A strange thing happened last Sunday morning. As part of our arrangement I have always had an "emergency key" in my wallet - suitably held in a small signed and sealed envelope so I couldn't use it without Her knowledge. She decided that I really didn't need to keep it with me as She was only a phone call away and in 5 months I'd not actually needed to use it, so I duly handed it over. Since then the experience has become more intense. I feel MUCH more "helpless" and a lot more controlled. It feels like we have moved to a higher level somehow. The only way I can rationalise it is that even though when I had the key I couldn't use it without Her knowing, it was still somehow my choice and now that choice is gone. Anyone else had a similar experience?