Back into Chastity

Would that be so bad?

I think the only reason she checked is to be sure it can be removed in an emergency.

 

So its been 4 months and 2 weeks in chastity and ive noticed a dramatic drop in my arousal level.
I had been very aroused beforehand. Even attempted milking myself a little. Only got a few drops but the sensation was fantastic.
The last few days i have not felt even the slightest arousal. Nothing.
Even watching porn, fatasizing or the usual things that usually make me horney are having no effect.
I remember a few days ago feeling very numb down there. The way i had been sitting or sleeping. Didnt think much if it at the time as i didn't think it lasted long.

Wondering if this lack of arousal is just another stage of long term chastity. This is by far the longest i have been in chastity and definatley the longest without ejaculation.
Will it pass? Or is this what i should expect to be my normal condition now?

Im not complaining. If i have been rendered impotent thats ok. If all of a sudden im super horney again. Thats ok too. Maybe this is just the latest drop on the chastity rollercoaster.

 

Well my arousal level is right back up!

My wife used my face yesterday. Right out of the blue she informed me she wanted to cum. Mid afternoon.
I eagerly knelt between her open legs. On the hard wood floor as she reclined comfortably on the bed. This is my usual location for giving head. It just adds to my submission.

Since she has no Bull currently she has grown her pussy hair back to a full bush. I really noticed it yesterday as it was full daylight. Wow what a difference. She used to be mostly bare down there. Sporting just a small tuft of hair above her pussy. Not the case anymore. I preferred her pussy mostly bald. Nicer to view and to lick. Now it sure looks "natural". It really looks like an unruley mess. Accentuates her opening even more since its all thats still visable. She is still quite stretched out and slack from her previous bulls.

I said i like her pussy bald but its never been my choice and now that she has gone back to a full bush, which she sported before cuckolding me, is actually very arousing.

For years i had begged for her to shave. She wouldnt. Just a bikini line shave.
Once she started to cuckold me with other men she decided to groom herself to please her lovers. Over time she shaved more and more until she was totally bald for one guy. Her last Bull liked the small landing strip but always just looked like a tuft to me.

So she started with a bush while i was still allowed intercourse. Then after i was permanently denied penetration she shaved. Which i never got to experience. Now she is back to a bush which ive been told is here to stay.

So the combination of being allowed to lick her pussy yesterday and the reminiscing of her beautiful bald pussy now hidden from view under all that fur. My cage will be feeling quite tight today.

Oh. i also tried hinting a little during some pillow talk to get an idea of how long i will remain caged and without my own orgasm.
I said someting like "i enjoyed your orgasm .........you got to cum and i cant even get an erection ".
She wasn't too impressed with what i said. She responded with "are you whining? "
I backtracked quickly and apologized.

One more week and i will have reached 5 months in chastity. No release. No removal. No cum.

 

Yes permanent has definitely occured to me. Started as a fantasy now more and more seems to be possible. Have very mixed emotions on being permanently in chastity.
The fantasy is very hot. I love the frustration of denial but also really like playing with myself and of course cumming.

The cuckolding is a long story but basically we both had the same fantasy but kept it hidden from each other. Our sex life stagnated. I was never abke to satisfy her and spent too much time looking and jerking off to porn. Ive always had a very small penis and very poor stamina. She had an affair. Thats when we put all our cards on the table and embraced cuckoldry.
Our marrage has never been better.
As for being cut off from intercourse that was another of my fantasies and it seemed a natural progression in cuckolding. As chastity was a progression from cuckoldry.
She wanted to cut me off since intercourse was always disappointing for her with me especially once she had experienced good sex from the other men.
We have both been very happy with all this. Has its ups and down and its struggles but overall its been great.
If permanent chastity is in my future im sure it will just kind of evolve as did everything preceeding it.

 

So a quick update.
My wife was texting with her estranged Bull a couple of days ago.
They had a very seductive and arousing chat based on her reaction afterwards.
I got to eat a lot off pussy after she was done with him.
She was so turned on she had me licking her ass again. I swear she had more orgasms from that compared to while i was liking her pussy.

One thing that came out of their conversation was he suggested to my wife i remain caged until we return home in the spring. That i should stay caged until he has fucked her and left a big creampie for me to clean up.
She was totally on board with that idea.l
At least now i have an idea how much longer i will be in chastity.
If we return as planned for the end of April i will have been locked in our HT Nano for 8 months with No release and No cumming.

 

5 Months!

Not much to report but ive just passed the 5 month mark......No release, No touching, No cumming.

 

The fact that our bull has contributed makes all this even Hotter!
Hopefully he can participate more this year than the last few.

Overall im quite happy with how things are. I just try to post the reality of my chastity and how different levels are achieved over time. This isnt a fantasy thread like so many others. Its my honest journal.

He got my wife super horney while her texting with him that night so i got the pleasure of servicing her orally. What could be better than that?

I find chastity has a very similar dynamic to cuckoldry. A constant battle between two opposing desires.
I actually chatted with him myself the next day and suggested that perhaps instead of being released and allowed to jerk off or something similar., a prostate milking while i remained cage might be more exciting.
That way i remain caged, maybe permanently, but still allowed some relief without a real orgasm.
These things are ultimately all up to my Wife.

 

Shower wand and soap. Simple.

 

I hope i was able to answer these questions when we spoke in the chat room.

 

Minor update.
Been super horney lately especially yesterday.
Feeling very frustrated and aroused.
Very desperate for any type of stimulation. More so than wanting an orgasm.
Been playing with my ass quite a bit which has been enjoyable, seems to be quite sensitive now and loving the sensation.
I have also started to insert flexable things down my urethra. Actually quite painful at times but stimulating at the same time. Besides the physical stimulation, the mental aspect of being stimulated by penetration of my ass and penis itself is very arousing and pleasurable. A penis is designed to penetrate not Be penetrated.

Still no orgasm or erection for 5 months and 2 weeks.

 

Finally..... a WET DREAM!!!

Its been 182 days since the HT Nano was locked in place and a week of edging preceeded that.
Just before waking this morning i was having a normal dream that turned sexual.
Soon i was cumming in my dream which woke me up enough that i realised i was ejaculating in the real world.

Made a Huge Mess in my shorts. Thankfully they are the type with a liner so only a very small wet spot very low between my legs is visable. My wife as already up before me so i was able to get to the bathroom to clean up.

The wet dream was enjoyable but short lived and has left me kinda exhausted. Feel very lathargic this morning.

Today is the 23 of Feb and the 25th is 6 months in chastity.

 

6 Months in Chastity!!!

Never thought i would remain locked this long.
Usually 2 - 3 months at a time.

Not really sure what to post today but wanted to mark the day somehow.

Its definitely an up and down journey but the longer im locked and denied the more i want to stay this way.
At this point i honestly thing Permanent Chastity is the proper path going forward.