How Desperate Are you Right Now?

I can manage right now. The waves come and go (daily and weekly cycles that don't seem to be affected very much by ruined or caged orgasms). Overall I think I have hit "mental acceptance" - a level of frustration that would have put me in the asylum a year or two ago is now accepted and enjoyed.

 

So, I've been doing some thinking and I believe I may know why my current lockup session is far more intense than the last one. It's because I didn't fully give myself release at the end of my last session.

Lemme explain in case you're confused... My last session wasn't my longest. It was only 9 days, but was supposed to last longer than that. It got cut short, because I was watching a porn video that turned out to be a little "Too hot" and it pushed me over the edge. I felt myself going over and I put my hands behind my back but I couldn't stop it, so I ended up enduring a ruined orgasm while locked up. It was very unsatisfying and left me wanting, so I rolled my dice and got a "20" and started a new session the very next day.

I think the ruined orgasm kind of carried over the frustration and horniness I was experiencing from my last session and it continued onward instead of subsiding like it would've if I had a proper release. Just a theory but it would explain why things are a bit different this time.

What are your thoughts?

 

My desperation level just dropped significantly. This morning, my wife announced that it's been long enough since my last full orgasm and that we are going to play this weekend, most likely tonight (it's a long holiday weekend here in the states). Knowing that's coming (or is it cumming?) takes the edge off dramatically.

 

Really now? That's rather interesting... Maybe the fact that you don't know when you'll get release adds to the desperation?

 

Pretty fucking desperate now but mood swings back and forth between acceptance and I need to cum hourly. I have a get out of jail well cage free card I'm trying to save for this weekend when a new package arrives to an empty house.

 

I'm on the same boat as you... I just changed my vote from "Horny, but okay." to "Please let me cum!" Because although I feel I have this under control (for the most part), I keep getting these sudden surges in horniness and they're pretty disruptive. I mentioned previously that I was at work and some of my colleagues noticed I was getting a little antsy about something. I just told them I been drinking a little too much coffee lately because of the holiday rush and they bought it .

But truth is I went from jerking off several times a day to being locked up for weeks at a time in a span of just 3 months. That's a big change for me and I don't think my body yet knows how to deal with it. When I'm not at work to keep myself distracted, it's hard for me to take my mind off of how badly I wanna cum. And I wanna cum really REALLY badly!

 

I chose the third " please let me cum " and although I know I won't be allowed , my mercyful KH/Wife will " fuck me" regularly to grant me an alternative pleasure that will eliminate my desperation for a day or two and in this way lengthen at will the time between ruined orgasms or milkings.

 

Your cock or her cock?

 

its always been her cock even if she doesn't think of it that way

 

In a state of permanent arousal in varying degrees which neither of us is willing to jeopardize by me having an orgasm

 

This is my longest lockup so far... 14 days and still going. I'm leaking every day! I LOVE IT!

 

I had to change my vote because i got released and an orgasm 2 nights ago. I'm back to a mild simmer now. What i really want is to be teased!

 

Lucky you!!

 

That depends on your point of view... I really need to cum BADLY, but I don't want to! I wanna keep going.

Just admitting that is making me swell in my cage as we speak! Hope I can make it through the rest of this month and reach my goal.

 

Just knowing that I'm intentionally torturing myself by denying myself release when I watch porn, is enough to make me want to just "explode". Interestingly, my body seems to be enjoying this more than my mind is... A few times every day, an urge hits me fast and hard and I wanna torture myself some more, but I have to tell myself I have things to do, so it'll have to wait. This difference of opinion between my mind and my body is a bit of a struggle, but one I know I can manage.

 

I posted an update on my current lockup session on this thread... It'll show just how desperate I am right now.
URL="https://www.chastitymansion.com/for...ed-but-welcome-consequence.53539/#post-658077"]An unexpected but welcome consequence...[/URL]

 

I woke up at 3AM this morning because I had an overnight urge and my balls started to ache... Couldn't fall back asleep because I was too horny (still am) and since I was tempted to succumb to desperation, I put my cage on right away... Very carefully. I'm still feeling horny AF but the ache has stopped and now all is well.

 

I’m trying to focus on anything else. It’s not exactly working out for me though. I was let out and allowed to cum a few times during my birthday. It’ll be March before I get a chance again.

 

Due to a change in my work schedule, I'm not able to get release on Dec 1st as planned... I have to hold out until my next day off on Dec 4th, so a 20 day lockup just turned into 23 days. I'm actually looking forward to being desperate for a whole week. Sounds super thrilling!

 

This often happens especially with a KH. My wife said something about Christmas Day being my next target release, but I already know Christmas Eve and Christmas Day are packed with family activities. Maybe New Years?

 

Yes, I had already accepted it a common occurrence in this lifestyle... That said, I'm not sure if on release day, I wanna give myself a full release or a caged orgasm. I haven't done many of those so I'm kind of curious how they feel... I'll see when the time comes.