I have been locked up 24/7 for the past 3 months. In that time my Queen and I have had PIV once and she makes me orgasm in my belt( I can orgasm without ejaculating). Over the last weekend, I had been sick so I had the belt off. Saturday nite I woke up and got on tumbr. Long story short, I masturbated for the 1st time in 3 months. The edging felt good(I meant to stop there but went to far.) At first the release felt wonderful. I was glad I could still get hard. Then came the crash. I felt guilty I had betrayed my Queen. There was a strong feeling the release was not worth it, that I prefer the belted orgasms without ejacutating that last until my Queen lets them stop. The next day I went back in the belt. I wear a cable belt that tucks everything up close. I have come to point that is what feels normal. I don’t like not having it on. I don’t even like exposed feeling of a trapped ball cage. I had got the point where chastity was longer fun and was wondering if I wanted to continue. The self pleasuring showed me just how the chastity has rewired my brain. This has went past fantasy and became a way of life. Has anyone had that monument in which you came to realize you where truly hooked and it was not a game anymore?
Haven't quite reached that stage, but pretty close i think. Even without a KH i've experienced sub drop after an orgasm. Also feel much more 'at home' when caged than not. Glad it is working so well for you and thanks for sharing. Good luck and enjoy.
I go from a happy, pleasant, agreeable, kind gal into a nasty mean moody vicious bitch for about a day or two. I have such a severe mood swing that I'm kinda not looking forward to it... at all. THIS is why I need a keyholder.
The mood swing was short lived. I think the thing that shocked me was after getting the release I had not had months, how little satisfaction I got. One of the reasons I did it was to rebel against the cage I ask for. Once the action was completed, I understood the desire for the belt even more. Total mind f***k on my part.
My totally unqualified, uninformed scientific response is basically that your brain is rewiring itself to find pleasure elsewhere. Enforced long-term chastity is a very unnatural thing and probably a sort of neurological modification. I'd be shocked if you could ever get the same satisfaction again from touching yourself like you did so many years ago. I should not be happy as a clam after 18 days, but I am. It is what it is.
No I did not. After realizing that was not something I wanted to again and that I had cheated on myself I decided not to. Being locked 24/7 (being sick made an exception) that’s not something I will the opportunity to do again even if wanted to. We are still in a tentative place as to her involvement in my chastity. She is still passive but will ask if I am locked up or which belt I am wearing. I am allowed to unlock to bathe. So at times I change belts or to a cage. I don’t feel telling her is a good thing at this time.
Hi I’m in a small steel cage and I’m locked most of the time I feel lost without it on despite the occasional discomfort, I love giving my wife pleasure ( or watching someone else give her a good time it’s all about keeping her happy and wanted