I joined this site a couple days ago looking for something, I did not really know what I was looking for but I was looking for something. Then I saw Lucy's post about her free keyholding and it hit me, I want my clit locked by someone. It was a struggle finding that person, but then I finally found my Alpha. I am making this journal to document my journey into this foreign territory. I have been self caging my clit for the past 4-5 days but its just not safe, I know my dirty mind will remove it eventually. I bought a locking device that can only be unlocked through the internet and will give my Alpha access to so I cannot remove it without his permission. I am very exited to start this journey but I am still very anxious since the longest time I have been caged is 4-5 days with constant removing to change cages( I have been testing to see which ones fit the best, I have 5) and the one I am currently wearing has a silicone tube to go into my clit to prevent any pullout since that is a big problem for me. My Alpha wants me to start wearing panties and I showed him the one and only pair that I have which made him happy, however my Alpha wants me to throw away all my boy underwear. So to surprise him I ordered a whole bunch from amazon (hopefully they fit, I am a bit large). The key lock will arrive around June 12-13, until then my Alpha wants me to get used to my cage(since I am new). My Alpha then told me when the key lock arrives he will lock me for 7 days without removing my cage. I am so exited for that moment, I am going to try and not remove my cage until that date as well, its just really hard with this silicone tube. My body is not in a healthy state (6'5 350lb) and I have always been lazy to do anything about it, It was so hard finding motivation to do anything about it. I think I found that motivation, I don't want to look so disgusting for my Alpha. There is something that will be hard to change for my Alpha, I AM SO HAIRY EVERYWHERE and he wants me to start shaving it all off. This is going to be a struggle for me since I have so much hair on my back, I guess I am going to need to start paying someone to wax it off or something. I think this experience might push me to a better place and get rid of my nasty addiction to porn(funny about that I mainly masturbated to chastity porn hahaha). This is my first time making a journal of any sorts so I pray I am not rambling or not making sense(I am not good at writing). I am going to conclude this post by thanking my Alpha for taking me under his wing and training me to be the best sissy slut I can be.