Well, where do I start? I’m 44, single, submissive, masochistic, and I have always longed to be a “Kept In Chastity Sissy Cuckold.” I have a great attraction for strong feminine woman who wear lingerie, hot feminine styles and to the open public appear to be harmless or what have you. However, in the bedroom and to thoughs who know her well, she love to be incharge. Sadly, my last FLR was a disaster because, while I know I was supposed to be submissive to my Mistress and serve her desires. None of my needs as a submissive were never really met. She never wore stockings, would nor let me cross dress, and being locked in chastity was out of the question. Later, she left me for a dominant man and they was when I learned, she was not the Mistress I thought she was. I have up for a while, tried the vanilla scene, but felt I was lacking the satisfaction of serving. Now, I’m left to wonder... can a submissive find happiness in serving a dominant woman without giving up his fetishes and needs as well? That is were I am now in my exploration. Sadly, I’m 44... not a young man anymore and it seems women my age are over this lifestyle. I fear, I have lost out on every getting to really know what a truly loving and mutually fulfilling FLR can really be. Still it is what I long to find and so here I am...
Really sorry to hear. I just had a breakup myself and was wondering some of those same things. But one thing for sure, no, i don't think you're ever too old.
Thanks dude. Sorry for your break up. She’s out there, your Queen. Just I know mine is. We just have to have faith, right?
I wouldn't say faith exactly but a positive outlook can go a long way. Take this time to reflect on your last relationship. What went right, what went wrong, what would you change and what do you want now? I think you're in the right place to start.
I have to be honest, that does not sound like the desires of a submissive man, but of someone looking to top from the bottom. But anyway, welcome, and good luck with your search.
I'm sorry Hoorndrager but he isn't completely wrong. Is it possible you were asking too much? Is it possible you were incompatible from the beginning? I'm not saying one way or the other, only you know. As I said earlier, breakups are time for self reflection.