Submission, expectations and responsibilities

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    Well seeing as its a new year and other people seem to have new diaries I may as well start a fresh. My sissy training diary really never lived up to its title for one reason or another. Our D/s lifestyle had been through a lot of ups and downs in 2008 but 2009 is time for a fresh start.

    In the past Ive never really made resolutions or plans for the year ahead but I think Im going to look forward this year. My main goals would probably bee vanilla ones such as getting my business of the ground and sorting out my money troubles but beyond that most of my other plans revolve around my submission and feminization.

    For think I would love to do this year is lose some weight. I would look so much more feminine and feel a lot better about myself if I lost some weight. I know Master says he likes me the way I am but I feel that I will never look feminine unless I lose some weight and I really want to work on my feminization this year.

    Also this year Im going to try and not get my hopes up with regards to play and a 24/7 lifestyle. Not because I dont think it will ever happen but because I dont want to put Master under any pressure. I know he has confidence issues and I would prefer us to work through those together before we move on.

    I will try and motivate myself this year with regards to my feminization, I know forced fem would be a lot of fun but I feel that I really would like to feel a lot more fem. I know sure to what end but I have this drive in e to explore my feminine side and try and become more feminine outside of play. This may also help take some of the pressure off of Master.

    Looking forward to sharing my first full year on the site recording the up and downs of a D/s lifestyle (lets hope mostly ups!)

    Hope everyone has a great 2009.

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    :party-075: Hooray for starting a new blog!

    I know you'll be fully fem by the end of the year. Having seen you in vanilla photos as well as en femme, I think you are very pretty! I'm jealous! :anim_48:

    Here's hoping you get all you wish for this year. :anal:
     
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    Thank you Mistress Watchfull. I love the thought that people think I look fem, I'm getting more and more eagar to go out dressed, maybe some time soon.

    What a few day I’ve had. I’m really starting 2009 as I mean to go on. We didn’t have any play yesterday but we had quite an intense love making session. Master really seems to be embracing my feminization, he makes me feel so feminine when I’m riding his big cock. I could feel myself getting very excited and a few times I could feel I was getting close to orgasm. I had to ask Master to stop thrusting a few time.

    I think I’m completely safe out of chastity now. The though of having an orgasm fills me with dread because I know as soon as I cum all feminine feelings would vanish and I would be left with a feeling of guilt. I would like a Neo Steel though not so much for chastity but so I can hide my pathetic sissy clit between my legs. Master says that he has my milking in hand, I did ask for a ruined orgasm at the end of it all as I was sooo horny but he was quite strict and refused.

    Today I bought a new bra and a little Hello Kitty vest top which just happens to go with some Hello Kitty panties I already have. I got another sports bra so I can wear it throughout the day. I got a 38 B and my sissy titts already to fill it out already. I’m pleased with the way they look although I would like them bigger.

    I’m thinking that 2009 will be a good year. Fingers crossed
     
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    Can anyone tell me if a BDSM lifestyle can ever be a reality? I’m not so sure anymore. With all the ups and downs of life is it actually possible.

    It seems as if we haven’t touched our collection of toys in months, I feel like we have had perfect days we’re we could have played but nothing has ever happened, there has always seemed to be some reason why not. I wouldn’t mind if we had some bedroom bondage but I haven’t even seen that. Call me a stropy sissy but we’re all aloud a rant now and again.

    I have followed the rules I do as I’m told usually, especially when Master is being dominant I do exactly as I’m told. I haven’t touched my sissy clit on my own for pleasure in months. I’m selfless with regards to orgasm. I just feel there is something missing.
    I’m probably exsadurating but it feels that play usually entails some kissing Master calling me a sissy gurl and then me sitting on his cock and then bed.

    Arguments usually mean Master and I bouncing at each other until Master gets to the rout of what’s been bugging him, I wouldn’t mind if he told me off or was direct but we seem to have these vanilla arguments which just seem to reinforce that fact that I’m not the submissive.

    I could try and not talk back to Master but it’s hard when he’s in a mood for some reason that he never really alludes to. Eventual when I finally talk some sense he comes out with what’s wrong. For instance Master was doing some tidying today and I was playing on the Play Station something he had done for hours yesterday but he seemed to be in grump (double standards I thought to myself) Then when Master finally told me what was wrong, that he gave the sightless hint of some play time when I had done the kitchen.

    Maybe I should have read the hint as an order but I don’t think like that. An order to me is an order and a hint is more of a vanilla suggestion. Now it would seem that any play today has been thrown out of the window even though it’s only 6 and I have now done the kitchen.

    I’m not sure where this is leading I could just feel something brewing inside of me. If I’m to be submissive I need a dominant who can control me and give me clear direction. I can’t respond to hints that can be at best cryptic at times and not at all dominant.

    Maybe if it’s too much too soon for both of us we need to back off and have some bedroom bondage play or maybe just Master making love to me when he’s horny.
    Not sure what this would mean to me, my sex drive hardly even kicks in without some dominance over me. This is no reflection of how I feel about Master I find him sexy and love him very much but my arousal threshold has always been high even before and BDSM or play.

    I’m going to leave it there for now. Master will more than likely read this shortly and then think I’m having a go and calling him a shit Master. When in reality I’m just expressing feelings. Sometimes it’s hard to talk to Master without him taking everything very personally, this means it can be hard to share an opinion.
     
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    This sounds like a nice choice, krissi! Dollyanne needs to look into this too--a size B sports bra might looks just right, and dolly is a 38 too! The Hello Kitty panties are also a nice touch! Very sissy and sweet! Dolly bets you look really hot in them!

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    I've considered a sports bra too, but I would only let myself wear it when I cycle as a reward for a good workout. I bet you feel so girly and sexy when you wear it. And with your cute hello kitty shirt it must be so feminizing. I bet it makes you feel like a chaste but sexy teenager you lucky girl you!
     
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    Well krissi, it's not unusual for a gurl to have wants that go unfulfilled - it's part of being a gurl. One way to think about it - it is a reward when you are given that much attention.

    But life does intercede upon play time. And it does take both of you to find the time and energy. You can help matters though - try dressing in something sexy that Master loves to see you in - lingerie perhaps - painted and perfumed and crawling to him on your hands and knees. You can be a seductress - just takes a little effort... It's a very feminine approach to an old, old problem sweety.


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    Thank you for you’re kind comments Dolly Anne and Lauren. Also thank you for your advice Miss D.

    Yes I know, I spat my dummy out a bit, I just felt as if all these feelings we’re brewing up inside me, us sissies don’t always just think pretty dresses and sexy lingerie all of the time, well at least I don’t hehe :anim_35:.

    My post did open up some useful conversation between Master and I though. We both agreed that we could be doing things better. Master’s main problem seems to be confidence something I think MW and Master should get together an chat about. My problem is probably too high expectations, I have this vision of me wondering around in a maids outfit all day and then spending a couple of hours a day playing.

    In the end though we did end up having some amazing play last night. I don’t see why Master has any problem with his confidence, he made a good go of things last night and was quite creative.

    He cuffed me to the bed , put a hood over my head and blindfolded me, he then tease me for what seemed like hours. Playing with my sissy tits, occasionally he would hold his hand over my mouth and make me struggle for breath whilst he played with my clittty, which just made me want to moan all the more. He brought me to the edge or orgasm many times, before I had to tell him I was close but once he inserted a dildo into my sissy pussy and rubbed my testis I couldn’t stop my sissy cummie pouring out.

    After he had played with me for a while he decided enough was enough and he inserted his cock into my sissy pussy whilst the dildo was still in there, this just made me dribble even more sissy cummie, which he then fed to me.

    I hope this was just a taste of what Master can do, grrrrowl.
     
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    I think we all definitely need a good confidence workshop! :haha4:

    I do know how your Master is feeling on a lot of levels, sometimes I'm worried pet won't react well to an order, sometimes he just doesn't take me seriously. Maybe some kind of more obvious, physical signal is necessary. Or a specific "word". Something vanillaish so that it can be used to remind you of your place in public.

    Of course, after a while, it won't be necessary, but in these early days it will help to get the "I'm serious and I'm in charge" message across.

    Not sure how it would work. Click of the fingers, tap of the hip?

    When we had the "bratty in public" issue, I thought that touching my opposite shoulder with my opposite hand (if that makes sense) would be a signal to pet that he should behave or pay me more attention. Like brushing my shoulder, something that I don't do regularly, but wouldn't seem obvious to anyone not looking for it.

    Ok - I'm off on a mad ramble now! Lol.
     
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    whether in private or in public whenever an order from Mistress is not taken seriously or obeyed quickly enough i get "the look". A/anyone who has children knows how to do it. it is very effective for me and i know i will be punished later just because Mistress had to use it.
     
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    Oh yes I know the look. Master does have a look he gives me and as soon as he does I know I've been bad. Sometimes I don't think he feels confident enough to use it though.
     
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    Felt like a got a lot done today, I had my last appointment with the psychosexual clinic this morning. I think Im at a stage now where Im comfortable with myself for the time being, Im not at a stage were I would like to take things any further so Im going to strive for more of an androgynous look, I think I would be comfortable with this.

    Made a start on the garden also (if you can call it that) We live in a 1st floor flat so have a modest front garden. I ripped all the horrid bushes out with Masters help and laid down a base layer of soil ready for compost and then eventually fresh turf. We will only have a postage stamp lawn but with my expertise I will make sure its golf green quality. It will come in handy also to let the dog out quickly during my lunch break so he doesnt have to go so long between toilet breaks.

    After the garden was done Master and I did our own thing for a bit, Im playing Sim City 4 again, Im so addicted and Master was playing Fall out 3 which is another great game, I dont play it all that much as Master hogs the Play station, it is his after all.

    After playing on the computers and then having dinner Master looked as if he was settling down to watch TV. I didnt really want to watch TV and seeing Master had had a day of I decided to pounce and get him all hot. He took a bit of persuasion but I finally got him round.

    Eventually I got my way and was ordered to change in to some frilly panties before getting in the cage. I cheekily brought back with me a head gag and a collar, which Master gladly put onto me.

    I got into the cage and Master padlocked the doors shut. I sat around for a bit, occasionally Master would tease my sissy tits or try to kiss me knowing full well I had a full head gag on, this just wound me up even more.

    After a while the gag got too uncomfortable so I gesture that I wanted to take it off. Master agreed and then took the opportunity to put his cock through the bars and ordered me to suck. I think it must have driven him a bit whild because he quickly ordered me to drop my panties and push my sissy pussy up against the bars he then proceeded to ease his cock into my pussy.

    If felt so good, I felt like Masters sex object. It was great. Once Master was finished he let me out and we had a little cuddle. I do hope we can use the cage again soon. I could easily last a few hours comfortably in it. As you will see from the pic its only a cage we got from a pet store, designed for large dogs but it beats paying 500 to 1000 for a purpose built cage. Well definitely be adding a proper one to our list. For now Im happy being Masters pet in a cage fit for a pet.

    After I was let out I felt so horny, being imprisoned seem to put me right into my sub space, but at the same time I started to have selfish thoughts so I requested to be put back in my CB. Im getting to a point where Im not sure if I could control myself.

    The sub space feels great though. This is how I want to feel on more of a long term basis. I can feel myself being so much more loyal. Master seems to have no problem giving me orders when I am like this.

    Im going to give all control of my CB and therefore my clitty to Master. I think its about time I gave up control of my clit so then Master may feel that he has more control over me.
     
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    I'm glad you had a great evening. :manga_cloud9:
     
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    Today has been pretty quite so far, haven’t got much in the way of work done, the weather isn’t really helping, the ground is either frozen solid or bogy. Luckily I had PC to fix for a friend, I think her son has been going on porn sites, this is the second time I fixed it in 12 months, good thing she usually offers me some beer money.

    Last night just before bed Master and I had a little more action. I was sooo horny and Master seemed to be up for some more too. It began with some kissing and a bit of foreplay and then I pulled Master on top so he could make love to me.

    The love making was amazing, I felt so horny, I keep asking Master to stop because I could feel that my sissy clit was ready to explode and I really didn’t want to cummie. I also wanted Master to remain horny for a little longer as I love it when we talk dirty and I feel I can express my desires more easily.

    I was so deep into my subspace it was intense. I wanted to do anything I could to prove to Master how submissive I could be, I even suggested branding, probably not a sensible suggestion in hindsight, but I just felt I wanted to prove my loyalty and make Master see how much I wanted to be his 24/7 slave.

    During our passionate sex my CB slipped off, I’d used a spacer setup that I hadn’t used before. It remained off all night and into today. I think Master may have forgotten about it so when I got home today I put it back on myself with the correct spacers on it. I was tempted to glue the lock so that the only way it could be removed was by cutting the pin.

    When I read stories and diaries were subs have there chastity completely controlled by there dom I get so envious. I can’t wait to experience the feeling of having the control over my clitty completely given to Master.

    Sub space is a strange state of mind, it can be hard to put it into words how I feel. I only know that all my fantasies and desires seem to be drastically amplified.
     
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    That sounds like an excellent experience in subspace, krissi! Passionate lovemaking to the point of having a sissy cummie! :happy0167: Branding...wow! Superglue the lock! You must've really been deep in subspace! Congratulations, krissi! Dollyanne hopes you and your Master can experience more of the same!

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    I just love being in my subspace, it's where I belong, I just wish the feeling lasted longer. I just love your new signature, very creative of you :manga_devil:. puts mine to shame.


    Last night was quite one. Master was tired so play was out of the question, I didnt even try and pounce or seduce him as I could see that he was too tired. He wasnt too tired to order me around though, he was ordering me to get him drinks and even ordered me to go to the shop for some Pringles which I did without any backchat.

    Im still locked away in my CB, survived my first night wearing it, didnt wake up all that much, its amazing how you soon get used to it even after months without wearing it, it does help that I have the original spacer set up that I was used to for it.

    I was tempted to glue the lock again today, not because I was in my sub-space but because Master doesnt seem to think that I would be able to cope after he commented on my last post. I saw this as a challenge but Ive left the lock as it is for know. Maybe I should ease myself in first. Im also looking for a temporary job until work picks up again, more than likely packing (good money but sh*t work) so Im not sure if I would be able to wear my CB comfortably while working. There is place just down the road which seems to be the packing capitol of the UK lol, less of an excuse for people to be on the dole around here I guess sorry job seekers allowance (what a laugh).

    Anyway enough rambling. Not much else to report for now. I think tonight will be another quiet one, Master has a cold so I will be looking after his needs again tonight. I think doing things like that good for us though, maybe it will give Master more confidence when giving orders specially if I do as he asks first time.
     
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    Had a quiet day today. Master is off work and isnt very well at all. I had a full day of work for a change.

    Managed another night in the CB ok, did wake up about 6am with my sissy clitty extremely swollen, it didnt go down until I used the bathroom. The CB was a bit uncomfortable whilst I was working due to the cold, my testis were trying there hardest to retract so were pulling like anything on the CB. Other than that though its been ok. I seem to be coping fine with the CB. I think if I manage a couple of months in it I will ask for a 3000 cage until we can afford a Neo-Steel.

    Havent really got much else exciting to report. Im pretty tired and Master cant speak much so theres not a lot going on.
     
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    Yet another quiet day. Master as suffering with his virus and can hardly speak a word, I must admit I have been taking the micky a bit because of how he sounds but it’s only light hearted banter. The worst thing for me is that we can’t kiss at all. I have restrained myself so far, I wouldn’t want to pounce and push Master into anything that would make him feel worse.

    Master doesn’t seem to pleased with me, saying that he’s been doing all the cleaning. In my defense I was going to do the kitchen myself, like I normally do. I was having a go on Sim City 4, sometimes I just can’t drag myself away from my growing City but I was just about to do the Kitchen when Master decided he was going to do it. I came into the kitchen and helped Master out and then finished up by cleaning all the sided down.

    I hope I don’t get Master’s bug, sods law, I will get it just as Master is starting to feel better. Lucky for me it wont effect my work but it put any play time bag another week.

    I’m still locked up safely in my CB had another night in it, woke up at 7am this time with a swollen clitty, but at least only waking up once a night.

    My bra conditioning is going well. I got myself another sports bra as I found I didn't have enough to allow me to wear one every day. I went about 2 days without wearing one but as soon as I put a fresh one on it felt really comfortable and felt as if I had missed wearing it.

    That’s about it for now me thinks. I hope to write something more interesting soon.
     
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    ahh slave kris! everything you write IS intersting naughty gurl! pamper Master as you must. can't wait for more gaged kiris pics, winks.
     
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    thanks CKS you're too kind. I can't wait for more gaged pics of me either! lol


    I suppose if youve read masters Journal youll want my side of the story? Yes its true I gave him a ruined orgasm, but it wasnt on purpose I swear.

    Last Night before bed Master started kissing me passionately and kept teasing me. He would get as close to my mouth as he could knowing full well that if we kissed I would probably get his infection. I know Im supposed to be submissive but I think kissing would be taking my submission a bit far.

    As things got a bit more passionate I decided that it might be fun to have a bit of play and seeing as Master didnt have the energy to play so I though I would initiate things. I bound his arms to the bed with some soft restraints and then began to tease him.

    I got two vibrators out and set about teasing his nipples and his cock with them. I bought him close to climax a few times and each time I would stop and then tease hi a little more. I must admit I was enjoying myself.

    During my teasing session was tempted to give him a ruined O, but I thought that would be far too unfair but I continued to tease him. Unfortunately just before he came I cut it a little to close and ended up ruining the whole experience for him.

    If Im honest part of me wanted to show him how it was done and I wanted to get him back for teasing me with the kissing but I dont think could have maliciously given him a ruined O.

    Its a good thing Im not a Dom, I wouldnt be able to keep a sub for 5 minuets. Im far to cruel and naughty when I get started. Sometimes when I all over a sudden switch I cant control myself. Maybe its because thats what I Think! I could sustain as a sub and because of the amount of reading I have done that has blurred the boundaries between what is reality and what is fantasy.


     
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    Hmmm had things like that have happened to me before. *hugs* know what you mean about switching probably why I can to but lord help Jo when I have a hard time throwing that switch. :mad0218: Suppose you can do your best to make up for it. Though suspect it will be interesting what happens, think we might be getting more pics of you in the cage soon :party0042:. Hope you manage to avoid getting sick, and that your Master feels better soon.
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    Thank you for your support. I wasn't sure if I was going to get a flood of Mistresses saying that I was a bad sissy, which I guess I was if I'm honest.


    Not a lot to report again today. Had a quick drink with a friend last night and then came home and played on guitar hero until about 3am. Did a bit of work today, I cant wait until it picks up again I really could do with some money coming in.

    Feeling really tired at the moment. I missed a few doses my the citalopram anti depressants last week and then never got round to getting a new prescription. I wasnt bothered about being on them when I was on them, I thought they were doing me good and keeping my anxiety at bay. Once I had missed two days worth he began to feel really dizzy and tired. This just made me wonder what these pills were doing to my head so I havent taken any since.

    I feel ok mentally my anxiety seems to be better, my psychosexual councilor said that talking about my gender confusion and coming to the conclusion I have will help reduce my anxiety also. On the down side though I still have dizzy spells, they come on around 3pm, I can only assume it due to the light levels dropping. Makes sense really as antidepressants must have some sort of stimulant in them.

    Im going to stick at it tough. Ive come this far so Im not to going to back down now. I will see that doctors once the withdrawal symptoms have gone.

    Not sure if this is connected but I have found that my sissy desires have dipped some what. I feel quite masculine at the minuet, I have moments where I think I should be masters butch dog again. Not quite sure whats going on with me at the moment.

    I know I have had thoughts about being masters male slave again. I know deep down thats what he wants but he sees how much I want to be a sissy. It is tempting to give up sissyhood but I know when my sissy desires do come back and they will, I will miss being a sissy too much.

    I really want to get back to being submissive again I can feel myself getting a bit boisterous and following orders less. Master is still ill so Im just going to have to do my best to be of help rather than a hindrance to him. We can talk about where we want our D/s lifestyle to go once he feels 100%.
     
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    Our current predicament of not being able to kiss reminded me of a game Master used to play. He would tease me to distraction by not letting me kiss him. I would be ordered on my knees he would then say that I am not allowed to kiss him unless he gives me the signal. So he would get as close to me with his lips teasing me know full well I couldn’t kiss him, occasionally I would slip up and kiss him and then I would be punished. My clit would usually be swollen throughout.

    This leads me nicely to something I’ve been mulling over for a while know. How could I possibly put in words the level of submission that I want. The kissing game for me sums it up quite nicely. Not being allowed to kiss Master without permission is an example of the control I would like Master to have. It’s the little things that you have to ask permission for that really bring it home that I’m a slave.

    Not being allowed to speak without permission would be amongst the ultimate rules that would instill my submission. I would like for one day rules such as these to be written up and then strictly enforced by Master. Only then would I consider myself a true 27/7 slave.
    But as with everything these things take time and are best not rushed. I would love to have to wear at least a collar to show my submission though.
     
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    A lot has happened since I last updated my diary so I’ve held off for a bit until I got some inspiration on what to write. I don’t always like to simply re-tell the events of the past day or days.

    The main bit of news is that Master is feeling a heck of a lot better which is good and I have managed to escape catching anything which is even better news.

    Master defiantly must be feeling better, he’s taken greater control of me over the past few days. I’ve spent quite a lot of time wearing a collar around the house and following orders like a good sissy should.

    Master has been talking a lot about creating a dungeon in our spare room which is currently a dumping ground. He has been getting very worked up over it and is using it as an incentive for me to go out and work more.

    Master also seems to be embracing my feminization a lot more. He asked me what I wanted to be, a male slave or a sissy. I said that it was up to him, I didn’t want to decide anymore. Master decided that he was happy with a sissy and that we would be training me accordingly. I think part of him did it for me but I know now that he is comfortable with the situation and is willing to take control of my feminization and training.

    The strange thing is though over the past week or so I have felt my sissy desires drop a little. I can still feel the desire is there but it doesn’t seem to be as strong as it was. It could be the withdrawal from the antidepressants messing with my mood and I have been tired. I also at times feel like a wannabe, I don’t feel or think quite as fem as some of the other sissies that I’ve read about. I’ve always felt as if I am quite butch and I haven’t always liked that personality but it’s a hard thing to shake off. I want to be delicate and passable but I always seem to go back to my old butch ways what ever they might be.

    I’m not giving up on being a sissy just yet. I don’t even own a maids outfit yet which is something I’d love to own and wear. I think I need some more frilly clothes, not just lace by frills. I will see what Master thinks and also have to earn a bit more cash.

    In my CB still. Came out for a clean and then Master took advantage of me in the bath which was fun. I did cummie a bit though. CB seems fine pulls a bit now and again but I’m coping. I would like a CB3000 cage though, I’m finding the 2000 cage far to bulky for my liking.
     
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    Things have been a bit quite again. Master and I have been really tired. Master started to order me to present with my collar, I didn’t do it last night but Master didn’t say anything I thinks he’s far too tired. Perhaps I should do it of my own back but part of me still says that’s takes the point out of it, when will I ever learn.

    I still don’t feel my sissy self, I’m beginning to think that being a full time sissy isn’t for me, maybe I’m trying to be something that I’m not. I still like dressing up and still would love a maid's outfit but possibly more just for fun. I think any training that I would have to go through would have to be thorough starting from scratch to make me think like a gurl but I can’t see that happening any time soon.

    I know Master has embrace the idea of me being a sissy but I don’t think he has a strong enough desire to see me fully feminized which is understandable, I mean I’ve seen his preferred taste in man (butch with stubble and muscles) Maybe dressing up should just be a bit of fun with me being turned into something Master wants what ever that may be. Being a doggie was fun, eating out of bowls and wearing a hood, you don’t get much more of a break from reality than that.

    I think for some the only way that owning a full sissy would work was if the Dom had a bull. Which in our case is out of the question, no matter how kinky I think it would be I can’t see it working in our relationship. So I will have to be the bull, all be it with a strap-on and my little clitty locked away. It will always bee a clitty sissy or not it’s to pathetic to call a cock.

    Maybe with feminization out of the way Master will have more energy to put into simply making me a submissive with simple rules to follow which can be easily upheld. We shall see.
     
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