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    Hi!

    I really don't want to bother anyone with my problems, but if you have personal experience or the experience of friends, i would like to ask experienced participants for advice.

    I am a white submissive man. All my life i have dreamed of obeying a woman. I was looking for that one for a very long time, and now we are married. I got a PA piercing two years ago. After healing, my Wife began to lock me in a chastity device. And, as it seemed to me, we had an ideal family life. I dream of being locked up permanently, but my Wife doesn't want that. She loves to have sex with my cock. My cock is not so bad, 9 inches long and almost 2 inches thick. And this saddens me the most. It would be much easier if i had a baby-dick.

    I dream of Her complete abandonment of my penis, but this does not happen. At times, when i am locked in the device, i lick Her pussy and penetrate Her with a big black strap-on. My Wife always gets several orgasms in a row from this penetration. Orgasm from my penis is rare for Her, i cum too fas. I often remind Her of this when i try to convey to Her the idea of my male failure.

    But for some reason, this does not convince Her. On the other hand, my brightest and strongest orgasms occur when i am locked up and my Wife fuck me with a strapon. From this i cum with full sissygasm.

    I recently stumbled across a home video online of a well-equipped black bull driving a white girl to unconsciousness while her husband is recording. At the moment when the girl was shaked into orgasm from this giant, my penis was spruted without any stimulation right in the chastity device.

    After that incident, i had a few more orgasms in the cage while watching similar movies. And then i think - this is the perfect path for our marriage. I dream that my Wife will have a bull who will satisfy Her desire for a big strong cock, and She will stop my attempts to pretend to be a man and locked me permanently. The lover will fuck Her anytime She wants, i will swallow his sperm and lick my Wife after, I will prepare his penis again with my mouth for penetrate Her and will ready substituting my ass on orders. And also do all the housework like a good submissive sissy-slave. It would be an ideal relationship.

    The biggest problem is that my Wife doesn't want to cheat on me and look for a bull. All my requests for this lead nowhere.

    No, do not think that everything is so bad. My Wife fulfills my needs in many ways. She threw out all the men's clothes in the house, now i go to work in dresses, tights, leggings, i wear panties and a bra. It makes me happy. And the only thing She don't agree - She doesn't want have a bull. Several times in desperation, i begged Her to castrate me. But the thought terrifies Her.

    What else can i do? Any advice for me?
     
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    I'm in a similar situation
     
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    Let her make the decisions and be happy she wants to play
     
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    Yes, I understand. I have to serve her desires. But. I know for sure that unfulfilled desire leads to the destruction of the family. I have a big experience...
     
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    In openly and actively homophobic Russia? Riiiiiiiiight.
    As to advice - 2ch is so much better for such cool stories.
     
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    You are light years ahead of your wife with your fantasy’s. I’m a guy and I get it, but she a girl and she does not get it. Not to say that there’s not women out there that do get it there surely are, but most of them don’t. Try looking at it from another angle. You have more than most men have, be grateful for it. Let her use your penis if she wants, use numbing cream or lots of condoms so you get no pleasure from it. You’re just a tool for her to feel good and be amused. Just a sex toy with very little hope of ever feeling pleasure through your cock again.

    I wouldn’t push too hard on the cuckold fantasy if she’s not willing. You could ruin it for both of you.
     
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    #7 jehuty, Mar 11, 2021
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    You do not believe me? Do you really think I'm a liar? There are smart and tolleran people in Russia. Most of them are among It. What evidence can I give you?

    Ты сейчас серьёзно? Подумай, зачем мне это нужно на этом сайте? Серьёзно? Если хочешь, докажу любыми примерами. Могу сфоькаться в платье около логотипа. Тебе это серьёзно нужно? Я могу сделать, без проблем. В России есть НОРМАЛЬНЫЕ люди

    I'm a very strong sissy. I can resist any inthis world. My nature is domine.
     
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    I am afraid that after a while we may disperse. I am sincerely and utterly afraid. Although I love her very much.
     
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    Well, to begin with, you can't force anyone to share your sexual fantasy/fetish if they don't feel it. It's impossible. Given that, here's my thoughts:

    1) do you (or does she) want children? That could be driving her desire for your cock.

    2) Many people really do take their marriage vows of fidelity seriously. My wife and I do, which is a big reason we haven't done cuckolding, even though we both fantasize about it. Bringing in a 3rd person is a huge step. Assuming you and she took those vows, it's not fair to expect her to break them. She has to make that decision herself.

    3) Perhaps she just likes real cock better than a dildo or strap on, despite the fact that she seems to come more easily from the latter?, My wife was that way for years. Then as I got older and wasn't as capable of performing, she realized that while she'd still prefer the real thing, my cock wasn't big enough or hard enough for long enough to satisfy her, in comparison to my fingers, mouth, or a toy.

    I'd suggest backing off, and rethinking your desires/needs. If cuckolding is a deal-breaker for you, then you should tell her, but be ready for the marriage to end. AND-be prepared: we are a small community-there aren't that many women (or men) who are truly into cuckolding. You may NEVER find someone who is. Are you willing to give up all the good things you describe just because she won't go for cuckolding? I'd think long and hard about that..........
     
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    Your wife seems like a real open person. She willingly joins in and participates in nearly all your kinks. It would be a shame to ruin your relationship through insisting on this one thing.
    I would just enjoy what you have. Keep talking to her occasionally about your desire, who knows what the future might hold.
    Most people Who bring a third person into their relationship, take a long time to get to the point of it actually happening. There is no rush.
     
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    I rest my case.
     
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    Yes, i have to dominate in protecting my views and lifestyle. In the country in which i live, with my lifestyle and appearance, i have to be strong. I go to work in a dress and tights. And i have to dominate, defending my lifestyle. Of course, more than anything in the world i want to be gentle, defenseless and fragile. But it’s impossible to survive. Unfortunately.
     
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    Indeed.
     
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    Listen to your wife.

    Is the fantasy that she is in charge and that she may make you do things you don't want to do?

    She's doing that. It's not necessarily what you want, but the reality is that your wife is doing things you don't want. That's exactly what you sought.

    Why be frustrated at not getting what you want? That's the whole idea, is it not?

    Deny me. Prevent me. Don't let me. Control me. You be in charge, dear. I'll defer to you. Please let's live a life where you get what you want, and I bow to your will.

    That's what's happening. If you really want to bow to your wife's will, then listen to her. Accept her choices. THAT is submission.
     
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    Just be happy
    Your wife loves you and needs to feel you inside her coming
    She already answers a lot of your desires , why not do the same for her .
    A relationship between two persons is a question of mutual respect .
    Respect her desires and be happy with what she's giving you

    Wanting to go further is the high risk of loosing her love ans seeing her going away with someone else . I don't think this is what you want ...
     
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    Dude! You have a 9 inch cock!!! No she’s not into finding another cock to fuck.

    I noticed most of the activities you mentioned revolve around you interacting with the man. Maybe most of your interest is about you exploring that while you’re wife watches.
     
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    Yes of course. My interaction is also highly desirable. The problem is that the cock is really good, but i absolutely don't want to use it. So I want to be shrunk in chastity. I don't like having a dick. Deep inside - i am a girl. With absolutely feminine desires and aspirations. I don’t like to fuck, I like it when i’m fucked.

    But i'm not a gay. Women turn me on, not men. A man is just like an attachment to a woman for me.
     
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    Would she let you take female hormones and anti androgens? Maybe she would be ok if you could still get erect with viagra when she wanted it. You’d probably slowly shrink if your erections are infrequent.
     
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    Дорогой вы зашли уже далеко, надо возвращаться к реальности :)
    Your wife sounds like a wonderful, generous and friendly soul. She has accepted you for who you are but this kink - chastity and feminisation - can spin out of control. Try to balance it with some mindfulness practices and see how you can reconcile her needs and yours. Lots of of love to you both!
     
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    My Wife is totally against hormonal changes. Although, i would like to. But it forbidden to me.

    К какой именно реальности? Я живу в реальности...

    Totally agree with you. But there are desires that are also on the wishlist. That is why i'm asking for advice.
     
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    It sounds like your wife is very grounded and knows where the boundaries should be - for your own physical well-being and her happiness and pleasure. I hope you to learn to fully submit to her by accepting her judgment on this and her will for you.

    It’s a nice idea of the man as a mere attachment to the woman - but then shouldn’t you aspire to be a pleasing attachment, big fat cock and all?
     
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    Most Flr relationship are about being lead by your wife and what pleases her. We started ours because i was out of control trying to stick my little cock in her all the time and not getting any of my business or chores down. My Queen no different than yours she still wants my cock and would unlock mine more if i was blessed to have a 9 inch cock not a 5 inch that doesnt satisfy her anymore. We r best friends and talked about keeping her little bitty locked for when she wants anal. Its to the point i dont want to be unlocked because i see and the disappointment when im inside of her. We bought a $500 realistc cock from real doll to help but still not the same. Mistress does have a 10 inch long 3.25 thick cock she makes me ride to stretch my boi pussy to look abused like i did her.

    We have been having talks about cuckolding because i want her to have orgasms from a cock being in her. Neither one want her to go on dates or spend the night with a bull. Thats a deal breaker. Mistress has made me agree if its to happen the bull has to accept me sucking him hard to fuck her then finish in my mouth not her pussy because she feels that where he should finish his load. I have agreed to it because its about her pleasures not mine after agreeing to flr and male chastiy. Kinda sounds like you have lost your way with submission to your wife/Mistress and its about your sexual desires. Good luck and hope you dont loose what you have with her!
     
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    I agree,
     
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    I feel sorry for you. You're truly a pathetic fuck. If I was your wife I would divorce you and seek a real man to fulfill my needs.
     
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    Can we just skip to the part where your wife seize the light and agrees to do everything you want and now you're happy as you can be and the world is right I hate it when the story is drawn out
     
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