I have wanted to blog for years, wondered about writing a story or whether i should just shut up. Seeing pets blog this morning i felt a bit of a coward not having the bottle to blog so i thought lets do it. I am going to be open and honest with the disclaimer that my mood changes daily i may swear if your offended by this i apologise but i am speaking from my mind and i swear a lot in my head so fuck it. Authority and authority figures. Fucking hate them detest them see them as weak minded little wankers, am i the one who takes the opposite view to piss these people off yes, do i like to take authority do i fuck so why do i like to be dominated by a woman? This is my biggest issue in my head and one i cannot get rid off. I would say i am a character proud of my roots with a gift of the gab and no shyness (in person) whatsoever. Am i drop dead gorgeous no, does that bother me NO why because it has never stopped me bedding women of all shapes and sizes races and varying degree of looks my confidence comes from knowing i have something about me and knowing that i have never not brought a woman to orgasm. What i am saying is i dont give a fuck about this. (even though my rant sounds different). Am i nervous around men, a big No my accent and large build normally causes issues as some people are intimidated by me and im very streetwise thus allowing me to mentally draw a picture of a line in the sand a man should not cross with me. Bullys, hate them full stop no matter what form they take. So what impression am i trying to give, I am not just saying what i think. So why being dominated by a female and a younger one at that (freaks me out her being younger), well she got inside my head and past the wall i put up, she worked out that i can easilly be a begging dog at her feet. Would i ever cheat on my wife NO (not without permission Lol) but do i think about bedding other women yes i do every day, why dont i, well i get opportunitys but i never want to lose my wife. Am i an addict yes in many ways i smoke cannabis (and bollox to anyone who tells me to give up i will when i am ready, thankyou) but i hate alcholol (i have a terrible temper not a good combination as it can make me violent), but my biggest addication is domination the thing i have only truly got from one woman in my life (i have slept with hundreds of women and not come close). Yes i have got women to dress up in PVC and leather yes i have done threesomes with two women (never been into men) but it never meant anything, seeing my wife dressed up it means something it really does. Am i happy when i am submissive? fuck yes, i am so calm reasoned and at peace with myself i concentrate on everthing except my own sexual pleasure do i love that yes i do. When i am 'vanilla' i feel moody angry depressed and rejected i fucking hate it. Am i selfish as a person, yes i am but i dont mean to be its just my make-up and i need to be told straight at times. Would i get the hump if people point this out to me Yes i would, would that be right NO it wouldnt so i have decided i will not take anything personally on this blog i promise honest:angel: Is this all a confused rant, yes. I did think long and hard and discussed with my wife before starting this she pointed out MW and pets post and said it doesnt have to be about sex its about normal life as well. So is my life normal, i fucking hope not how conformist and crass, i love being a rebel. So where do i go from here, well i am going to confess warts and all on here i have decided and use it as my outlet. Am i chastised right now NO why? because i am feeling very grr and would run a mile from it (hope MV doesnt read this bit) would i put it on i suppose i would have to, would i be happy secretly yes maybe. But the problem is the intense sexual high which stops me from functioning eating sleeping thinking of anything but sex. Is this the way chastity should work, i dont think it is but this is what it does to me its like a massive foreplay session that doesnt stop especially if mv invokes my foot fetish (yes i have one big time). I also think MV is not up for anything sexual at the moment i understand why so me being chastised around her is not good for her right now it just makes me too hyper. Reading the last paragraph i know i am coming across as selfish but our situation is difficult to explain externally believe it or not. So what am i thinking about now, a lesbian in pvc with my wife and a strap-on fucking random but great thought. Someone help me out and give me an idea of what to blog next.