I decided that I wasn't happy with any of my current devices - mostly as they lacked security. I read so many reviews on CM of custom devices and was initially put off by the cost (and poor customer service reported with some companies) but decided that Male Chastity Now overall had very positive reviews and their Contender model looked the best option. I've written about this elsewhere on CM but it's been an absolutely perfect device. When I first contacted MCN, I was expecting to wait weeks but Mark completed the order very quickly and the cage amazingly arrived in time for my first session. I had a few days to try it out first and was so happy with the results (including overnight). I immediately knew this knocked my other previous non-custom devices out of the ballpark!

With my newly installed Contender, the big day finally arrived... but that's the next chapter.

 

I took a break from my blog for a while but with Locktober 21 now in full swing, I've been motivated to continue (I need to put my pent-up energy to good use!). What follows happened over a year ago, but is still so fresh in my memory....

When the first session with Mistress came round I was her only sub that day, so she said we could take our time and there was no need to feel rushed. One of the great aspects of seeing my Mistress is that she lets the sessions flow, rather than being too rigidly focussed on the clock.

I was very nervous when I walked into Mistress's playspace (I had not done anything this kinky before). But she was so lovely, very kind and quite gentle in many ways at the start. We talked over drinks, with me gradually getting increasingly naked, and that slow approach helped go some way to calm my nerves. She knew how much I was into chastity and was extremely positive when she saw I was already locked.

I was instructed to kneel at Mistress's feet and we started with some gentle foot worship. As I was paying attention to one foot with my eyes closed, I suddenly felt her other foot gently caress me, rubbing up and down beneath and around the sides of my cage. Up to this point, I'd never experienced another person touching my cage and the fireworks going off in my head and heart at this point were magical. Needless to say, I was soon putting the metal bars to the test, and leaking profusely on her foot as she coaxed the emerging drops with her toes. I was instructed to ensure any leakage was cleaned off with my tongue - already another major fantasy fulfilled! This will all I imagine sound so tame to many people on Chastity Mansion but as I was generally quite vanilla before in life, it remains one of the lasting memories of that first day.

During that afternoon we progressed to some light bondage and I experienced being placed on number of items of equipment. I was quite breathless to be immobilised as Mistress had complete freedom to play with my body as she wished. I've never experienced that level of power exchange and surrendering control before. There was no whipping or caning, it was all very sensual and teasing. I could hardly process the sensations from one type of play, before she moved on to another. To say it was heavenly doesn't even come close.

All this play happened whilst caged and there was no permitted orgasm at the end, as I'd only self-locked the day before. I didn't hesitate to book another session before I left. When I handed over my main key (I kept a sealed emergency one), and going home feeling so desperately aroused and horny - and extremely submissive, I knew this was an experience I wanted to have again and again.