Well, here we go with my journal. I guess this is more for me, as I really don't know how interesting it will be for anyone else. Having a place to write it means a lot though. Quick background on me for context. Late 40s straight male, married to a wonderful woman who is definitely a "Type A" personality and is relatively adventurous sexually. So it would seem the door is open for me for an exciting lifestyle if I can find the courage to walk through it. She knows about my kinks, and I swear she even gives me opportunities to talk about them with her, but I continue to have hang ups about discussing my kinks with my wife. I am hoping that by putting some things down in writing here, I can find a way to be more open and have some courage to talk to the woman I love about this stuff. (again I question how interesting this journal will be when most of the responses will be "Dude, just man up and talk to your wife!" ) I have strong desires for chastity, discipline and serving my lady. I also have a strong fantasy of being cuckolded, but I honestly don't think I could handle that actually happening. I would love for her to talk about cucking me while she talks down to me, but I don't know that I would ever want to risk our marriage (which is amazing) on that fantasy. So it is a desire, but not a "need" the way some subs seem to have. I got this text from my wife yesterday after I told her I made a small error and got the wrong thing for her at the grocery store. She asks me (jokingly, kind of) if I need a spanking. and while I respond that I do, I feel like I missed another opportunity to say "yes, I really want you to spank me. I really want you to put me in chastity and make me obey you. If you spank me for getting the wrong brand at the grocery store, it will never happen again." Instead I just played it like she was joking and the next text from her 30 minutes later was about our daughter's soccer game later. Well, that is it for now. Again, this journal is mostly for me to get myself to have that conversation with my wife. Even writing it down like this makes it seem like it should be easy. Wish me luck.
I would suggest that you tell her about this journal, how to access it with your password into the site and leave it up to her to read it if she wishes as well as raises the subject with you. I am sure if she is interested she will read it at her leisure give it some thought and then raise the subject at a suitable time with you
Hey mike.. where have you been since the spanking incident..? Take it slowly.. she has just expressed interest in flr and chastity.. sometimes i get the feeling its not really the female leading.. but the male instigating to have his fantasies fulfilled.. maybe for only short term.. i really dread anyone jumping into flr with their wives and start pestering them to have sex with strangers.. good luck to you anyway…