New sissy needs mistress for permanent girl training!

I am a 21 year old boy, but when it comes to sex I want to be a girl. The feeling I get when I dress up like a girl and do naughty things is incredible. I am a virgin, and have only ever orgasmed while wearing lingerie/girl clothing, or thinking of doing so (purged all girlie stuff many times, but I always come back!). I get really horny, and leak precum like crazy whenever I think of buying/wearing bras, thongs, corsets, and other cute things. I always fantasize about being a girl and sucking off like 20 guys and swallowing all of their cum. It drives me CRAZY. But, after I orgasm I seem to lose all desire to do so for a while. I don't like this, because like I said, the feelings I get before orgasming are just amazing. So, I have decided to use chastity to control my male urges. I have purchased the CB-6000s chastity device, and have left the key in a locker over 30 minutes away. Because I won't be able to orgasm the male way, I'll have to do it like a girl - by taking my 8" dildo in my ass. In the past when I have used a dildo, I have had absolutely incredible, body shaking orgasms while also using my hand to touch my front at the same time. But not this time. I will have ZERO access to my guy parts, so will have to be a 100% girl when it comes to pleasuring myself. I hope that eventually, I will ONLY be able to orgasm by receiving anal.

I would love to find a mistress to control me. I would love to do consensual blackmail, giving ALL of my information (SS#, d.o.b., driver's license, all contacts, all bank information), and signing over 100% control to her. I can then be forced to do all of the things I TRULY want to, but am too afraid to on my own. My ideal mistress would have me in chastity 100% of the time, MAYBE allowing release like once every 3 months or so, but maybe not if I do not do every single thing she says perfectly, like for example swallowing every drop of cum from any penis she sends my way. I would love to be tickle tortured for hours, or have my little testicles tortured with electro stim . Another fantasy: On my first day with my new mistress she will surprise me after dressing me up by kicking me between my legs as hard as she can. As I open my mouth to scream, she shoves an entire bar of soap in my mouth, puts my arms behind my back in an arm cincher, and pushes me to the floor. She then goes over to where my wallet is, and threatens to max out all of my cards on her own purchases if I open my mouth and let the soap fall out EVEN A SINGLE TIME the entire evening. Let the CBT and strapon fun begin...

I wish I had a mistress who would keep me in chastity FOREVER. As long as she arranges cock for me to suck dry, and will tickle torture me, CBT torture me, and fuck me with a strapon, I would do WHATEVER she wants.

I live in Appleton, WI. See some pics of me:

https://fetlife.com/users/1642664/pictures

 

Come on! I am so horny I feel like my head is going to explode