In August last year, I posted a comment where I was proud for reaching my first “90 days” caged without removal. It ended up being 93 days in a cage…. Three long summer months (and a day). I also gave her the package of new MCN Keys that I vowed I’d never touch or use. She promised to keep them and me forever. “There’s no backing out” she said. After I handed her those keys, she let me free on the 28th and through Sept 2020. On 1 October, she caged me again. Soon after, I got greedy and entitled during a guided masturbation session unlocked on the 10th. She then described September as her mistake. “It won’t happen again.” she said. She wasn’t angry with me but “You can’t handle it anymore” she explained. I recently offered that I had obeyed and didn’t cum when I had freedom to stroke. I didn’t push myself over the edge. I begged to bring myself to orgasm, since I hadn’t in over two years, but I didn’t break the orgasm control rule. It didn’t matter. She told me this week that my attitude and demeanor changed dramatically after leaving me out, after three months caged, to stroke myself freely in September. She didn’t like it. So that’s it. I’m done. Freedom is over. She’ll just keep me caged, all the time, from now on. I craved for her to tell me I was a “good boy”. I was hurt when she described me as untrustworthy. But she said it’s ok. “You don’t need self control. I will keep you good” Looking back to the 10th of October, she did look shocked. She was hurt I’d even suggest her letting me bring myself to orgasm. I had given her “all my pleasure” in 2018, and she said she’d keep it “forever”. But I didn’t realize that meant the end of her guiding my masturbation to orgasm… that is like she had on May 5th 2018, for the 10th time since my final orgasm alone July 17th 2014. She’s not angry. She’s not resigned. She enjoys the control. She enjoys how the cage keeps me juicy and sweet. I’m always ripe and ready to be bitten. My balls are heavy and full. Im delicious. My frustration is tasty. So with all that past context laid down, I want to share recent conversations. I mentioned that she had kept me caged for 12 of the last 13 months. “Well, I’ll fix that mistake.” she said. “I’ll keep you caged through September.” I shuddered. I will get my first 12 months of constant chastity. She’s kept me caged, with few exceptions, all the time, every day. 100% for 3 months last summer, that month break, and then 99% for the last 9 months. I’ve spent years of time wearing chastity. But now it’s constant… consistent… perpetual… She tells me my chastity and denial is unbounded and indefinite. She won’t let me expect or earn freedom or orgasms. As Giles said in a different thread: the passage of time doesn’t bring me any closer to release. I vowed never to touch or use those chastity keys. By extension, I could easily never touch or wield my cock again. It’s completely hers. 2021 might easily become my “first” year of constantly enforced chastity. And for orgasm denial, she’s given me a full orgasm just 4 times in the past 196 days (28 weeks. 6.5 months). This is new for me. I’ve never had less than 7 orgasms in 6 months. She breezed past my 100 day orgasm denial record set in 2020 without any notice or discussion this year. I asked her how often I can expect to orgasm. She told me without hesitation: “Months” between orgasms. So I’m finally transitioning to years and months. Probably less than 10 orgasms a year. Not the 100 like I had in 2014. I joined CM in 2014 and was ecstatic for denying myself any orgasms alone for 160 days and any masturbation for 92 days. All on the honor system and without chastity. I was pierced that year, while my wife watched. And it’s been a steady profession since. But what happened last year was a sudden step. “I took charge” she said, simply. She decided to enforce my chastity. She decided to press ideas of permanence into my head. She pulled back from that. But she decided to break me of expectations. She decided to keep me caged all the time from now on. She realized freedom wasn’t good for me. We will see what happens. She’s in charge, regardless. But I do expect “years” of chastity and “months” of denial from here on out. Thanks all for these past 7 years (or so) of advice and support. P.S. I joined on July 15th 2014 and I had my final orgasm alone (to Tumblr Porn) on July 17th 2014. I was pierced and healed and had custom chastity in hand. I only lurked here before.
We have similar key holders. When I introduced chastity to her and gave her the keys in May of 2016, she grabbed them and ran. I assumed she would let me out for periods, during which I would be free to self pleasure. Not once in all that time has she given me the go ahead to cum by myself or touch it. I later asked her about it, she assured me that would never happen. At the time I was pretty nonchalant about it. She unlocked me all the time, I came fairly often, and we fooled around almost daily. After I got pierced, I had to heal, and things turned or clicked for her. We kept fooling around but since I was off limits we focused on her. Then when I was healed, we never went back to all that unlocking or orgasms. I go months now, even then am not always allowed to finish, and still have not been allowed to touch myself since we started. Last year was a record of only 6, was 10 before that, and this year I’m on pace for even less as I’m at number two in July. She doesn’t like saying never because it implies she can’t change her mind, but it certainly wouldn’t be a stretch if she said she was done letting me have them, she’s already shown she was perfectly ok with me not touching it again. I believe in my case, it was the healing period from piercing. Chastity and her being my focus really seemed to click for her, and since there was a physical reason for us to focus on herself and not me, she was guilt free, feeling no obligation to reciprocate which was a brand new idea to her. I once started a thread here about her evolution, the reality is that I have evolved just as much, adapting as time goes by. Love hearing other success stories, wish you two continued happiness
When you go from having orgasms every day to a handful, you tend to remember them…plus Its easy to check my status here, I usually post when something happens.
I started keeping a journal. orgasmic events and being left unlocked are rare enough now. a simple set of journal entries suffice. I have a single note I keep of the month, of orgasms, and a list of dates. I also have a small monospaced font tally I built from that Year H1 H2 JFMAMJ JASOND 2015 41 60 ...... ...... 2016 43 30 ...... ..2222 2017 21 21 430491 320574 2018 11 24 241220 0C3405 C=12! 2019 19 14 634231 002165 2020 17 20 106460 037323 2021 03 0? 100110 ...... Yes, I’m a bit of a geek. I love numbers. But, I know, as one dear domme friend told me: “numbers won’t save you” I had been recording things in an application for iOS called “LastTime” which is a habit tracker. I started to use “ATrackerPro” based on ThumperMN’s screen captures of % time in chastity over the long term. I’ve kept the key dates of events in Last Time, which helps count up the days, months, and years. I used to grit my teeth and count down. I have long since counted up with pride. Now the ever increasing weight of durations make it difficult to imagine “backing out” or going back to “before chastity”. (There’s a Before Chastity and Always Denied BC/AD joke somewhere there.) … So since I know your situation, Tom, I’ll smile and tease you… you’re probably a little jealous you don’t even remember the event of your last orgasm. I am grateful I’ve kept such good journal notes over the years. I do genuinely recommend people keep a journal. It’s kept me grounded to record snippets of real conversations. It reminds me of wonderful events so I’m not constantly looking for more. Looking back at our past events helps me be grateful. And I can attest that whenever we have an intense encounter and I do not orgasm, my writing is more vibrant and ardent. I can remember and recall teases, edges and denial far more vividly than an orgasm. Orgasms wipe your brain. That’s why one is never enough. At least for me, I always want another one. That ever present arousal is what my wife likes. She doesn’t have goals, schedules or plans. I just need to float along and be happy. I’m more fun when I don’t cum. And so she plays with me more. It’s really simple.
I was locked up Nov 15th 2017, my last orgasm was July 31 2018. Since then I have had nothing and according to her, I will never be unlocked again and no organism. I'm still hoping she will reconsider and at least play with it a bit.
I'm not sure if congratulations or commiserations should be offered. When I've been locked for a long while (couple of months) I feel a sense of achivement and when I hear her open the safe to get the keys I almost feel let down that she's not tried to test my resolve for longer. Either way, it make these orgasms all the better when they finally are permitted.
LOL, I guess It's true. Although Mrs Edge picked April 1st as our "Chastiversary" date, the last time was actually between February and March. Denial and ruined orgasms have become such a part of our love life that I stopped keeping track except in a genersl rounded off sort of way. Admittedly, 20 years ago I was keeping the dates marked on my Palm Pilot (Yes, I'm that old, and we've been at it that long). But for me, things became easier to manage mentally when I stopped counting the days or weeks. Even now, Mrs Edge will encourage a caged orgasm if she's in the mood. I don't even know how long between them. A few weeks, to maybe a month or two. It has stopped mattering to me because I've learned how to surf the constant low level arousal of permanent denial.
Sounds like giving up smoking. First you smoke to your hearts content. Then you stop and yet still think about smoking, keeping track how long ago it was when you last had a cigarette. Then, some day, you realize that "I'm not a person who smokes" and the whole issue of days, months or years becomes somewhat irrelevant. ... but you might have a cigar occasionally. But it is a different thing altogether.
Oh great..she is very2 much like keyholder i dream... For ending that last orgasm and pierced well its very2 great..i wish i had but never dare to dream.. Just 1 time my mistr3ss said, "lets buy dildo and lets lock you up permanently" its make me shiver and i pleaded her not doing that Wish u have gr3at journey chastisied with gr3at mistress
Similar boat here too. We were humming along and then the wheels sort of came off with the covid lockdowns and daughter always being at home. That's probably a subject for another post, but we discovered that my wife just really can't do vanilla anymore (and she has no interest in vanilla ever again according to her). Our sex life cratered, but with me being unlocked - old selfish habits returned quickly. Anyhoo - lockdowns subsided and daughter went back to school and she wasted no time getting the glans armor 2 back in place. That was the middle of February. Since then I get unlocked about once a month with limbs fastened to the bed so she can clean the pin, the cage, and my naughty bits . Pin cleaning is really the only real issue with the glans armor. Cleaning sessions have also coincided with rather severe CBT play too. At least I'm safe in the cage!!!!! I've been given 5 orgasms to use with her permission (nothing around holidays or family events will be allowed). I've used one, so I'm down to 4. She said don't ever expect anymore, but it's ultimately up to her. And I can expect to lose them if my submission and obedience does not meet expectations. Like most of you - it's the kind of thing I've always dreamed about. Reality is a little different, but it's way better than vanilla so I will gladly obey her rules.
Orgasm? No Nocturnal emission? Maybe. Not sure Spontaneous spills when flaccid? Yes. I have “ejaculated” and emptied out a massive puddle of cum while completely flaccid. I was awake though. I was praised for this.
The commitment of some of you is really impressive and makes for very good examples. Good luck and enjoy.