My unexpected life

Wow locked away that would be awesome. Just need to get that passport and off it is. LOL OK sometime maybe.

 

locked away I just sent you an email hopefully you get it.

 

Oh no private get away folks. Just a few fun comments about getting away maybe. No worries you can temporarily high jack the site, after all it is designed to start conversation.

Truth be told today was just another crazy day running my a$% off trying to get ready for a big bridal show. For once I have a little extra money to spend and despite going to multiple furniture stores today could not find one thing I needed... good grief.

In terms of the non-vanilla world well let's just say me and the Mrs. are not even in the world of fetish. Seems we both have so much going on that we almost forgot about the other part of life. Although I see that ending soon as tonight while I was cooking dinner she playfully ran her hand across my backside and said she needed to get me back in lockup. Looks like the rein of freedom is coming to an end pretty soon. Not much else to add to it is off to the XBox tonight to unwind.

 

OK lesson one never post when you are tired. I just realized my last post I stated you could highjack the site when I really meant the thread. Mistress Watchful you will please forgive that comment.

At any rate today is a new day and even though my new XBox kept me up till late I feel rather refreshed today. I just hate this time of year in the business side of things as there is so much busy work and very little income stream. Nothing like running your tail off in hopes of it generating income. None the less a fact I am sure every business owner has to deal with.

Sadly even though I have been allowed to run free I have little desire to even think of sexual gratifications. I woke this morning and wondered what the h%$^ is wrong with me. A whole week of opportunities and the thought never crossed my mind. Perhaps it is knowing what would happen if I were caught or maybe stress really does play a bigger role than I had thought.

Regardless I think my rein is coming to an end. Do not know why but I have a feeling. At bare minimum Goddess will be able to limit my XBox time. LOL Well back to the grind, the hospitals, and daily living for now. Thank you again to all of you who read this thread.

 

Hello zadig and thanks for stopping by. I wish I knew if that could be the case but I fear it is not. Just last night when I finally was struck with inspiration to finish the big designs for the bridal show this wave of relief came over me and it was like I was instantly mentally allowed to think about sex. Biggest problem is that my Goddess had just come down from her shower wearing a very sexy Victoria Secret Pajama set I bought her. While she wears it all the time it just looked differently somehow. I knew then and there I was back.

Being completely wiped out however, I tool last night to literally just lay around on the couch watching some television. Nothing exciting so I almost fell asleep. After going upstairs to sleep I had a series of erotic dreams one right after the other. When I woke this morning I knew the stress was not a factor for today.

Bad news!?! I think Goddess knows it as well because this morning and last night she made reference to me going back in lock up. So in short I am learning a little because I am not going to wait for her to tell me to go in I am just going to do it. Hopefully there will be some encouragement on her part but none the less after my last post where I stuck my foot in my mouth I know it does not have to be spoken. I think the fact that she made mention a couple of times is enough hints for me.

Do I dare take that extended shower first.... LOL just kidding Goddess.

Other than that

 

Thank you cks. My dad made it through a pretty intense surgery yesterday and seems to be in better spirits today. Still way to early for a prognosis but we can all hope and pray.

 

Good morning journal, good morning readers. The weekend of crazy things has come and gone and this is the first day I can hear the silence and peace of my office around me and wow is it nice.

The bridal show went very well and the crowd was heavy so it was a welcome sight after all the investments and planning. When we got home I got to relax on the couch for a while. Goddess had made a couple of references through out the day of the number of consultations I would need to book for release etc. While it was fun in theory I was probably lucky she never put a solid number on it. None the less I am securely locked away in the Lori tube this morning. It is funny how in literally only a few minutes before, this morning, she was tired, a little crabby from being tired, and really just waking up. Once I told her I needed the key to secure the final bolt in the device she perked right up and it was like someone flipped a switch. A whole new teasing erotic woman stood before me. I will never get it. I just know that she jokingly said If I wanted a sexual release last night I needed to find a way to take care of that before 6AM this morning. It was almost like she knew I would pass out in exhaustion last night and strategically the alarm was set for 6:30AM So here I sit horny as hell for some reason and back in lockup. Even the shower I had this morning was to short for any such activities. Well there is more I will post but I have to get to my monday morning conference call. Later.

 

Update Part 2

Ok now things are tidy and the studio is ready for business after being taken apart for the bridal show.

So my question I find myself asking myself today is odd. My wife and I went to her work party and the display of women in high heeled boots was rather intoxicating for some reason. I even commented on one pair in particular and she just asked in front of everyone where the lady had gotten them. This would not have been bad had she not mentioned that I was the one really wanting to know.

Yesterday at the show this seemed to be all I noticed. None of this would be bad really if it were not for the constant desire to see my Goddess in her thigh high boots she has. I can not for the life of me figure out why all of a sudden I am so obsessed and consumed with noticing this one thing in a season where it should not even be a big deal. Makes it even worse now that Goddess has taken back control of my sexual releases. I guess it is good to be back in the office today as I know there are mostly men in my building and the two young ladies who do pass my office from time to time are not high heel wearers anyway and sure not boot women. As long as Goddess does not get any tease ideas at home I should be able to allow this crazy time to pass.

So my other addiction would seem to be my new XBox now. Being able to download games and play on line with others around the world is so awesome. Now if I could find a way to invent a "game" for us in this lifestyle where we could all interact on line-well how fun could that be? LOL
I can almost hear my Goddess now "Oh Hell No!" :rules:

Well this really is all the updates I had from an otherwise crazed weekend. As more random thoughts come to light I will post them here.

 

Well my shoot em up game is Rainbow Six and I do not do cross dress so you would have to settle for CB wearing and rainbow. LOL Nice post though it made me laugh my [censored] off.

Not much else to laugh at today. I have this sinking feeling that Goddess is changing almost as much as I am. We were discussing the extreme cold headed for our region this week and she blurted out "Ooh nice, I can have you walk down town wearing thin pants with you steel cage. That should get nice and cold" I looked for some type of reaction and all I got was this evil little grin she has from time to time. All I could think was what the F*&^. She just said I better behave for a while. Luckily her stress level is still pretty high so there is little to no interaction on her part or at least none that will cause any undo turmoil for me. Come to think of it since I have this Lori device she has yet to do anything like that. I think she just likes keeping me locked away till she is ready to use me. Not complaining mind you as the one month I had to endure numerous teases and denials was absolutely mind blowing crazy. Now that this device does not have to come off for cleaning there is only one way to get out and that is if I use the emergency key, which itself is sealed. I do not even want to think of what that would mean for me. Heck I am liable to find myself tied to the deck in the back yard naked with her imagination lately. lol

Obviously back in the Lori device and last night was almost a good night. N crazy dreams, no pain, then bam! 3AM and there it was. That familiar ouch. God I just hate getting woke like that. Perhaps it was the moaning Goddess was doing in her sleep. She has these dreams from time to time, ones that she does not even remember and it sounds like I am laying next to a person have wild sex. If that is not a distraction...

OK so some observations after a few months of the chaste lifestyle. Before I was majorly addicted to porn sites. It seemed I could not find enough women in bondage etc. For some reason it now seems that is the last thing on my mind. I even tried to pop into an old site yesterday just to see what was going on and it did nothing for me at all. Not sure if it was the fear of getting aroused while in lock up or what. I just found myself back here reading others events in their journals. Now the same can not be said of my intense desire to see Goddess in something sexy. I know everyone this time of year is a little conscious of their weight but Goddess just does get how much she turns me on. Hell just a thong and nothing else sends me into a spiral of thought invoking self induced torture. LOL If she ever starts playing the rest of the part I could definitely be sorry I signed up for this, because one thing is sure. She absolutely loves the control it has given her. There is no doubt a change in me that has taken place. Most of it for the better. While I still that smart a$% demeanor that sometimes drives her crazy everything else is changing. I like the changes in me. Now if I could just figure out how to sleep through those damn nocturnal erections.

 

OK Mistress I assume that is a movie, so I will have to check that one out. Actually cross dressing is not something I am into. I know that will disappoint some but it just does not do anything for me. Now on the punishment side Goddess loves to use it as when I start running off at the mouth which can sometimes happen she only has to lock those damn heels on and I am pretty helpless to do much about anything. If she ever follows through with making me sleep in them one night I am sure to be screwed, not in any good way either. LOL

Just for clarification

I really enjoy losing this control. I totally thank you for your reply but want to make sure Goddess knows and everyone else for that matter that giving up the addiction I had has never been easier. You are very right though newsub4a that she has now become the only fantasy and the other fake ones have been lost. She has always been my fantasy but now it is easier to show say this and show it. If I had my way, which would be topping from the bottom I assume, I would have her in leather and latex 24/7. she is just so damn hot to me. Submitting through chastity has become my way of saying I do not need anything else but her so I give myself to her. The bonus is that she loves this control she has and has gotten to the point where asking to be out is not hard for her to say hell no to anymore. she actually loves the frustration as it builds. God help me if she ever starts adding to it on a regular basis.

Well good night all. Meetings to tend to.

 

OK just found the info on Saints Row 2 now I see...

 

Well I guess I can be thankful that with the beating we are taking outside with the multiple inches of snowfall that I sit here in this warm office all cozy. Kind of gloomy today however as I finally have reached a point where I am content with the looks of the studio, the multiple awards we have received lately, and the outlook on the new year. Problem is this it the time of year where no income is coming in and out reserve is much lower than what I had hoped for. This means no paycheck for a few weeks and that is never good. This cycle just wears one down and it does nothing what so ever for the home front. I know things have a way of working themselves out but it sucks!

On a much lighter note I was woken by Goddess this morning complaining that she had to go shovel the snow off the back porch so we could get to the garage. What gives? She knows darn well all she had to do was wait till I got up and I would take care of it. I would never have her do that. Needless to say I stopped her and took a shovel to the walks. Funny though as she hates to drive in this mess so she asked if we could drive to work together as our offices are within blocks of each other. I tested the waters and said perhaps we could make a deal and I could get out. She said no problem without even hesitating as she hates to drive that much in this much snow. I obviously was kidding and did not take advantage of that. Slightly disappointed as I would have rather she said do it or add a month to lockup. At least then I would have known she is getting this control thing down. LOL Of course we agreed to never use this in real life bargaining but I guess there is a blurred line there somewhere, right?

Anyhow, both of us drove together and dropped of the kids. It was such a long night as I was horny as hell and had the most erotic dream I have had in a long time. Goddess was using strap ons, but plugs, gags, bondage. Oh my goodness the dream just went on and on and was filled with things we have only joked about. I thought I was going to tear the device off when I woke. Problem is no matter how hard I tried I could not get back to sleep for over an hour and a half.

Fast forward to many hours later after shoveling a drive for my mom and with the extreme cold and windchill the device just falls off. both testicle pulled up inside and there I stood with that sharp pain and then nothing. I swear I can not win. How last night I could not get out for nothing to no trying hours later is beyond me. Needless to say it looks like it may be back in the CB until this extreme cold goes by. something about the steel that does not work in sub-zero temps.

Well enough for now-perhaps tomorrow will bring more promises of new business.

 

She's finding her groove again!

Well I would almost like to say I have nothing to report today but this is not the case. After the little mis-hap yesterday and with all the other work stressors I have to admit I went home in a pretty pissy mood. Did the usual cook, clean, bathe the kids, and other stuff we do as parents then finally got a chance to sit and relax. I must have been a little sarcastic and lippy (this happens as it is one of my faults when I am trying to be funny when I need not be) At any rate without missing a beat Goddess stood up walked to her purse, grabbed the key to my device and ordered me, not requested, ordered me to go put it back on. I did as I was told and when I came back in the room she had me remove my pants, underwear and all. She grabbed a blanket to snuggle up on the couch to watch our tv shows and had me next to her. Of course this was all odd as she has never had me do this, especially when HER shows are on. She lay down at the other end of the couch so that her legs could be stretched my way. The next ting I knew under the blanket we were cuddling with she started to run her foot around my cage penis. Then using her toes she just played with me for the entire 60 minutes of the show. I thought I was going to go mad. If that was not bad enough she later pulled the blanket away from me and proceeded to go down on me with her mouth as if to give the cage a blow job. I damn near went crazy. She just playfully covered me back up after a few minutes and said it was time to go upstairs to bed. Easy for her to say. Just trying to write this is killing me again.

We each dosed off rather quickly but it took little time it being short lived for me. On four separate occasions I had to get up to walk off the painful attempts at an erection. Damn it was frustrating.

Needless to say this morning found me digging out more snow in -15 standing temperature and -23 windchill. Let me tell you the dress slacks I wear to work do nothing to help a stainless steel cage around your most sensitive area. So far no pull outs, although after last night I would take one for some relief. LOL

Much to do today so we will just have to see if Goddess is back or if it was a fluke. The crazy thing is that it was one of those things where she really did not do much but it had such a profound effect. If and when she realizes this I may spend a lot of nights groveling.

 

Yes I am indeed. Of course I knew this when I asked her to marry me!