Recently I was caught by my Queen watching cuckold pornography on my phone. She routinely checks my devices to insure I am behaving and I was caught. She was extremely hurt and let down by my wrongdoings and within days our relationship looked like it may come to an end. When I was caught I was not in chastity and I have since placed myself in my HT V3. I want my wife to feel that I am not cheating on her by watching pornography which I have never even desired to do when locked. My wife knows I am locked but has not acknowledged it in anyway. I guess I am wondering did I do the right thing looking myself back up? She has all the keys and I am away on the road so there is no removing my device even if I needed to.
Locking back up couldn’t hurt, but apologizing for the slip probably would mean more. I understand her feeling hurt by you cheating on your own promise, but in the big picture it shouldn’t be that catastrophic...you looked at porn. What is really upsetting her is the sneaky stuff and having to get “caught”. Explain what took you there and saw you’re sorry.
Sounds like plastic locking pants and a suppository may be in order for a naughty diapered Sissy. I’m sure a bit of diaper rash will be corrective.
My wife actually just messaged me explaining that she greatly appreciated the gesture. Of course I have profoundly apologized for my transgressions. I have a feeling chasity may become a normal part of life for me now atleast until she can trust me again.
This is honestly more serious than that.I really let my wife down and made her feel very insecure by doing what I did.
Glad to hear it. I can sympathize ...it is not the degree of any one act that I might commit, it simply boils down to: I committed to her. I broke that trust. Hang in there...all the best. HC
To lock your self up or not lock yourself isn’t the issue. In my Opinion the issue is as you have said you let her down. Communication in a relationship is So Very Important. Not just about wearing a cage on your cock or not but about your feelings and commitment to each other. Love, Honour , Respect and Communicate. You need to have a serious talk with her that doesn’t just center around You and You wanting to wear something on your cock. You need to talk about Her and her needs and desires. If you can work this into you wearing a cage and in your case diapers than everything else in your relationship can workout. That’s my 2 1/2 cents worth. Take Care.
Agree with @Mash2214 ! The bigger and most important issue is that you betrayed Her trust and that you feel badly about it - that's a good thing. Now, use communications with Her to discuss the situation, how you feel about having done it and use it to strengthen your relationship.
My first impression was the same as @Nicoftime , a little bit of porn surfing and the reaction was a bit harsh. To end to a relationship over that small of an indiscretion was overwhelming to me. A severe punishment would be more likely. But we are all different as much as we are imperfect. Each and every one of our relationships are unique. If you both discussed this as a hard line issue and you had made a firm commitment NOT to view porn, then it most definitely was a much more serious issue then it might have been for my wife/KH and I. The act becomes irrelevant and the commitment becomes the issue. I believe that putting your cage on could be seen as a step in the right direction, but IMHO the apology was the more important act of attrition. Discussion of how important the breach of promise was should have been addressed after the apology. And lastly, the punishment should have been at the decision of your Key Holder. Choosing your own punishment might have been well intended, but it is also topping from the bottom. Your KH was the injured party, SHE gets to determine the price that has to be paid. LASTLY, and I direct this to anyone involved in an alternative lifestyle relationship (as well as vanilla couples). It is so difficult to find a life partner. You might only get two or three real shots at it in a lifetime. I find it so disheartening to hear people say "this could be the end of our relationship". Finding a soul mate is wonderful. Someone who you can share your deepest thoughts and desires with. A best friend and lover who puts your interests & desires on an equal par to their own is priceless. Even in D/s structured arrangements, balance is still important. This is worth fighting for! ALWAYS agree NOT to throw in the towel so easily. Make adjustments, establish penance, reduce privileges, find a way to regain trust! When a partner to a relationship admits that it might be over, THEN SADLY, IT JUST MIGHT BE!
Dont think id want to make my amazing goddess @MaidenSyn mad. I wouldnt do anything like that without seaking permission first. Shed kill me. Probably litterly #verifiedgoodboy
I find your words very well spoken and true. Although I encourage my wife to sleep with real men she has made it very clear that she is to be the center of my being. My alpha and my omega. Looking at another woman in pornography is viewed as cheating on her and makes her feel very insecure. Honestly looking at pornography was really the straw that almost broke the camel's back as we had much more serious issues that needed to be addressed. Although she is still hurt we are definitely back to being soulmates and I have been cherishing everything about her which she loves more than anything. You are so right about only finding the perfect someone only so many times in a lifetime. I think about my wife and what she has graciously chosen to accept with her less of a man husband. How many Queens on this message board would ever accept their husband or boyfriend in diapers permanently? Most would be running for the divorce attorney. Add to the fact that I sexually identify myself as a lil girl and am almost completely sexually impotent between prematurely ejaculating, lack of size, and inability to maintain an erection the only reason she is with me is she simply loves me. Now we do have children together that mean the world to both of us and that also is something that has stabilized the foundation of our realtionship. When I make her the center of my existence she is madly and undeniable head over in heals in love with me. Sometimes I lose my way in treating her as I should and she has aggressively reminded me of such. The good thing is I am back where I belong which is at her feet serving her and cherishing her like she deserves.
Making an attempt to make up for my many of my shortcomings...My Queen slept on a bed of rose padals last night.
I just completed a one month chastity sentence for looking at a young woman's ankle boots on our anniversary. My wife had promised me a blow job for an anniversary gift but as I had the chastity sentence to ride out the bj didn't happen. I gave her daily foot rubs, did the cooking, shopping and attended to her personal needs so no time was added. I was kind of expecting the once promised bj. But it has not happened yet. I have refrained from manual stimulation. Mistress Linda says she is very proud of me for that. She has not mentioned the blow job.
My Queen and I had a great weekend away from the kids. She did end up removing my chastity device but not until after I had made love to her with our strap-on. This was the first time I had used a strap-on while caged and it was very frustrating and even downright painful at times. My wife was very playful with my cage but we definatly need a new device if chastity is to become a more permanent part of our play. She proudly wore my keys all weekend which I found highly intoxicating. She also did things to exude her dominance which she had never done before. She marked my body with hickeys and smothered me until I could not breathe with her beautiful breasts. She seemed to highly enjoy both and it was a pleasant surprise for me. Most importantly she did permit me to put my wee wee into her love temple. It was only after she had been thoroughly satisfied by a strap-on dildo that is two and half times my size. She made it clear that she wanted me to feel what I could not do and had me simply pull my wee wee out of my diaper and enter her. She also instructed me that I was not permitted to release my sissies into her and that I was to pull out, put my wee wee back in my diaper, and release inside of it. About five seconds in it was over and my diaper was removed and thrown away. All in all a very fun a fulfilling makeup weekend!