A new low

My Master has been keeping me locked for quite a while but it is plainly understood that whether locked or not, I do not get to cum without her express permission.

Yesterday, I asked her if she thought I was still a man and she said, "No. You are a slave and therefore have forfeited being any gender". So I guess I'm nothing now.

I asked her if I was still her husband. She said, "To the outside world you are still a man and my husband but at home alone, you are not my husband. You are property and do as I say. You're not really my husband anymore."

I almost came from hearing this. SHe says that she still "loves" me but as property. LIke a favourite sweater.

This is definitely a new low for me. Mostly because it made me incredibly aroused to be totally debased.

I'm so conflicted. But there's no going back.

 

Be careful what you wish for

 

I was begging to be humiliated and to eat cum. Master said I was being needy and that I should be spanked and locked up. So she used a long wooden spoon on my bottom and I locked up.
I thanked her for saying I’m not her husband but just her property.

she barely noticed me

 

I think it's time for some brutal honesty.

My wife has stiff person syndrome and is confined to a bed/chair. We are making some small progress on her mobility and managing her pain but she is completely reliant on me for everything.

I have had to give up most of my freedom to care for her.

For 99% of the people on here, and I'm guessing, there is a titillating sexual component to the Mistress (or Master)/slave relationship. There is an excitement that our wives feel at controlling their husbands in a way that most women never will.

My wife has not had a sexual desire for nearly 5 years. The last sexual experience she had with me was while she was sitting in the bathtub and asked me to finger her in the warm water. She enjoyed it but did not come. The time before it, I begged her for the chance to kneel before her while she lay on the bed, with her legs over the side, and give her oral pleasure. After trying valiantly to give my darling wife pleasure, she stopped me and said, "Thank you so much honey but I don't feel anything and it's not doing anything for me." This was one of the symptoms of Stiff Person Syndrome and we didn't know it.

For the next while, while my wife could still walk using a walker, I asked that she keep me completely denied but give me spankings while I lay face down on the bed, with a towel or plate under my cock and balls. She would spank me until I couldn't stand it. SHe did this not for her own pleasure but because she felt badly that I could not make love to her any longer and she wanted me to have pleasure.

Sometimes the spankings were so intense that I would have a spontaneous ejaculation without orgasm. I would then ask her if I could lick up my cum (copying so many porn videos I had seen). Revolted, she said, "sure" but would always leave the room, completely disgusted by my act.

Flash forward to now, y wife can't walk and rarely spanks me (although she still does) and I am wearing a badass workroom cage. SHe likes me in the cage but not because she gets off on it.

The sad truth is that I suffer from caregiver fatigue and am prone to outbursts of depression and rage. I become ugly. It is usually short lived while I am forced to do something particularly difficult like wiping her bottom or cleaning her soiled sheets or diaper, but it is hard on her when I react this way. I know it's not her fault that I am forced to clean her and care for her and I do NOT blame her but the situation is so full of despair that sometimes I just cant contain my rage at life and God and even her.

Master keeps me locked so that my attitude is better. SHe keeps me locked and calls me slave, and even says I'm not her husband because she knows it satisfies a deep desire in my to surrender to shame and surrender my manhood....and because it helps blunt those outbursts when I just can't take it anymore.

My wife calls me less than human and not a man and not her husband...and instead refers to me as "slave" as an act of true love. I submit as her slave in part because I feel such guilt at being an inadequate caregiver and husband, but also because I truly want to surrender my entire life for her.

In a very real way, I want to be her slave. I want her to own me. I want her to become powerful again, and even if I never come again, or am permanently locked, that would be a fair trade to see her walk again.

If that ever happens, I don't know if my Master will keep that title. She might.

Maybe it's my chastity horniness talking but this morning I prayed to God this morning to make her independently wealthy, healthy, and happy while simultaneously taking away all my free will so I could be a better slave to her.

I wonder how many husbands would voluntarily give away their selfish minds to become a 24/7 slave to their Mistresses.