New Journey

3 days with the cage on. I like it. Feels comfortable except when nocturnal erections (attempted) appear at 3 or 4 am. The duration is helping me train my mind. I like that I have no control over release.

 

True. What I am also finding is that I am getting better control of my thoughts. I sit and watch TV and start thinking of licking Sevens boots and hearing her commands - which I have experienced.. The cage tightens, and discomfort gets intense. I get my mind off of those thoughts by doing housework or by focusing on some other task.
If I go to the gym and meet a woman I know - an attractive woman who looks great in yoga pants - I concentrate on what’s she’s saying and keep focus on her eyes. Otherwise, discomfort again. When she walks away, I make sure my eyes are on my next station only.

Centering on erections and masturbation is being replaced by productivity and respecting people a bit more - all because I’m getting better control of my mind. I feel better about that.

 

Just a few more days before my trip back east. I have not had a cage on for this long. Very happy.

 

Wonderful sessions - 3 of them - with Goddess Seven. She unlocked me in the last one. Been out of the cage since. That’s fine. Need the rest.

 

I love being a loyal follower to a strong, smart and confident woman.

 

Locked myself up for a few days. When the cage is comfortable, no pinching, etc. it feels great!

may visit Seven in a few months. Looking forward to that. Just bought her some boots - legit boots for everyday wear.

 

Still locked. I saw a dominatrix in Stl. Excellent experience. First time I saw her, s a bit of learning each other. She is sincere

thigh high boots, corset. whips and canes. I hated that painful, and I hate pain. But she made her point and established dominance. Took the vibrator to my caged balls while I was tied to her bed I exploded. She forced me to eat. Never did that before. Thought it was over. But it wasn’t. She cuffed me. Left the room to watch tv. Told me when she returned I’d better be on my knees. Still caged but having been given relief, no excitement. Just fear. I did what she said. It was a while on knees. I made some pledges to her. Cleaned her boots Left in cage.

That’s what I’m thinking about this morning. Scrolled through my post at saw a pic of @Mistressmandi812 / what a gorgeous woman! Sincere. I wished I hadn’t posted that pic.

 

Good morning

Locked myself up. I got the key. I put the spikes on the CB - I want too see how long I can last with them on.

I don’t be able to see Seven for a while . Maybe a long while. She’s out of country. So this is my only entertainment.

 

Very comfortable

 

No. I wore them for three days. Longest ever. Worked out well.

In the past, spikes have limited my activity during the day. Jogging,, long walks etc. Rubbing had started, then pain. Pain like sores.

This time I did not use a spacer. So the spikes fit a little looser on the device. I think that allowed for less rubbing. I still felt them when trying to have an erection, but there seemed to e less overall rubbing.

but if I had a live in key holder, maybe she’d want me to use the spacer - limit my activity to housework or something.

at any rate, it was a good three day outcome. Next week I’m going for longer.

 

The spikes were effective 8n the last three day lock up. Night time erections made is painful - I can’t control those. That’s a nice reminder.

during the day, I avoid erections by doing chores around the house. I start thinking of Seven or another woman, erections are attempted. Pain. So I get up and start on the dishes, laundry or vacuuming. I soon focus on those tasks and not Seven.

between lock ups I rest. I currently don’t have a keyholder, so not following any commands or guidance. No expectations to meet. It’s a bummer, but it is what it is.

I get the urge to lock myself up, and when I do I try to set records in terms of days locked up

 

I doubt it. No big deal. This is the online world, so need to tread carefully.

I did notice today someone had a posted a chastity mansion ticker earlier. I sent a message to Lucy to find out more about it. That may intensify my self locking.

 

Locked up again. Going with biggest spikes. Going for four days.

 

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Had to unlock. Spikes - the side of them - were rubbing. Not a discomfort due to attempted erection - just rubbing that became painful. I had visions of sores developing.

I have no idea how to stop or delete the ticker. Like the effort to develop it, but it could be more user friendly.

 

Taking the summer off

 

I’m back on line. Good summer. Lots of time around ball diamonds.

a little wiser now in all of this. I’d like to hook up with some folks from the past who were exceptional people, even to me who was aimless. We’ll see if it happens.

 

To be clear, there is only one person I want to reconnect with - @Mistressmandi812

I have had a lot of time to reflect this past summer. ( I threw away my CB devices - too painful on the bruising and sore side of things ). I’ve thought about a lot of this lifestyle with a clearer and more objective mindset. The result - MistressMandi has been in my thoughts everyday. I can’t stop thinking about Her. Absolutely incredible woman! You’ve seen her pictures, so you know her beauty. But I know first hand there is no one more sincere, smart, and engaging the she is. No one more skilled at forcing men to grovel, and humiliate themselves. I want to serve her - and met Her definition of service.

chastity is a Narcissistic thing - just check posts on any forum. Guys lock themselves up and demand women to focus on them.

that’s not me anymore. I’m going to empty my mind and keep things private. If Goddess Mandi will have me back, I will only speak when spoken to. She is the only one - if Goddess does not have me back, then I’m done for good.

if she takes me back, I’ll need to get a good comfortable cage - mature metal is what I’ll looking at now. 8 weeks order time. But first things first.

 

please Goddess. Please accept me

 

Goddess Mandi is such a beautiful woman!!!