This is going to be my third journal since discovering the Chastity Mansion back in November 2015, just a few days after putting my Holy Trainer on for the first time. My first Journal, “Complicated Start” details the early days of my journey into chastity and covers many brain farts and frantic issues. My second journal, Love and Denial, https://www.chastitymansion.com/forums/index.php?threads/love-and-denial-year-2.20876/ covered the settling in period, where my Wife, Elle, truly took over as my keyholder and Mistress, and we started thinking about our relationship in terms of an FLR. I don’t know what this journal will cover. Things are certainly more settled than they were that first year, but that doesn’t mean we don’t still have issues and problems. Currently those problems are more to do with transitioning to an FLR than anything to do with chastity. This year I have had four full orgasms, the year before five. I know what it feels like to go months at a time between having an orgasm and would honestly not choose to give up those feelings. Accepting all of the expectations that come with an FLR however, that is another matter. Things this journal probably won’t cover are various fantasies that seem to accompany some people’s ideas of chastity. It is highly unlikely that there will be any edging over the next year, nor any talk of sissification or cuckolding. Elle likes me wearing panties, but not all the time and she hasn’t thrown away all my male underwear. She has no interest in having sex with anyone else thank you very much, and pegging isn’t something that does much for her at the moment. The amount I write about the sex we do have has reduced from my early posts, mostly due to how repetitive the posts seem to me. I am still giving Elle Yoni massages, she had one earlier this evening and enjoyed it very much. It was different to earlier Yoni massages in that she no longer asks if I want to give her one, she tells me that I will. I am also much better at them, having had a good amount of practice. But a Yoni massage is a Yoni massage. I might go into detail to let anyone interested know how bloody amazing an experience they are, but then again I might not. The thing is I am still very much a beginner in all this chastity stuff. I love what it has done for Elle and me. I wish we had started much, much sooner but realise we probably wouldn’t have got to where we are now if we had not had the same life experiences or issues that helped us get to this point. I do think I have to make one thing absolutely clear about why I wear a chastity device. As far as I am aware I am pretty unique, I would love to be proven wrong and find someone else who started for the same reason as we did, but so far I haven’t heard of anyone like me. Skip the next few paragraphs if you are easily made to feel queasy... Back in September 2015, with Elle’s permission, I modified my penis. I split my glans almost completely in two, vertically. It would be impossible for me to have a PA piercing as there is nothing for it to go through. I had intended getting an ampallang piercing but before that happened Elle saw what I had done and freaked. The reality of what it looked like was very different to what she had expected. For three days I honestly thought I had lost her, that she would demand a divorce. At this point we had been married for 25 years. She is my best friend and I would never do anything to hurt her. I had seen chastity devices on Tumblr femdom blogs and offered to wear one as a way of covering up the split glans. Elle agreed and, to the surprise of both of us, the chastity lifestyle we now live developed. We didn’t start this because Chastity was a fantasy either of us had, in fact the idea of going a week without an orgasm, let alone five months, wasn’t something I had really thought about. I still remember how excited I got that first time she locked me into a device. I still don’t understand why I got excited, in the same way I don’t understand why I get excited when she says no, you can’t cum, or no, you can’t masturbate. All I know is I get excited and my response to her control turns Elle on. All I know is I am excited to see what year three brings.