I'm going to get desperate soon!

I was hoping to hold off until Feb 24, so 10 more days.

But I’m ligitly feeling ill right now.

 

Okay, I think I know what’s going on and it’s not at all what I thought it was…

I’m leaving work early and I’m calling out a couple days because I now have symptoms of the flu. That’s why I’m feeling ill right now. So, my activity will be limited for a little while.

I’ll see how I’m doing in a few days.

 

I’m feeling better… Going back to work today.

I noticed something. My work schedule came out for the next 3 weeks and it turned out, next weekend, not the upcoming one, would be better for me to get release, so I added another week to my keyfob timer. So my new release day will be on March 2. That’s a total of six weeks. I’m already past 4 whole weeks without orgasm and my balls are so full and heavy… I can’t imagine what they’ll feel like after six weeks. Part of me is terrified but I feel more “excited” than afraid at this point.

I never thought I’d love having blue balls so much, but I do… I think I’m addicted to it.

 

Thanks Jay!

 

I woke up in the middle of the night again wanting out of my cage... I wanna jerk off and get relief so bad right now!

 

Normally I prefer to be behind the sales counter at work, but I'm glad I wasn't today... I was so horny all day and I had a serious urge during the last hour of my shift. I had to stop what I was doing for about 20 minutes and get a glass of water to help me calm down and regain my focus. I hope tomorrow will be a better day.

 

I'm pretty sure it is... I mentioned in another thread that I prefer to be at work rather than at home at this point because there's always something physical to do there, so it helps... I think I'm getting a little depressed that I can't jerk off, but I think I can remedy that constantly reminding myself that this is what I wanted and nobody forced me into it. I think it also comforts me that I can pull the plug on this session any time I need to, but it hasn't gotten to that point... Yet.

 

I think I'm still getting those peaks and troughs, because I'm now over a month without orgasm and the other day I was dying to get out of my cage... Yesterday and this morning, I'm just not feeling it.

 

Thanks Jay. I appreciate that.

 

I do intend to get to the 3 to 4 month timeframe but I don’t think I can do it just yet… I’m trying to get there with progressively longer sessions along the way.

 

Thank you. That means alot to me.

 

Something weird just happened... I felt a bit of a cramp in my pelvis for a second, less than a minute later a bunch of semen just oozed out of me. Totally caught me off guard, but didn't frighten me any... I'm actually like "WTF? " right now.

 

I had a good night last night. I woke up this morning leaking and horny AF again, but I’m not crying to get out of my cage like I did a few days ago… Instead, I’m enjoying the ache in my balls right now.

I feel like I’m on the edge, so I’m going to grab a few tissues and make a make-shift pad for my underwear. Just in case. If it happens, then it happens. I’m not gonna fight it and ruin a good morning.