I just locked myself in. Not for the first time, but the first time under orders. And for what will be a long time, for me. I'm sure it's not for plenty of members here, but it is for me. I've been playing with Chastity for years, but never for more than a few hours, or overnight. I've gone out of the house locked only a few times. I've even played with my girlfriend (and some previous boyfriends - I am bisexual) while locked. But only temporarily. My girlfriend currently lives abroad, we see each other every couple of weeks. We have an amazing relationship and I"m very lucky. I've been kinky for years; she's been learning. I was always sub before I met her, now I switch with her. But she has a growing domme streak, for certain. This time, when we said goodbye, she told me that when I got home I had to lock myself in, and stay locked until she comes to me, in eleven days time; next Thursday. I used one of the plastic numbered locks I've never used before. I have to send her a photo every day. I usually masturbate a lot. We have sex every day when we're together. I watch a reasonable about of porn when we're not. As I said, I've never gone more than a few hours in chastity before; I rarely go more than 24 hours without ejaculating. This is going to be interesting. I'll keep reporting back. Comments and questions are more than welcome. J
Day One... I had a lot of heavy lifting to do today, all kinds. A colleague - a friend - came round to talk about work, I went out and ran some errands. Later, I moved a sofa half-way up a staircase (it's now stuck half-way, deal with that later) and then hired a van, drove across town, picked up another sofa, drove it home, carried it up two flights, assembled it. Locked the whole time. Hi, this was my day. Earlier in the day I had half an eye on my side of the web: fetlife, tvchix, recon, yahoo messenger. I downloaded the Ivey Green book someone else here wrote about, planning to send it to my girlfriend. I downloaded some other stuff too. Normal kinky web activity when working from home. It was fun, getting a little excited, reminding myself I couldn't do anything about it. Is a good feeling. I'm pretty highly sexual, I know that. The biggest thought I have about chastity at the moment is not that I can't come, but that I can't go out and have sex with anyone. I haven't done, in the two years I've been with my girlfriend, although we talk all the time about possibilities. It wouldn't be a deal breaker if I did, we play around. But I used to, like to think I still can. Right now, I can't. I've put a lock on, which is a promise to her. It wasn't supposed to be entirely about that, but it feels all about her right now. My reward for this - apart from the sofa - was that she texted to say she'd decided to make herself come, at least once a day, every day I couldn't. To the nastiest stuff she could. Today it was, and I quote, "Hardcore public humiliation gay kind of attack thing... Lots of cock in mouth tied up beaten and whimpering right up your street". She knows me well.
Day Two.. Sometimes, it's not like it's there at all; other times, it's all I can think about. It both heightens my sexuality at all times - I mean, how can you not think about sex when you're constantly feeling yourself move inside a little cage? - and kills it: I can't get hard, I know this, I move on. Sometimes I feel more focussed on work and life than ever before. I had to cycle; that wasn't so fun. Or it was, but I don't like public exposure; I assumed everyone knew by the weird way I rode my bike, or maybe my panties were riding up at the back. This was one of those constant feelings times. And tonight, I cammed, and at times like this it's like my cock disappears, and my whole body is my sex. That is the best, that's why I like this. What Anita Phillips says in "A Defence of Masochism" (I'm paraphrasing): what bdsm does, is it extends the realm of eroticism from the genitals across the whole body. We embody sex. By locking up the genitals, the sex organs, everything becomes genital, becomes sex.