Good morning CM , I’m happy I signed up , you guys seem like a nice bunch . I knew I was submissive in my early teens and figured out what kind of woman I’d like to be in a relationship with . Never really found anyone I’ve had very fulfilling vanilla relationships , but not such a good sexlife.. I made sure to do the best I could , and I did vanilla sex isn’t for me .. I like the idea of being made to do things I don’t want to .. Loving pain . Being the butt slut I started getting into this stuff maybe a year and a half ago. The extent of my experience is a lot of manipulation and abuse by women I’ve never met . Now I have a boyfriend that I met through that experience . He loves me so much and would do anything to make me happy , from having a open relationship , to supporting me while I’m not working . He does everything to make me happy . Including supporting me being with a domme . However I’m barely bi . Our relationship has been very difficult because of my upbringing , and my needs are completely different from his . Plus I’ve never wanted to be with a guy or even look at them . Except for submissive cock fantasies , I’m absolutely not attracted to guys ... We started experimenting with me being locked a few weeks ago and I love the feeling of having no control ! It makes me a different man , and it’s here to stay I think. The both of us are looking for someone , we don’t really know how to go about it . I’m probably forgetting a bunch of important stuff to say ! I’d love to get to know CM better ( Sunboi is my dogs name )
Welcome to the Mansion. Sounds like your trying to figure things out. I understand the upbringing part. It is difficult to forget things that have been with you while growing up. There are great people here. If you have any questions just put them out there. You get answers from different perspectives which good that there is no right or wrong way to do anything. Take your time to explore the different forums and get a good look at the diversity that is here. Glad you found us.
Welcome sunboi, sounds like we are in very similar situations! Glad to know someone else has felt the same way as me in the past. Hope you have a great time on CM!