Freshly permanently chastised in Oxford

Hi all chastees.

Slave Jim here and ready for the long stretch. Having been in on and off self chastity for years now I decided to take the plunge.

Locking myself up for 1-2 weeks at a time, taking a few days off and then back goes the lock, I've found that I'm only unlocked for around 25% of the year, however that 25% is a struggle, time becomes wasted due to watching porn and masturbation, even thinking I'll do that now/then.

After thinking about that 25% I concluded that it didn't feel right not wearing it, but as I wanted to masturbate it could stay off for a bit. After discovering this forum it provided some useful information around it and changed my views of women significantly, if out and about I realised I was incredibly obsessed with seeing a women's.....

From that I went on to realise how bad porn is for women, making women feel bad about their appearance, or thinking they should act in a certain way, then the porn collection I had on my laptop (now deleted), money wasted signing up to some of the many fraudulent sites, promising meeting up with ladies in my area.

So here we are, I've gone on a bit, but I had a lot to think about. This forum is great, some of the genuine chat that goes on without prejudice of a controversial topic. Just need a keyholder to keep me enslaved, so many clearly fake sites out there.

 

Thanks, the main realisation became after wanting to masturbate when locked, but then after unlocking finding it hard to get hard.

I started keeping the keys in my locker at work to try and boost willpower and relieve the feeling of need, however it seemed as though around two weeks became the cutoff and unlock, then there would be the feeling of failure as I should have gone for another week.

After locking up on 01/09/22 I decided I’d start Locktober now as either Keptender or Sleptender, mainly as I’ve got a wedding to go to at the end of October and whilst no intention of ‘using it’ have the slight self conscious aspect in place, I’ll be locking back up when I get home and take things into NOvember, I’ll have to unlock later that month as I’m on a family holiday and don’t want to be dragged off by airport security, I’ll lock up at the hotel, unlocking on departure, back home lockup and then don’t open until Christmas.

All planned out, spending time planning chastity instead of planning masturbation!

 

It's certainly possible, I think the rapid turnaround ultimately came from not wanting to masturbate, but making it a daily routine. When I looked at how much over the course of a year I lockup I realised that it was possible to extend that. It's not exactly always a fun journey as explained on this forum, more a sense of achievement.

 

Thank you.

 

Well it didn't last long, now just over 1 week I've had to remove, the chafing last night and today was unbearable. It's been a fairly active week in work, and I did shave around the device which would have increased the skin-metal contact.

Given how sore it is in the area there is no chance of masturbation, however things in the past have only been unshaven. The other thing I wondered about was that I found I could probably remove and put back on without doing anything to the padlock, it's far from too large and the smaller ring is nearly impossible to get on.

Lots of future options to consider, however the desire to masturbate is currently not there, that may of course regrettably change once the soreness goes, I have however deleted a lot of porn after reading some of the stories on here - what ultimately is the point of porn if you cannot use it.

Shame as I was looking to beat my personal best of two weeks and go into and onto Locktober, hopefully then to most of NOvember (family holiday hampers lockage).