The break in

Nice. It's quite a realization.

 

I have been interested in purchasing a shock collar for Goddess to use as a corrective tool. I have read that the shock can be anywhere from almost unnoticeable to excruciating. Being that you have one that you know does the trick, would you mind sharing which one it is? I'd love to be able to get a usable one on my first purchase.

 

Thank you! And yeah, I seem to be on a mission to enthusiastically pursue things I'm likely to regret. I just hope that I love regretting them.. Your story so far is exciting, inspiring, and terrifying. Good luck, and please continue updating!

 

I seem to be on this path too. It's extremely paradoxical to me - the eagerness with which we seek out these things that we end up somewhat regretting. I just gave my wife a copy of a chapter of an ebook regarding the essence of control in a chastity/keyholder relationship and she's just had some revelations based on our past attempts at both chastity and FLR - now she's laid down some (more) laws... My life is changing faster than I ever anticipated, and I both love and hate it lol.

 

Interesting.
Good luck.
I join those voice stating that the first 21 days will probably be the most challenging but this is something you already mastered in the past.

kist another thought: it is also self-inflicted “pain” or some kind of abstinence for her too, unless penetrative sex is not import to her or she Cuckholds you.

 

Some fantasies are unbelievably amazing when they finally become reality.

Other fantasies make you second guess when they become reality and you wish you had never brought them up in the first place but because of your perpetual state of horniness you couldn’t help but disclose your most deeply rooted kinks to your KH/Mistress.

In the end you are one of the lucky ones. Why you might ask? Because there is an abundance of guys looking for a female dominant, but very few women who are actually willing to take the leap.
On the contrary, there is a lot of males who are just in it for their own selfish reasons and to get a quick fix.
My advice to you, be thankful that your KH is so committed and make it your goal to please Her in every way. Your reward will follow. Hang in there bro!

 

Awesome update, congratulations! A few weeks ago Goddess told me I would be going 3 months orgasm free. It was hard to tell if she was serious or not. I have had a couple ruins since then, most recently today where she toyed with the idea that I may be going 6 months or even a year without a full O. Again I can't tell how seriousl she is! I'm not sure what's worse, 3 months of nothing, or 6 months (or more) of ruins only. Both are a really long time (at least to me.) Hey BTW, have you had a chance to check the model of your shock collar? Thanks again!

 

Has milking been introduced?

 

I am curious, is your wife having her own relief?, I know you are getting teased and hense attention which is great. What is your wife using for sex, wand? strap on? your mouth?

I am watching this with interest...I am flat out going 2 weeks and my mind starts fucking with me, the longest I have gone was 3 weeks (remotely) and I was begging to come out, but that was with little or no teasing.

I am curious to try what you are doing but also terrified.

At least here you have a great support network. We know what your going through. I know what is like to feel like there is a billiard ball up your arse, even though its mostly mental, an addiction craving.

keep us updated.

 

Perfect, your a lucky guy to get that much attention.

I no longer have sympathy for you ....lolol

 

Part of me envies you, I want to experience exactly what you are experiencing. Part of me is also terrified for when it actually happens. But you definitely have my sympathy. As for me, Goddess cracked and gave me a mindblowing orgasm yesterday, so neither 3 months caged nor 6 months of ruins is happening (yet). I both loved the O and wish it didn't happen. Goddess just isn't quite there yet, but her confidence and dominance are slowly growing, so I'm pretty sure it's only a matter of time. Hang in there, you're 1/3 of the way through, and more than anything, try to remember to be grateful. You got what you wished for! Good luck, and I hope it gets easier for you as the more experienced ones say it will

 

I was joking about having no sympathy...I was climbing the walls this week for some action after just 10 days, mistress announced we would be having sex on Tuesday and I was wondering if I was going to be allowed to come. I was allowed to, and it was mind blowing, they always are after being locked up. I wondered how I would have faired if she had of told me not to, so yes I really do have sympathy for you. 2 weeks is fairly common for us but really usually average every 10 days.

We spun a chance wheel, with 3 day increments from 6 days to 24 days with heavy weighting in the middle. I drew "at least 12 days" till the next chance of orgasm so was kinda lucky the largest parts of the wheel were 15 and 18. We are planing the next time for the wheel to start at 9 days and end at 27 and so on till we get to 3 months then it will be reset. Listening to you...I really dont know what I have gotten myself into. Of course right now I am flying high, its only been 3 days lol

We dont use a dog collar although the range of them is very impressive, rather a cheap bluetooth Chinese remote zapper which is also very effective over about 50M, I have a stainless steel looker 2, one electrode goes into the urethral tether at the front of the cage, and the other is a conductive rubber ring that sits insulated behind the base ring. We both worth at the same DIY store on the weekends, she works on a upper level and me down the bottom, so she is always on top. She takes great pleasure sneaking around in waiting for me to be serving a lady when she zaps me and watching me try and continue trying to pretend nothing is going on.

I sincerely hope it gets better if only because its probably in my future, but I dont think my mistress is that strict, nor is her sex drive as high as your wife which I think should make it easier for you even if you dont think so..lol. I hope you dont give me an excuse...well he couldnt do it either...lol.

good luck

 

oh fuck me that would be hard one slow thrust....

I know its like you have two brains. One that is cognitive that is you and another that is primal that screams at you, I was telling my partner about it. The primitive brain is quite capable of trying to tell you lies...like you DESERVE to be allowed to cum. Your conscious brain fights back. I hope for your and my sake in the end the conscious one can put the primal one to sleep....which is perhaps why people end up permanently denied just so the primal one isnt re awakened. That said I would never not like to have another orgasm, but like an addiction there can be subsitution. Or at least orgasm differantly maybe.

For me at least i would love to be able be at the complete whim of my partner whith no under lying pressure.

good luck

 

How are things going? You should be right around (or beyond?) your half way mark if my math is adding up correctly. Has it gotten any easier? Harder? Still as daunting? I also wanted to thank you again for your shock collar post and recommendation. I couldn't find the one you mentioned, so I just took a chance on a cheap ebay one. Holy crap that thing is intense! Goddess has taken quite the liking to it. We have had it now almost a week, and any time She thinks I'm out of line, She tells me to go put it on. I get back in line real quick. The other day after a few shocks (each of which made me jump) she laughed almost to tears and said "this is the best thing ever!"

 

haha, that is so true!

It gets to a point where you think it's impossible to function and then it gradually gets easier.

Being very busy helps a lot.

 

I don't know how you guys do it. I start to lose my marbles after only a week.