As some of you may realize I have been blogging on my own blog, but I don't get much feedback on there,...So I've decided to start copying my blog entries here for some feedback. I'll start by copying all my blogs since the beginning of 2009. If you want to read my earlier, please feel free to go to my blog site.... All comments, support and feedback appreciated.... Oh, and why a roller coaster......well, you'll soon work that out from reading my blogs..... Monday, January 5, 2009 40th Birthday Present Happy New Year All January 2nd was my 40th birthday, but we spent the holiday with family and didn't celebrate in our own way until yesterday (5th). As we were with family I was not in chastity for the holiday period although I had been good and not orgasmed since December 19th. But on Christmas Day my Wife started to tease me every morning and every night and made me promise not to masturbate until we got home and She could lock me back up. I was very good in this respect. So, yesterday (Sunday) comes and my Wife and I wake up at 6.30am and the teasing begins in bed. After about 30 minutes we get up and have breakfast outside watching the sunrise while I am kept naked. After breakfast my Wife locks me to our reclining sofa, arms behind my back and legs apart. A full day of on and off teasing starts. My Wife tells me She is going to tease me all days and will tease me for the next 40 days without allowing me to cum and my 40th birthday present. The only significant time off from teasing was when my Wife went shopping for an hour or so, and She unbound me but had me put my spiked leather locking cock and ball sack while She was out (spikes on the inside. When She returned I was again bound to the sofa and the teasing continued. We had previously talked about my getting 40 spanks from my Wife's whip for my birthday, but I know my Wife has never really shown any enthusiasm for spanking me hard. So in the evening I set up some pillows in the center of the bed and lay across them spreadeagled while my Wife bound my wrists and ankles to the bed. On with the blind fold and gag and my Wife started to give me my 40 spankings. After 10, She stopped to stroke my cock that was pointing down between my thighs bringing me to edge before giving me my next 10 spankings. This continued to 40 when She removed my gag and asked how I was. Being honest I told Her that she was holding back and that She was not spanking me very hard. I knew hard spanking was new to my Wife and I knew She was unsure about this, but to Her credit She grabbed Her whip and started whipping me as hard as She could, occasionally pausing to stroke me cock to the edge before commencing the whipping. She left my gag out and I was pleading with Her to stop but She continued with Her new experience. Finally She stopped and uncuffed my. My ass was was on fire, bright red with several welts. My Wife had learned a new way to keep me in order. So we had dinner and then it was back to the sofa and a couple more hours of teasing. In all I was teased from 6.30am until 11.00pm by which time my cock was struggling to hold an erection but that didn't stop the relentless stroking and edging, my CB6000 went back on for bed, but it was off again this morning for another 45 minutes of teasing before being replaced ready for work. So here I am with balls that feel like oversized lead weights ready to explode and a cock that if aching and throbbing and still at least another 37 days to go. I say at lease since my Wife has made it clear that She may keep me denied for even longer. The present is 40 days of teasing with no orgasm. There is nothing in the present about coming after the 40 days....GULP. I wonder if this will become an annual birthday gift? Tuesday, January 13, 2009 Didn't make it I know this post is a little late but I was away on business last week, and have had the flu. Well, I was going away on business last Wednesday so my Wife was working up to making me suffer with blue balls while away. After an hour or more of teasing we went to bed, and we teased some more, which was a mistake. We were both tired and my Wife had had a drink or 2 and unfortunately the teasing was one stroke to many. So I didn't have blue balls while away on business although I was still locked up. I guess the 40 day target has gone, especially since I've been sick recently. no teasing since last week, but no orgasms either. I've decided that I've topped from the bottom too much so I am gonna sit back and see what my Wife does next without any prompting from me. Thursday, January 15, 2009 Back on track? So now I am on day 9 since our accidental orgasm, and have been locked ever since, with yesterday as my first day of release for some serious catch up teasing. A couple of hours bound to the sofa while my Wife enjoyed our favorite shows on TV, while casually keeping me on edge the whole time. I am aching just as much as ever right now. February 11th was the target date, That would have to be moved back to February 17th to make 40 days without orgasm. My Wife hasn't said when She will let me cum and in my new approach I am not asking,....although I did beg to cum last night (to no avail). I am waiting patiently to see what my Wife intends to do. I am away all next week on business and my Wife is making sure I ache to the maximum before I leave, so that I ache with full blue balls the whole time I am away, securely locked of course! Hopefully we'll have no accidents this time. You may think I would wish for an accident, and of course I could bite my lip while being teased and hope my Wife strokes once too far again without realizing how close I am, but of course we have a contract that says She can stroke me through orgasm and deliver post orgasm torture for as long as She desires, and I am more frightened of being tortured for an unauthorized orgasm and having to go 40 days without an orgasm. If you don't believe me, try stroking yourself for 5 minutes after orgasm one day!!!! Monday, January 26, 2009 Day 20 and counting I thought I would give a brief update. Last week I was away on business (Monday to Friday) and locked in my CB6000 the whole time, which was very frustrating. One thing you learn from being locked 24/7 in a CB with no removal for cleaning is not matter how you wash in the shower or bath, you cannot prevent microbial reaction to sweating and the subsequent odor. To this end I have bought some Neosporan antibacterial cream which I will apply each time I replace my CB to see if that helps keep the odor at bay. So this weekend was a rather intense teasing weekend and I can say that I have never been so desperate to cum in all my days of tease and denial. The worst part is I am only half way through the 40 days as my Wife keeps reminding me as I beg for release. I even beg Her to stop teasing me if I cannot have release, as my cock and balls ache incredibly for an orgasm. What I do not know yet is how I might be allowed to cum, or even if I will be able to cum on day 40, or wait even longer. My Wife has shown a keen interest in post orgasm torture, and I am frightened that She will deem this an appropriate way to finally allow my climax. Although I get extremely turned on my the idea, I also know the reality is excruciatingly painful and I would rather just be allowed to cum with post orgasm teasing. But that is not my decision. So it is 20 days down and 20 to go...... Tuesday, January 27, 2009 And so it continues Well, this is just a quick update as nothing new has happened. More teasing yesterday and yes, I am even more frustrated and aching then I have ever ached before. It's obvious that my Wife is not going to relent until the 40 days is up. After our tease yesterday I washed, shaved and applied neosporan before being locked back up. Tonight, assuming the teasing will continue then, will be the test to see if this has combated the odor issue from being confined in a solid plastic cage. I will of course update my blog with the results. We are going away together next week and my Wife has already told me that we are using the plastic security locks to keep me locked while we travel, and the padlock so that the teasing can continue while we are away.....February 15th seems a very long way away right now. Wednesday, January 28, 2009 Neosporan works.... well, so far. I was released for some serious teasing last night and having applied Neospran before previously putting on my CB I found not even the slightest hint of an odor. The real test will be when I have to go more than 24 hours between tease sessions, but I'm not sure when that will be. My Wife seems intent on maximum teasing right up to day 40. She is getting way too good at this. Last night's tease lasted 2 hours and I was virtually crying at the end. I was so desperate either to cum, or for Her to stop....I didn't mind which at that point, either was better than the intense teasing. Alas, still no orgasm and a completely frustrated and aching cock. Thursday, January 29, 2009 The test.... Well, unexpectedly (by me anyway) my Wife didn't let me out yesterday for a tease session. She asked how I was today as She gave me a break yesterday. I explained that it's like a one way ladder - up only. Every tease takes the frustration and ache to the next step up, but going a day with no release or teasing does not allow you to go down a step. The frustration can only ever increase. But what it does mean is that I am locked up for at least 48 hours with no release and it will be a better test of the Neosporan theory. Hopefully I will get a release tonight and I can see if the Neosporan works for multiple days without release. I can reapply the gel to my head with a q-tip, but it's difficult to reapply to the shaft while locked. I also reapply daily to my balls and any exposed areas that my cb allows. I'll let you know tomorrow. Friday, January 30, 2009 Venting..... ok....I need a little vent time so please bear with me.... Firstly, there was again no teasing yesterday, so I am on day 3 of lock up with no release or teasing whatsoever. This is increasing the test for the Neosporan theory. That's the good part. The bad part is I'm getting a little testy which may just be down the the fact that I am on day 24 of denial. As I have mentioned before I have completely stopped topping from the bottom but am now finding that we are playing less. This is also adding to my testiness. My Wife seems to enjoy our tease and denial but I always knew She enjoyed it because it made me happy. I had always hoped that She would start to explore, read books that I bought Her, research on the web, and become more creative in our play. So far my Wife has not shown any creativity. Anything new we try is because I mention it. The whipping only happened because I laid out all the restraints and Her whip on the bed, and asked Her to whip me. She seemed to enjoy it, and talked about whipping me again, but like most new activities, it hasn't happened again. I feel like telling Her that we should stop role playing. If She is only doing this to make me happy, then I am not happy. I know I have frequently pushed Her beyond Her comfort zone and She has pushed back at times, not wanting to cross that line, and that I accept. But She is not pushing Her boundaries at all and it's becoming stale for me. We'll see what the weekend brings. Maybe if I confront Her with this and say that I feel She is only doing this to please me, and therefore I don't want to play anymore, She may decide to kick it up a notch,...otherwise the role play may be over, but right now I'm not sure if that is a bad thing....we'll see.