cute_chastity_sissy

I am a 21 year old boy, but when it comes to sex I want to be a girl. The feeling I get when I dress up like a girl and do naughty things is incredible. I am a virgin, and have only ever orgasmed while wearing lingerie/girl clothing, or thinking of doing so (purged all girlie stuff many times, but I always come back!). I get really horny, and leak precum like crazy whenever I think of buying/wearing bras, thongs, corsets, and other cute things. I always fantasize about being a girl and sucking off like 20 guys and swallowing all of their cum. It drives me CRAZY. But, after I orgasm I seem to lose all desire to do so for a while. I don't like this, because like I said, the feelings I get before orgasming are just amazing. So, I have decided to use chastity to control my male urges. I have purchased the CB-6000s chastity device, and have left the key in a locker over 30 minutes away. Because I won't be able to orgasm the male way, I'll have to do it like a girl - by taking my 8&quot; dildo in my ass. In the past when I have used a dildo, I have had absolutely incredible, body shaking orgasms while also using my hand to touch my front at the same time. But not this time. I will have ZERO access to my guy parts, so will have to be a 100% girl when it comes to pleasuring myself. I hope that eventually, I will ONLY be able to orgasm by receiving anal.<br /><br /><br />I would love to find a mistress to control me. I would love to do consensual blackmail, giving ALL of my information (SS#, d.o.b., driver's license, all contacts, all bank information), and signing over 100% control to her. I can then be forced to do all of the things I TRULY want to, but am too afraid to on my own. My ideal mistress would have me in chastity 100% of the time, MAYBE allowing release like once every 3 months or so, but maybe not if I do not do every single thing she says perfectly, like for example swallowing every drop of cum from any penis she sends my way.