I Miss Chastity and Genitorture.

I've had an odd relationship with an online partner - who has gone MIA about a year ago. Oh, actually, it was me, I went MIA on her. It's complicated. But, I miss being controlled, having to ask for an orgasm, and feeling very frustrated as the days become agonizing weeks. I miss those times when an orgasm also involved some type of embarrassment I'd have to endure. I miss that strange mixture of fear and extreme horniness while tied to the gurney awaiting my daily electric CBT punishment. I miss the written erotica - the scripts. I feel it's necessary to return to prison. I've spent too many years masturbating while ogling women. Only intense electro-CBT sessions can modify my behavior and teach me that what's between my legs is for pain - not pleasure. There is a lot of work to do for the right bull.