Im having a hard time giving my wife complete control. By complete control I mean everything as she sees fit, kinda like a FLR. Not sure thats what I want. I want her to control my orgasms but other then that not much else does it for me. But is this really up to me? Her controlling my orgasms has been a lack luster engagement so far but I'm thinking its becuase I dont let her dominate me. I dont feel submissive but crave for her control. This is hard to explain. The thought of complete denial turns me on like no other but then when im caged all I think about is ejaculation. I want her control but also want some control of my own(other then chastity) which im thinking does not work. Is it all just up to her? Thats tough for me to swallow. Complete loss of control is kinda scary to me so maybe thats why I have been hesitant. Makes me feel vulnerable when I think about it. I hope this makes sense and would appreciate some input. I feel like I'm just being a big baby LOL.