Down the rabbit hole.

I asked the question yesterday. Or made the proposal of us together, finding a dominant to lord it over us both. It was met with a pretty swift "I just don't want to go down the 3rd party road" answer. We discussed our early days and then the dark days of the last handful of years of almost total vanilla life and it would seem that my wife is hell bent on us going back to a switch relationship. She's utterly convinced that I can be a Top.

As the conversation went on, no amount of me telling her that out of the two of us, she is the naturally dominant one and that goes for day to day life. Not just in the bedroom and when she us the dominant in the bedroom, she's so convincing in the role that you'd never guess that she had submissive leanings! I can can be quite adept at the physical aspect of Topping. The spanking, the flogging, the caning etc but it's the biggest mountain to climb mentally. Beyond vertical even. I very very quickly run out of ideas or my level of awkwardness when I do come up with something new is painfully obvious. But that's not the worst of it. The worst of it is being Topped from the bottom. Still having no control when I'm supposed to be in control. Walking on egg shells when I'm supposed to be striding with confidence.

An example of which would be the time that we were staying in a nice hotel in different city to our usual one. I had her strip naked and I told her that I wanted her to stand on the widow sill of the large (tall) room window. It overlooked a a couple of office blocks. It was a Saturday evening so the liklihood of being seen was almost zero. We were also up on something like the 5th or 6th floor so any passers by would have to be admiring the architecture to accidentally see my wife in her birthday suit. Anyway, to cut a long story short, she refused, there was a hoo-haa about it and that soured the whole weekend. I just couldn't see the enormous harm to my wife that such an act would cause her.

There have been other occasions of such rebellion but right now, I can't pin point one. It's like my mind has blocked out such embarrassing episodes for the sake of my sanity. There's just a residual feeling of disappointment that hangs over me when I'm told that I'm going to be Top. And it's not just disappointment for myself. It's a feeling of letting the side down. Letting my wife down. It damn near kills me.

I can't physically punish her for issues said or done. We live by (generally) her rules. I can't humiliate her because she won't put herself in any visually vulnerable position anywhere near the prying eyes of anyone. I can't put her in chastity to stop her masturbating because female chastity belts are useless long term or if they're claimed to be capable of daily wear, cost monumental amounts of money and are still unwearable for longer than a day. I can't cucquean her because I have zero confidence when it comes to either finding or talking to literal unicorns (women that love to sleep with married men and are willing to play the mind games). If I pay for an escort, it's going to be the most expensive 2 minutes of my life! Lol! I'm not even joking!

So yeah, it's very unlikely that I will be locked for any part of October. Instead, in about 10 days time, my time of chastity will be over once more. There will be a further 10 days of not even thinking about kinky stuff and that will be followed by the switch. The only thing that I can think will have any kind of effect would be self-locking. That way, she can't get the feel of me inside her. That is literally it. I'm out of ideas beyond that.

In other news, my wife pegged me last night but also used stimulation to my dick. It was heavenly and I have never seen as much cum come out of me! #milked

 

I've been given notice that my time in chastity will be over after tonight. 14 weeks is the longest I've done. For someone who yearns for permenant chastity, this is a blink in time. When it was good, it was very very good. For much of it, as explained in previous entries, it was meh. Let's of self edging, reading literotica, visiting this site and listening to various podcasts and what not. Anything to keep things exciting when we were in my wife's down time.

So what do I have to look forward to? Apparently, after tonight, there'll be a couple of weeks of vanilla followed by us Switching. I'll be Top, which in itself, is an irony. I'll be Topping but only when my wife is in the mood. When she's in the mood, she will have many vetoes.

I hope to be back on here one day. In the meantime, look after yourselves.

 

Sorry for disappearing like that. We hit a little rough patch which we're past now. So what's been happening, do I hear you ask?? Well pull up a pew!

About 2 months ago or so, we went into a full FLR dynamic. Full as in....full time. There was some trade-offs but in my mind, they were worth it. Stuff like, I'd have to take some CP as means of disciplining. I wouldn't be locked in chastity Full time, as that would be something that I wanted and what I want, isn't necessarily what I get. My wife would be the decider. Decision maker in almost all aspects of our lives. I kind of asked for it so, now I kind of have it.

To bring you right up to speed, I am currently locked up in my Cherry Keeper. I haven't had a full orgasm for about 6 months or maybe more but that has been my choosing. I have had more edges than I can begin to count and I've had about 4 ruined orgasms in the last 2 months. On each occasion, I've had to clean my own mess up.....with my mouth. There's been dress ups and pegging sessions. Tons of me orally servicing my wife or using my fingers and toys on her. Now for the best bit!

My wife has a date with a guy that she is an acquaintance with through work and it's happening next Friday. She gets on with him, she considers him to be as hot as hell and she is massively excited by the fact that he's openly expressed his sexual interest in her! This last bit massively excites me! I thought that our adventures with 3rd party males was long gone. But through natural conversation and being in each other's presence, it seems that genuine chemistry has developed. My hope is that his ability to stimulate her mind and his attractiveness can be combined with a physical compatibility that will allow for a FWB type relationship at the very least. It's a big ask, I know. The stars are lining up like they've never done before and my wife, for the first time, is genuinely excited about getting to further know another guy. And that in itself is as hot as hell to me!

 

The cage comes off completely, thankfully. It's the opportunity for cleaning so it goes in a bleach solution over night. She knows I'm not going to spoil things by stroking myself when she's gone to sleep. As I've mentioned before, the edge is greater than a release.

I also told her yesterday about compersion and that alone has given her a new perspective. Although, I am hoping to experience some jealousy next weekend. Even if it's just a tiny bit. And if things progress into a more long term thing, I'm hoping that increases somewhat. Maybe that will come if he steps up and becomes a domineering force in the relationship?

 

A little update on proceedings. I was told yesterday by my wife that she was feeling “needy” and that she needed to have me inside her. Lucky me! Edging inside my wife is the by far the nicest kind of edging so that was great yo look forward to. So asked her if I could be released from my device for shaving and cleaning, which was allowed.

It had been a lazy Sunday and while I was out with our youngest at skateboarding lessons, my wife busied herself around the house and the internet. If there’s one thing my wife is superb at, it’s intenet stalking. My wife had decided to do some digging into her date for this coming Friday night. As I mentioned previously, they are acquaintances through work but that’s the extent of their knowledge of one and other. The guy is in the entertainment business. An agent of sorts, but he also does entertaining himself as singer. My wife found out that he changed his name by deed poll a few years ago. His birth name really lacked any wow factor. It was also discovered that he was a Stripper in a past life too. When I was told this, my mind immediately went to his cock and I said to my wife, that in all liklihood, he’s likely to have a good sized cock. I don’t think average cocks would cut it in the Stripping game. My wife agreed and said to me, “trust you to think about his cock!” We both laughed about that. But what we did agree on, was that as a result of having been on the fringe of the sex industry, he's likely to have an open mind about being the 3rd wheel in a marriage and it's a fair assumption that he's fairly confident about himself. All good points for a bull/lover/boyfriend of a cuckoldress.

So later on in bed during our “sex”, the subject of her date came up pretty quickly and we talked about how if the sex was good or better, and they both wanted it, they should go back for more, and for my money, on a regular basis.

We also discussed my orgasm control. As I’ve mentioned on here prevously, when I have had “full orgasms” in recent times, they’ve been a lot less than lacklustre and as a result, I much prefer to just edge or be edge. Not only does it feel better for me, but it keeps me I a good frame of mind and makes me a better husband. Having a chastity device on also helps to remind me that my dick belongs to my wife and if I wanted to, I shouldn’t play with it without her prior consent. But I digress. We talked about never letting me cum again. Full or ruined and the health aspects of such a thing. I explained that there’s a info out there about males releasing in some way on a routine basis to ensure prostate health but as far as hard, medical research, I hadn’t seen anything. I told her that wet dreams are a thing and are probably nature’s way of having a clear-out. They’re probably not so pleasant in a chastity cage but if it has to come out, it has to come out. I know I'm getting way ahead of myself but I think that that is just what we cuck wannabes do.

Anyway. I’ve bored you enough for now. Thanks for reading this and I’m REALLY looking forward to being CuckMatt in literal terms, very soon!

 

I was driving to work this morning and the traffic was slow. My mind started wondering to this coming Friday and beyond. I got a serious case of the Horny What-Ifs! The main one being, what if they really click together and he wants to start taking her to events, meetings, partys and introducing her as his partner or girlfriend?? Just typing that makes the cage tighten down, just as it did in the car. During the morning walk around, I stopped to use the gym bathroom and low and behold, glistening away in my silk briefs, a small but not inconsiderable damp patch caused by pre-cum leaking. Not quite cuckold tears but certainly chastity tears.


Both my myself and my wife have never been as excited about her going on a date with another man. A date that is 99.999% assured to end with sex between them. On previous occasions, it's been different. Her old FWB that she cucked me with twice was literally just a fuck. He had nothing between his ears. Another self proclaimed Dom that she met a couple of times knew his way around a BDSM kit bag but he had the charisma of a blank billboard. The Portuguese waiter had all the looks, but the language was a barrier. Her latest date she knows well enough to know that conversation will flow, he has the looks and body, he has the charisma. Everybody pray for us that he has good cock and knows how to treat a woman with it!

 

Kids are in the way of nightware aspect for me. Maybe one day though!

 

I'll be caged any way. I might pop a plug in anyhow!

 

My wife was at a business networking event yesterday evening and I meant her having an overnight stay away from home.

 

The future is bright again. My wife had a thoroughly good time on her date. Lots of easy chatting followed by lots of good varied sex by the sounds of things and a return match is definitely on the cards with the distinct possibility of my wife going back on birth control for more routine meets with the guy. As she was outlining what had happened on the date, during her drive home, I was leaking so badly! But it felt so good too. Hearing things like, "we fucked on and off for most of the night" and, "he's got a nice cock and knows how to use it too". It sounded like a very natural coupling. Like they just connected sexually!

Last night as we went to bed, I was handed the key to my cage and told to unlock myself and clean myself up. After about 10 seconds of her stroking me, I was instructed to get into the Missionary position. It felt so good knowing that less than 24 hours earlier, another man had been in her. It wasn't long at all until I could feel the edge approaching but the riggor that my wife was putting in meant only one thing. That she wanted me to cum in her and not by way of a ruined orgasm either. And so it was. A few moments later, I had a rather unsatisfying full orgasm. I offered to go down on her but as we'd been on side of the bed, she was just happy for me to sleep in it. She then began asking if I was still OK with things and did I still want to continue on this course that we are on? Obviously I responded with a "yes". I was then told that if she wanted to feel me cum in her then that is what I will do, regardless of how it feels for me (9 times of 10 it will be of no joy to me) and that sex is all about her enjoyment and if she wants hard and fast, she'll have hard and fast.

So there's a little twist I didn't see coming. There's not going to be a full cut off of sex or full orgasms for me, like I would like. If the dates with her new fuck buddy become more frequent then I can only hope that my quota of sex and orgasms reduce in number. At least I'm in a cage seemingly full time between duties. Subs can't be choosers in a FLR I guess!

 

I will indeed! I'll take every opportunity to edge inside her. There's nothing quite like it. I just hope that one day, if I am cut off from PIV fun, I still get the mental teasing and occasional physical teasing too! The good news is that even though I was forced to have a full orgasm last night, I'm already really excited. We just had a moment a short while ago, discussing moving forward with the new guy and this new 3 way dynamic. So far so good. My wife and I are on the same hymn sheet. Once the new guy is firmly on her hook, we can give him the same hymn sheet too and take it from there.

Exciting times ahead!

 

After the weekend's successful coupling for my wife and her new FWB (not a Bull or boyfriend or lover yet), we've dipped in and out of the topic when we've had privacy from young ears. We've discussed ways of how to move things forward between the three of us and it's quite tricky now that the ball is rolling. Managing expectations, logistics, newly realised relationship dynamics and so on. But we're keeping an open mind about things.

Her FWB brought up the question of "your husband" and if I actually knew of the date that they were on. My wife told him that yes I did and that it was something I was happy she was doing. She omitted words like cuckold and the various associated fetishes and leanings. She didn't want to potentially scare him off into the sunset with it all. Instead, leaving him to ponder this gift that she was giving him and to allow him, if he chooses to do so, do a bit of research himself. That would give him the opportunity to understand what he was now involved with in a loose way and at a rate of understanding that he could control, and ask more targeted, direct questions the next time they meet up. Slow and steady from our prospective.

We discussed how the initial awkwardness between them would hopefully dissipate with each subsequent meeting, allowing them to relax more and more into their relationship. We also talked about how in the early stages, my level of participation would have to be brought into the equation. Not necessarily as an active participant in their sexual activities quite yet, but at least in terms communication somewhat. Becoming connected on a social media messaging platform would be a good start. That way, I could at least thank him for looking after my wife on their dates. Or I could ask him what plans for the date he may have and perhaps guide him in what my wife likes and doesn't like to eat, as an example. But either way, it would all contribute to increasing confidence of all three of us, which can only be a good thing in my eyes.

I asked if there had been any word from her new FWB since they parted? You know the kind of thing. "How are you, the morning after the night before?" or "I hope you enjoyed yourself" type of thing and yes there was. As she was leaving, he did ask her, "Are we going to do this again?" She of course told him yes. Why wouldn't she?? She finds him to be really attractive, is comfortable with him, they had great sex (which she gleefully reminded me about)! The only issue is his residence. It's a little bit cramped. She's even going to book an appointment at the clinic to have the Coil refitted. That's how happy she is!

I've been going over things in my head, wondering what I can do to help things along. To involve myself in a positive way that benefits all three of us and I have an idea that is only a little loose until I run it past my wife. Maybe I can get some input from the members here? It's my wife's birthday at the end of next month. I'm hoping that she will have met her guy again between now and then but I was thinking of booking a nice room at a hotel that I know of, on the outskirts of the town he resides in. The hotel has an Italian restaurant. My wife loves Italian food. My plan would be for me to enjoy an early evening Italian meal with my wife in the restaurant and then I would return home while she continues her birthday night with her FWB in the hotel room. She says she is going back to not drinking, so one option would be, after our meal, she gets in the car and makes the 5-10 minute drive to pick him up, she returns. She brings me the car keys into the restaurant while he waits in the Reception lobby. I wait until they've made their way to the hotel room before I leave for home, which would be a 20 minute drive. The following morning, I wait in the hotel breakfast lounge for my wife to collect the car keys, my wife runs him home before returning to me and some breakfast. He could make his journeys alone by taxi even. I just disappear and appear when I need to. Either way, we have a choice of all being together for a brief time and introducing ourselves, or if it's too soon for any of us, we don't. No pressures anywhere. But if it was decided we all meet briefly, it would give me a chance to thank him for bringing her new levels of happiness or wish them the greatest happiness on her birthday night. Basically me offering some submission to him as well as to my wife.

Another aspect of my idea is that my wife's birthday gift would also be a gift to the both of them. I'm giving them some nice accommodation in which they'll both be more comfortable and I am deferring my role a sexual provider to my wife on an important day of the year. The signal being sent to both my wife and FWB being, that I am happy for him to have access to my wife for sex and that I'm happy to facilitate it and especially on such an occasion as her birthday. All of this would strengthen his confidence and leave him with little doubt about the pecking order of things, sexually. My wife would get the same signals too. My submission to them both.

As I side note, I would request that my wife phoned me up from the room so that I could listen in for at least a short time. That would be the icing on the cake!

Like I said, I'd love some feedback on this from the site members here. Thanks for reading.

 

Arrangements for a second hook-up are underway. Maybe just a quickie this time and not a stay-over. The quickie works better for me. I might get the chance to enjoy some cream-pie (if she can hold on to it long enough. But if it turns into an over nighter, I'm going to ask my wife if she will call me just before they go to bed. Even if it's just for a few minutes so that I can listen to their enjoyment as it's getting going.

This cage seems to get tighter much more often before. That is for sure!

 

We’re 4 days away from my wife’s 2nd coupling with her “FWB” and as you can imagine, my mind is ramping up the activity as the date draws closer. The topic of her cuckolding me has been brought up on quite a few occasions since her first meet with her new man. Sometimes serious, sometimes light-hearted teasing but either way, always exciting for me. My wife is looking to the future too, albeit a short term future and she’s making decisions without any influence whatsoever from me. Although she is consulting me very frequently about things but I think that that is for the benefit of her confidence, which is absolutely perfect for me. Anything to boost my wife’s experience in this new found dynamic!

My wife is very confident that her new man is going to remain exclusive to us and as she’s never been a fan of condoms, she’s picked up the contraceptive pill for a month. This can be easily renewed online should things continue in a positive manner, although if they do, it is more than likely that she will visit the family planning clinic and have the Coil implanted again. The pill is only reliable if you run it like clockwork where as the Coil, you can just forget about it. So my wife has every intention of going bare with her man and this excites me greatly. I’m praying that they go from strength to strength. That they develop a physical bond and my own bond with my wife is reduced to that of physical comforting and spiritual support for her new relationship. I want her to become accustomed to his body and his sperm. So much so that she becomes dependent on it.

We have talked about how everything is filling her mind more than she’s been used to, and so she’s not rushing anything. The idea of this becoming more than just a “FWB” type relationship is just not appealing to my wife yet, although I am hoping that with each passing coupling, something a little more develops. It would be my dream for them to become a dating couple. Meals out, cinema nights, concerts, social events etc. Maybe even weekends away together? But, I must keep my dreams in check and remain in the real world for now and enjoy every moment for what it is. A bit of fun for us all.

 

I really can’t describe how happy we are right now. Just talking about Friday’s coupling has both grinning from ear to ear. The kissing between us both is electric! And when I ask my wife if she is still looking forward to the date and I get, I’m REALLY REALLY looking forward to it” from her and her eyes are wide and bright, it really excites me!

She has decided that she will take only two miniature bottles of wine with her so that she can really experience the pleasure of her FWB’s cock and efforts and she’s hoping he will take a leaf from her book by doing similar. Now that the ice is broken, the need for the numbing effects of alcohol is just not anywhere near as necessary this time around. The two of them can only benefit from it too. To feel every square millimeter of each other’s bodies and to have that electricity of first and second time intimate coupling is what should be on everyone’s mind. That kind of thing has my dick straining in it’s chastity device and leaking cuck tears.

In the words of one of Madonna’s songs, time goes by so slowly!

 

My wife is currently napping in our sun drenched conservatory. Absolutly shattered for all the right reasons. On her drive back home, she couldn’t express enough how happy she was with the sex between her and her new FWB! They’d chatted for a few hours and enjoyed a small amount of drinks over a few hours. My wife remained pretty sober throughout and C (we’ll call him) measured his drinking too. From 10pm until around 2am, it was pretty much non-stop sex for them. She told me how she now realises that he is brilliant fuck and that the first coupling was no fluke. He knows how to tease her with his superior cock in just the right ways and how he knows how to give her just what she needs and when she needs it.

Due to the cramped conditions on the boat, I was told that apart from the morning sex that they had, it was all missionary with LOTS of passionate kissing, which she likes a LOT too. She lost count of the number of times that he brought her to incredible climaxes! And this morning, they awoke and had incredible sex again. Starting with my wife going down on his cut cock for a while. He definitely has problems ejaculating when the under the influence it seems but this morning, my wife brought him close enough with her mouth before jumping on his cock and riding him to both their orgasms and her first experience of him cumming inside her. He complimented my wife on her oral skills, lamenting how she gave the best he had ever had!

They have decided that their arrangements are to continue. No date has been set yet but once more, it can’t come soon enough for me. I have floated the idea of me treating her to a nice Italian meal at a restaurant that I know of that is part of a hotel for her birthday in a month’s time.
The hotel/restaurant are only a mile or so from where C’s home is moored. Her face lit up when I suggested that I get the pleasure of taking her for a birthday meal but C will have opportunity to use the hotel room for the night with her, providing her with birthday sex while I drive home. Only returning the next day to pick her up. Fingers crossed for that one! In relation that, she is definitely going to have the more secure and maintenance free Coil put in soon. It just makes sense.

I hope that tonight my wife will release my aching dick and maybe give it a nice edging while going into more details of last night. Once again, I couldn’t be happier with the way things are going currently and my wife has expressed how lucky she feels to have a husband that is happy for his wife to seek sexual satisfaction from another man. I love her more than I thought possible right now and this chastity device is earning it's keep. I think that it's very likely that it'll be coming off much less frequently in the future!